every time my stomach growls, my face folds into a frown
'i cannot be hungry!' i tell myself, 'i ate at 6pm yesterday!'
it is now 7am

i think about how much money i'd save with only one meal a day

sometimes, when my depression sinks in i won't shower for days
i'd rather smoke **** and sink into my bedroom
i let my mind melt, bees circling the inside of my brain in a low hum

when they hum too loud, i smoke again