Krystal Sparks

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

Over you

I gave you my heart and you tore it apart.
I thought this love would last but now it's in the past.
I missed for a while now I dis you.
When I was asked why I loved you, I could think of a list
Now all I think of is a fist
I got kissed and then dissed.
Then you hated and I felt jaded.
Why you came it's always the same
But the way you left is what was best
Because I'm over you but now I need a four-leaf clover
To get the luck and find someone new.

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

Wanting him to be happy

Wanting him to be happy with whatever or whoever he wants.
       Wanting him to be happy even if it's not with you.
            When you love something you have to let it go, right?
       Wanting him to be happy means letting him go.
             And letting him be happy with out you.

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

If you only knew

If you only knew how I felt.
If you only knew what I was thinking.
If you only knew how much I love you.
If you only knew how much I want to be held in your arms.
How much I want to feel the warmth of your lips on mine.
How much I want to feel your arms around my waist.
Or your warm embrace.
If you only knew how much it hurts to see you and not be the one holding your hand.
If you only knew how much I want to be with you.
You would be right here by my side and loving me unconditionally.

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

Loving Him

Can I love him again?
    I think I can because I definately want to.
       He made me laugh and he's made me cry,
  Yet I wonder why I ever let him go.
I want him to know how I feel.
   He makes me blush,
        And I get a rush and my heart beats faster.
I can't let him go because I love him so.
I know I can love him again,
    Can he love me back, does he want to?
I can't wait untill the day untill I find out.

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

Friend zone

What do you get a mixed up version of the typical "Boy meets Girl" story?
You get pushed into the 'friend zone'.

My best friend is the one person I really care about.
Why is it so difficult to tell him I love him?
Or tell him how much I love talking to him?
What is it about him that makes me smile or makes me laugh?

When he finally told me he loved me too, my heart stopped,
Then soared. Thats all I wanted to hear.
He made me happier than I have ever been before.

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

in between

I'm in between...........
   I am halfway between life and death.
       I listen to the voices of my family around me hoping and preying.
           Preying that I wake, that I wake up refreshed and healthy
I hear them sobbing at the sight of my closed eyes and want to wake.
   I want to wake up but my eyelids feel heavy and will not open.
I just want to open them long enough to tell them I was alright
but I was so tired at the same time.
I want to sleep and go to the quiet place in my dreams
the place with no worries and with happy faces.

Krystal Sparks Feb 2013

Are you worth it?

Are you worth it?
        worth the severing of my heart from my body?
                worth the constant wonder of self worth?
                          or the constant late nights of crying?
        or the constant early rising to check messages and end up readin the old ones?
Are you worth the heartache I would gain if I ever opened my heart to love you again?
Are you worth my time of day to worry if you still care?
If you still think of me every moment of your day?
If you still love me too?
Are you worth it?
No, you are definately not worth it.
Not worth the time of day it takes to care about what it would takes to get you back.
Your ddefinately not worth the pain.