Lakota: Poems

2.3k · Apr 2014

Tough Love

Lakota Apr 2014

I used to smoke **** and Drink everyday
  life was ******, and I didn't pray
  didn't wear any colors but black and grey
if you looked at me, pain is what you'd see
  ask everybody I know, then you'd believe me
tried to change everything
all I needed was a little shove
  my mama told me baby girl it's tough love
  I didn't understand, well .. kind of
  since then I've been locked up
  got my **** together but the homies say whatever
  I smile, cause I used to be wild
  now its time to grow up, I'm no child
  the system helped me become wise
**** the ******* holding me down, I'll rise
  life is hard, but I'll give you a hand
  I was like most of you, with my future unplanned
  I got off my *** to take a stand
  **for once in my life I'm in command

724 · Mar 2014

Reality

Lakota Mar 2014

Reality

If i had wings, i would fly away
a lot of things on my mind
thoughts not all that kind
day dreamin that i'm at home
I come back to reality and I'm alone
17 years old forced to be grown
in and out of the system on my own
alcohol addiction
marijuana addiction
tatted up, gangs and hittin lick missions
mama always told me "your smarter then that"
but I didn't listen
now look at me sitting here in my 4th group home
wishing i would have listened ..

642 · Feb 2014

Drained

Lakota Feb 2014

Drained

I'm sitting here thinking about my life,
wondering what to write
i've been sad but i'll be alright
i won't give up so i'll live and fight
feels like i jumped in a pool of emotions
i'm getting tired of all these expectations
people trying to tell me i owe them an explanation
if i really wanted to i'd be silent
but instead i'd rather write and vent ..

570 · Apr 2014

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Lakota Apr 2014

untitled

I thought things would be different,
I though they would change in an instant,
I refuse to believe my thoughts are wrong,
I've come a long way. I consider myself strong,
I'm still young with big responsibilities,
Used to move from group home to group home. And other facilities,
I got out to be with family,
But it seems like its only me,

564 · Feb 2014

Going Insane

Lakota Feb 2014

Going Insane

Days go by, I'm rotting away
I'm telling myself it will all be ok
they think it's funny
they think it's a game
their making me go insane
could you look in my eye's and see pain ?

If i show you my weakness
will this all go away ?
Rez Life
has me hoping for riches
I'm dreamin everyday
but, I'm telling myself
it will all be ok ..

537 · Feb 2014

Thinking

Lakota Feb 2014

Thinking

My life is like a puzzle
everyone has a piece of me
some of me here, some of me there
as i'm sitting in my cell, trying to piece back my life
i want to scream and yell
songs are going through my mind
reminging me of the good times
then i start to remember the bad
my emotions become deranged
i look out the window feeling like i'm going insane
i pace back and forth slowly
deciding if i should get on my knees to pray
for the lack of misery trapped inside my brain
causing this mental pain
but instead i want to sit here and write to you,
to tell you my hopes and dreams
i know will never come true
you used to tell me, i could always come and talk to you ..

453 · Apr 2015

still holdin on

Lakota Apr 2015

still holdin on

Even though they say things happen  for a reason
no wise words gunna  stop the bleedin
had to go toe-to-toe, face-to-face  with my demons
my loved ones  moved  on while I'm  still grievin
I'm  here holdin on for all the little ones
life ain't easy but I can wait till  my  time  comes . .

Can't give up now, I've gotten so far from where I used to be .. I'M PROUD of that

397 · Apr 2014

2.28.13 - 4.18.14

Lakota Apr 2014

2.28.13 - 4.18.14

laying here trying to occupy my time
feelin boxed in losing my mind
leaving this place in less than 7 days
scared I might go back to my old ways
grew up in the world of drugs
when you look at my family all you see is thugs
not many people understand me
but they always actin friendly
I got secrets of my own but I don't tell many
was livin the fast life getting money
met a lot of people but I still felt lonely
now, my family are my one & only
its time to move on ..

I know I know do good, everybody tells me

Finally getting out of the JJA system

393 · Apr 2014

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Lakota Apr 2014

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Sitting here thinking about back in the day,
Trying not to want my old ways,
Its time to grow up im no longer a child,
I know my life's been kind of wild,
All I can do is hope for a new tomorrow,
Get off my ***, and forget the sorrows,
Life Is alright I ain't complaining ..

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