Summer Daze
Consisting of free wine and expensive cigarettes
Reminiscing past choices,mistakes, and regrets
I'm careless and career less  watching the sun set and rise
I'm realizing "Growing Up"
is  more than graduation goodbyes

So Many Thoughts running through my Mind As I Am Tossing these papers one at a time,
Early morning hours as the minutes tick away I'll Fall asleep in the morning and wake up later in the day.
Sometimes My Mind wanders and Some Say I need to control it but what is the value in that, when your mind is working and you choose to ignore it.

The Thoughts
RunningThrough My Mind  
Cannot Be Captured and Put Into Words
So I Sit Here and Ask Myself
"Why Try"

"Why do it", I ask.
What’s my prize for this task.
I’m going to bed, to bed I shall go.
But I’ll leave you with a great question.
Well at least I think so,
Have you ever wondered why life is so strange,
Why every choice you make leads to such a drastic change?
I know that I do every once in awhile, Think of some outcomes and Cry, Laugh or Smile.
You only get once chance to make any decision. No chance for a restart or any type of revision.
Live your Life and Make it Fun,
But in the end remember,
all you have
is One.

I Try to Dose Myself with Sleep
It Seems to Take Away the Pain
But I Never Seem To Get Enough
And I Really Don't Know Why

I Don't Write Poetry.
I Write the way I Feel.
I Don't follow any Rules.
Except that what I Write is Real.
The Way I Feel Is The Way I Write
And I Do Not Write That Often
But With Her Not Here
I Try To Fill a Void.
Because Sleep Is Scarce , Thoughts are Plenty
And  the Keyboard Always Listens.

I Guess  I Can say I Miss Her
And That I Can't Wait To See Her
But There is So Much More.
I Can't wait to Fall asleep next to Her
Wherever That May Be.
And Wake Up Next to Her Smile
That always Brings out the Best of Me

I Can't Wait For That First Hug
That Hug That Lasts Forever Yet Still Not Long Enough
I Can't Wait To Tickle Her and Just to Hear Her Laugh
A Laugh That Brings Back Memories of a PCH Hotel Room and A High School Parking Lot and So Many More
I Can't Wait To Have Her  Leg to Place My Hand On When I Drive
Most Of All I Can't Wait To Tell Here How Amazing She Really Is

I'm Really Not A Poet,
  I'm Really Just A Guy
     That Really Misses A Girl

The Comfort felt next to you is greater than the comfort of a bed.
That was something that I learned very quick.
Very Quick I knew that there was something special about you.
How I felt so connected in just One Month
One Month and two more  you had a tent in your car that went unused
Because two blankets and body heat was all We Needed.

The First Time I saw you, you were in the shower.
     At a party in a former schoolhouse
          and I didn't even ask your name.
The First Time we talked was on facebook.
     You were planning a trip to Long Beach
         and I Just Wanted To Get Away
The First Time we met was at a gas station.
      I got in the back seat of your car
           And was with you for the next 55 hours
The First Time we kissed was in the back of a Toyota.
     After a day spent at the river
          and a night of fireworks,and tickle fights.
The First Time I wanted to say I love you was on my birthday.
     We climbed up a waterfall
          but To Me It Was So Much More
The First time I Said I Love You Was At A Concert
     Only A month after I First Met You
          And I Wish I'd Said It Sooner.

It was more than just a bunch of dancing kids and crazy clothes.
It was a place where I could feel the good vibes of the people around me. A place where when you looked throughout the crowd all you could see were smiling faces.
It was a place where people came together, a place where everybody felt welcomed.
It was a place to escape your problems and a place to simply enjoy being alive.

A Cop Once Asked Me Why I Had A Camera.
I Replied, "I Like To Take Pictures".
That Same Cop Asked Me Why I Was Shaking So Much.
I Replied, "I'm Talking To A Cop".
Alot Of Cops Have Asked Me," Why Do You Think I Pulled You Over.
"I Was Driving A Bit To Fast", Was A Common Response.
At A Party Cops Asked Everybody to Get Out Of The Room I Was In.
I Pretended To Be Asleep And They Left...
Only to Come Back A Few Minutes Later, Shine A Light In My Face And Say Something Like " If You Don't Get Up Now You Will End Up In Jail."
I Got Up.
and as our parents were on their way to pick us up
My friends and I sat in silence on the living room couch
Was the first time I ever asked a cop a question
"Is It Drunk Driving If I Coast My Truck Into The Driveway?"
he replied but my question remained unanswered.