Harboring a disconnection. The world spinning around me, and i feel so close to nothing at all. The trees are dying; they gave up control. Can't help the rejection, caution, being alone. Feet are soft on the concrete. Chests are not rising every time that we breathe. Is this world simply asleep? Blanket wrapped around this state, the illusion that it's keeping the citizens safe. I am losing my confidence with every mistake. Cold and withering - fingertips on ice. The scenery has lost all sense of temptation. Isolation is in the steps that we trace. Searching for the thrill of the chase. Searching, always searching. We don't want our lives to end this way. In this winter heartbreak, shivering off the dead leaves and breaking promises to stay. I am promising i won't stay.

Do I ever cross your mind?
When you hear your favorite song.
The melodies embrace each other
the way that we used to.
We always said, the music, was within us.
Do you ever think of me?
When you stare into the sun.
The beauty and the brilliant aura
I used to hold
You always said, it was within me.
Do i ever linger on your breath?
When you dream, while you slept
You're constant in my thoughts
Do you ever pretend?
That she is me, that i am her
And her fingertips belong to me
i am the one caressing your skin
I'm afraid, that i really do.
for a moment, i suppose, i will tell the truth.
Do you ever wonder?
What has become of my life
Who i give my heart to
Well the answer to this,
it remains you.
I feel silly for even thinking this
but do you ever think of me?

Nothing but the truth, is to be expected
You haven't sensed the silence like I've felt it
The moment's gone
But we still hold on
Leaving our efforts ineffective
Defenseless
We managed to ignore all this tenseness
And i stressed it...
This event; we promised we wouldn't mention
On the battlefield alone
Though, haven't you learned your lesson?
Afraid to let go
The memories resting so deep in our souls
Sometimes, sometimes
All that's left is goodbye.

the symptoms of the innocence
retracing steps through that destructive mess
if you took it back
would it make it hurt less?
if you just disappeared
would it burden their stress?
you'll be alright carrying that weight
afflicted from a budding young age
and now you are feeling so **** old
the pen's running blank right over that page.
is this what has become of your fate?
stripped down, broken down
confined in this cage.
i guess the truth is in the final debate.
the clock keeps on ticking
marking sensations inside
in an open arena, it's no wonder
why you choose to disguise
all temptations aside
blanket ******* with more lies
well, now, this show is running live
with nowhere to run, i really doubt you could hide.
Results in the form of tragedy
You miss life, and the situation is saddening
To grab the chains; run like a boy and flee
you just want to grow, to plant some seeds.
young lust and old greed
this house has stolen all of your ghosts
and those sleepy-time sheep.
a shot for the cheerful
and a **** for this disease
now the minutes have come to collapse your words,
and bring you upon your knees.

I'm not an animal, so where are my rights?
I've set down my weapon - forced refusal to fight.
Let's set this place on fire...
Run and never look back.
This city is dead
Can't you hear it screaming?
It's far in the distance, but
Closer when i close my eyes.
Let's take this freedom to the streets
Make these restraints disappear.
They can't hold us forever
And I won't sacrifice my life without a fight.
My hands are bleeding from trying to climb out of my cage
So filled with rage; I just wanna feel the rain again.
No umbrella. I am enduring it all this time.
I am soaking up the pain from my wounds but i'll survive.
Tough with the fists like I am used to this ****
Rescue me from this routine....
              I crave to blanket the Earth with it
The walls are collapsing
From this angle I can see you, although I'm trapped inside
Quick, grab a brick! While we're still alive.
I won't be a part of this future
I'll take back what is mine. We deserve to be free
Take me home, take me back
I wanna feel alive again.

Let me down, let me go
Time is void of sound
I hear the echo ringing slow

This hurricane aroused by my destructive whirlwind
I can't seem to figure out
Why this desperate nightmare's kept me thin

Lost in the maze away from everything safe
The breath of the change
This bond meant to break
And it's breaking apart, designed for the embrace

Come undone, take it all
Words to flow upon the waterfall
Absorbing the essence of the battle now won
Can't help feeling distinctly powerful

Time measured so softly
Moments infested by the best
Of them, laid down to rest
Time treasured so delicately

The restless awareness
The scream is tearing apart my lungs
The decision to face this
The storm, so contagious

Daydreaming of beauty that used to surround me
The brilliance in the teardrops
Have fallen; so astounding

How can it be, to be measured so sweet?
A stranger to the pleasure
But not to defeat

Clench your fist, ignite the flame
Raise your blade, release the shame
Mind-Over-Matter
Correct placement of blame

Let me down -- The echo created in your mind
Let me go -- The clarity I'm determined to find

Coma-induced catastrophe
In the midst of moral elasticity
Why is it so easy to fall apart?
All this strength I have gained
But the weakness still haunts me

I've shattered the mirror and the edges now rough
So I can't see the fear
Repressing the force to erupt
Creating a bigger mess of this trust.

And the fact remains in these broken frames
I loved you too much
and I took it all
I dried up, everything.

You wanted me to feel the pain
well, i'm bleeding now
I tried erasing the pages
but I don't know how

and it's too late
it's almost gone.
These events are permanent.

Like the scars on my wrist
and the sun in your eyes
yeah, I tried to go home
but you used your pride

to lock that door,
I couldn't wait anymore.
my bones were cold
so I fell again.

And I can only blame myself
I can't deny that truth
but my wings were getting tired
and I leaned on you

now that's just an excuse
and i'm too selfish
to give a ****.

Will I ever breathe again?
yeah, I often try
the silence rings in my ears
a broken lullaby

and i'm a mess,
i'm just a ******* lie
and it's been tiring.

You're screaming in my face
but I can't hear you
i'm drunk again,
but that's nothing new

and I blame you.
I still blame you
I will never change.

Taking this punishment
is everything I deserve.
The death and the pain
you said you've had it worse

no, you were just the first.
And now i'm left to hurt.
setting off on my
sinking ship.


Memories in our minds
like a beating drum
I can open up my voice
harsher words are sung

capsizing over,
and over
over again.

there's fire for sweeping
patience; take it or leave it
i'm leaving. it's reaching
its' full potential
this season.
i'm lost when i don't
feel that anymore
when we are holding so close
it's the burning
i'm addicted
i wish i felt it
in my veins.
clawing in between breaths
muscles restless
i'm too wired, dead desire
need to be near it...
the fire;
i can feel that.
the resistance is fading
right off of the page.
don't hold me back
'cause i'm bursting.
powerless, but the storm
couldn't hurt me
i've wrapped my finger
around this disaster
so, let me run...
let me feel this
don't follow my voice
just let me vanish.
cold wind blows upon my face
last breath
last embrace
i'm trading it all
for one last taste.
can you feel it, too?
where it's residing within you
it's where i need to be
forcefully forgetting the freedom
*detaching.