She looked at the leaves in autumn
And she saw their colour
But not that they were falling,
And when they got  caught in her hair,
She liked how he picked them out.

She looked at the snow in winter
And saw snowmen that would not melt,
In ice castles where they would live,
Until the cold set in and killed them,
But they said that love was worth it.

She looked at the flowers in spring
And wished he'd given her just one,
On the anniversary that he forgot,
And when the petals got caught in her hair,
He didn't think to pick them out.

She looked at the sun in summer
And waited for it to blind her,
Because she didn't want to see the falling leaves
That he crushed beneath his feet,
As he walked away.

I love you , I said
in harsh whisper
that echoed
Till you heard it back
But it was merely a repeat
and so all meaning was lost

Oh reality how cruel you are
to allow us to dream

I had tied my own  future to yours
As if that made it true
And then you told me
And I knew

You were willing to give
a heart
But any heart of yours would be mechanical

A makeshift heart you ordered for emergencies
As yours was given
Long before I

Inside a watch
Time ticks by oh time
The glass presses down
Cutting off the last gasps of us
Who is me

I hear the clicks of the second hand
I think He has made me to lead
those

Or maybe I am not a leader
Or a follower
Perhaps  I am just a brain
A brain ,

Are you oblivious to my lack of knowledge ?
Why would you make me this way

And the seconds , minutes, hours
Change my soul

My stars are covered by a delicate covering
We spun with our obsessions
Invisible until true acceptance

(Acceptance that comes easiest to those in denial)

We search for these fiery beings above us
Until truth
We bend and break and are renewed
In a beauty we do not , dare not , see

I travel your caves ,
Some deep -
Some shallow.
Most stray away from your dark
Exterior,
That induces terror ,
Implies death.

Those who cannot see your beauty - who
Has known this world and pasts ,
We run instead of learning your knowledge.

You are too much to avoid being shy .
You have thrown yourself into a shallow ravine .
- Not so much false proclamations of love
as exaggerrations of like.
Patience is the key
But you care to much
Building cities of glass

Ember smotherd by coal
You cannot hope to win but still you fight
Hoping that you  can start a light
That will grow to radiate a
Purifying glow.

As if you ever stood a chance!
They pace and watch you
See you are no great danger

There was once a flicker but the sparkling dance
soon faded
As  Cold and Dark invaded ,
Still you fight so tirelessly it is hard to tell
Whether you will give up to perhaps be reborn -
Or be  strangled for your eternity by your efforts