Are you worth it?
        worth the severing of my heart from my body?
                worth the constant wonder of self worth?
                          or the constant late nights of crying?
        or the constant early rising to check messages and end up readin the old ones?
Are you worth the heartache I would gain if I ever opened my heart to love you again?
Are you worth my time of day to worry if you still care?
If you still think of me every moment of your day?
If you still love me too?
Are you worth it?
No, you are definately not worth it.
Not worth the time of day it takes to care about what it would takes to get you back.
Your ddefinately not worth the pain.

I'm in between...........
   I am halfway between life and death.
       I listen to the voices of my family around me hoping and preying.
           Preying that I wake, that I wake up refreshed and healthy
I hear them sobbing at the sight of my closed eyes and want to wake.
   I want to wake up but my eyelids feel heavy and will not open.
I just want to open them long enough to tell them I was alright
but I was so tired at the same time.
I want to sleep and go to the quiet place in my dreams
the place with no worries and with happy faces.

What do you get a mixed up version of the typical "Boy meets Girl" story?
You get pushed into the 'friend zone'.

My best friend is the one person I really care about.
Why is it so difficult to tell him I love him?
Or tell him how much I love talking to him?
What is it about him that makes me smile or makes me laugh?

When he finally told me he loved me too, my heart stopped,
Then soared. Thats all I wanted to hear.
He made me happier than I have ever been before.