Today it was verified
That my love for her was unconditional.
I always knew that such was the case,
But lately it was challenged.
See, it was my love for HER
That was unconditional.
Now, she’s changed, she’s different,
She is not her anymore.
Yet somehow, my love has ceased to cease,
Unconditional.

My love for the girl I fell for is unconditional.
My love for the girl I didn't fall for is unconditional.
Both persons is the same human being,
Whom i love,
Unconditionally

Hands in my pockets,
because she will never hold them again.
lips always shut,
because she will never kiss them again.
tears allowed to drop on the floor,
because she will never wipe them away again.

Cuts on my thighs,
because she will never love me again.

I’m sorry dad,
that i spend all my time in my room,
that i don’t laugh at your jokes anymore,
that I never start the conversation.

I wish i knew how to tell you,
I want to be with you in the living room,
you make me laugh everyday on the inside,
I have so much to tell you.

I'm sorry mum,
that i wait till everyone's finished eating
before I come out.
that i don't open up to you,
that i put my earphones in while we drive.

I wish you knew,
that I want to sit at the table with you,
i'm dying to tell you what's wrong,
and i often pause my music
so i can hear you sing along to the radio.

I hope you can see,
that i'm trying my absolute hardest.
I want you to read my mind,
hear me scream that i love you.

I wish you would realise the
endlessness of your beauty.
i’ve said i wish you could see yourself,
through my eyes.

but i don’t.
it would achieve nothing.
you wouldn't see anything new.
you've seen that image 1000 times.

however,
I wish you could see yourself,
through my mind.

then you would see,
the most beautiful thing.
your made up flaws,
nowhere to be found.
and your perfection,
discovered.

16 years is enough for me.
I don't need to see anymore
of the earth.

I've been here for 16 years.
god,
anyone, please,
don't force me to
watch a 17th.

16 years is enough for me.

They walked together,
as friends who were once lovers.
“I don’t want to lose you,
to someone else” she said.

he didn’t know what to say,
he was confused.

he wanted to say things,
but he couldn’t.

he knew she would never
have to face such fears.
because he’d made promises.
she could never lose him,
because he didn’t want to lose her

his eyes will always be drawn to her,
his smile will always follow hers,
she will always be in his mind.

and his heart would always belong to her.

No matter what
Apparently doesn’t include:
Changing my mind
Wanting someone else
You not being enough

I love the way your eyebrow raises
when you feel uncomfortable.
I love the expression on your face
when you are shocked.

Does anybody else notice?
how your initial laughter explodes out of you,
like a water balloon soaking me all over.
will anyone consider?
why you use your pinky to
play with your lips,
as the other fingers scrunch together your right cheek.

Will the next boy see?
the slight back and forth
bouncing of your head when you’re hurrying.
when you stick your neck out slightly
to smile for a photo,
only when it’s your real smile.

will he be able to tell the difference,
between your real smile,
and your fake one.
But most of all i wonder,
will he point out
the yellowy spec that floats around
in your right eye.
the cliche of sparkling eyes,
of someone's eyes like stars.
you seem to have the sun in yours,

Will he revolve around it?
like i did.
like i do.

I love your mind,
I love the way it works,
the way it expresses itself,
I love its uniqueness.

The complexity of your character,
the simplicity of it.
I love each and every one
of your obsessions.
I adore your personality.

Ever since that day,
in science lab 3.
when you opened up about you.
I first learned of your true self,
you taught me,
showed me,
the most beautiful thing i've never seen,
and happiest i've ever been.