The graduate school
sent an email
telling me
that my application for
comprehensive exam
has been approved.

In compliance with the GS policy
the chair of my committee
is required to submit
a report
in regards to my examination
a week after
the 29th.

I feel like
I have not read
sufficiently
enough.

You, demigod.
You own your wonders
and curiosity
your flaws
and hesitations
your fears
and secret hopes
your narratives
and truthfulness.

Let no one
take those
away from you.

You are my constant uncertainty
time and again
I take your trembling name
out of my pocket
and demand to know
your whereabouts.

Our whenabouts.
Our whatabouts.

You are my philosophical hunger
and bland hesitations.

The taste of coco jam
On a bread
On top of the mug
Filled with coffee
On a wooden table
Satiated my Sunday morning.

The day would have been perfect
If you were here
To play with me.

We just did not work out.

And all I could think about is you.
You have been running in my consciousness
in and out
in and out.

You and all your detachment.
You and all your wonders.
You and all your fears and ego and denial.
You and all your hidden courage.

You,
the woman who feels life deeply.

You being absorbed
in your ceaseless inner worlds
where absolute conversations

never fall
like
fallen
friends.

Amidst all these shards,
I wish to see you again.
Maybe we can dance on our wreckage
on a whirling stardust,

one more time.