I’ve never been good at
Braking habits
Being patient
Planning ahead,
But with you, I’m good.
I’m better at being me,
Because loving you is pure,
Is free,
Is bright, is new.

You’re a sun I can touch
Your rays color me yellow,
Paint me pure.
Your light gives
Clarity, vision,
Warmth.

So come closer,
Sun,
Light my way.

It seems everyone
Knew.
I was getting ****** over,
Again
Again
Again.
Everyone

But me.

I was blinded
     By façades
     By words
     By love.

Now, I see.

The one sided Conversations.
The tears.
The lonliness.
The fears.

I’ve found Clarity,Love, Best Friends,
Freedom.

I appreciate the pain,
Because it made me more.
I love the rage, because its burned through
It all.

I’ve learned to keep
My eyes wide,
To remember it all.
I’ve seen the necessity of Appreciation,
Of savoring each
Moment.

You never know when or
If you’ll lose it.

Tomorrow
Today,
Never.

I’ve let go,
Set myself free.
I’m planning futures And ignoring fears.
I don’t know anything
But love and
Truth.

I can see the beauty in her
Eyes.
The Light in her smile,
And I’m lifted higher,
Made lighter.

The way her hair falls
Is Magic.
Her beauty is found between
Caught breaths and the pages of novels.

Her love is
               pure,
               Innocence,
               Magnificent.
Together, we are more.
We don’t need each other
We want each other.

Our love is more
Than words
Than time
Than platonic.
Her eyes in mine fill
                    The silences.
Her hands on mine break
                    The barriers
Her mouth over mine
                   Builds anew.
Creates.
Sets me free.

I used to be afraid of:
Going numb
Being disliked
Love
Heartbreak
Scars
Wounds
Fear.

Now, I’ll show you my wounds and you’ll lick mine. Salt may spill form the corners of my  eyes but I know your smooth fingers will remedy the pain. I’m certain that showing you the pain, the anger, the love, the truth will only build us higher. Only grow us stronger.
Molly. Your pasts don’t scare me, you wounds, they hurt me, but don’t worry. I’ll remedy them, if you’ll let me. I’ll lick the blood from your limbs and pull the shrapnel from your side I’ll swallow the pain your sick of eating, because I can.
Molly, I’ll live with you in this moment. I’ll love with you until our time runs out.

But for now I want you to know a few things.
I love you.
The way your body curves around mine is perfect.
I keep my eyes wide, so I can remember every second.
I wish San Francisco was right now.
I know we’re special.
I’d give up anything for this.
I love losing myself in us.
Being myself is easier when you’re around.
Your hands are lovely.
Your smile is better than any sunny day.

Molly, you should know, I want forever.
I want you, forever.
And I’ll love you no matter what.

I’m sitting. Staring straight ahead, feeling nothing when he smiles my way. Wanting nothing as he laughs at my jokes. I want nothing more than for him to fade completely into someone I see in passing at a monthly meeting. No pasts.
I’m free, finally I feel as if I can move without limits. That I can let my feet trace the contours of each continent. Now, my love, don’t worry about my pasts, they’re behind me now, nothing more than ink on the page. I’m not running away, I’d rather take you with me.
I’ll curl up with you until we forget the world outside my door. Until the roommates come knocking. Until the world comes calling.

I’ve discovered a world in your eyes. Brilliant blue surround black. I’ve discovered fear there. Trust, too. Lust, love, and secrets. All hiding hiding hiding, resisting discovery.
I’ve mapped exotic lands on the planes of your arms. We’ll escape there if the parents start shouting, if the people start pointing. If the doubt weighs heavy. We’ll run there when the “ifs” become truth.
In the dark I carved a labyrinth into your skin. Later, when it’s just you and me, we’ll roam there. We’ll love ourselves in the walls built high. You and I will live there. Talk there. Discover there.
I built a small black box to put our fear in. To hide our pasts in. To fill with our doubt. To free our minds, so we can explore. So we can map continents. Galaxies. Universes.
We’ll map stars, planets, cities and towns. Eyes hipbones, necks, and hands. We’ll explore hometowns, bodies and minds. We’ll build futures, laughter and trust.
Molly we’ll burn bridges, inhibition, and hate
Molly I’ll hold you close while the cities fall. I’ll map your lips with mine. I’ll show you my flaws and fall in love with yours. Molly we’ll find paradise. We’ll lose reality. We’ll find ourselves. Find each other. Build worlds of our own.

A night is lost in tangled rumpled sheets
Each hand is struck by every curve it meets
And eyes are lost to beauty in found in flaws
It seems the fear is lost to open jaws.
We make our way down paths which are worn low
This maze we walk at paces marked and slow.
My love the labyrinth is ours to map
Within its walls our love we must entrap.
And build a shelter from a world we fear
Of grey wood worn and sea glass beaten clear

A little advice from when I gave a ****.

You never fail,
Nomad,
to be disappointed by your Domino Lovers.

First,
your persian,
the big one,
the first love,
the true love.

Second,
your *******,
the responsibility
the mistake,
the theif.

Third,
Your yoko,
me.
the sweet one,
the **** up.

Last,
your Lioness,
your destroyer,
the final cut,
the Karma.

She delivered the crippling blow.

But no worries,
Nomad.
I'll patch you up,
friend.
I'll match you up,
friend.

I'm not yours,
anymore.
And you're not mine.

Float free,
friend,
cut the strings,
friend,
forget the lovers,
friend.

Stop the Dominoes
from falling
one
after
the
other.