rain tapping hard against my window
heart tapping light against my chest
it is so easy to feel lonely at nighttime
while all the world seems to be asleep
or in someone's arms
maybe at night it is like you are the last person alive
and the rain is trying to talk to you

i can't sleep because of you
i can't make sense without you

Always cramming to do lists into my pockets
worrying about what I am going to do next
or what I am going to forget
they end up staying in the pocket of some shorts
left or forgotten anyway or washed by accident

I always try to lay out my life
like that will help anything
yet more desperately than anything
I want to live day to day
free of to do lists
my only care the present moment

how do I go about this?
I constantly bother myself with the idea
of what I am doing with my life
all the while wasting it
contemplating what I should be doing

I want to go out into the woods
and I want to sit by a river on a blanket
with my favorite book in hand
and I want to plant a garden
and grow my own food
and whittle little pieces of wood I find
and write letters to friends who are far away
and learn about what type of trees
are growing in my own front yard

Some days I get so low,
I don't see how I could ever get out of the hole
I have dug for myself

Yet other days,
all I can feel is the sun shining
and all I know is the deep truth
that it will always rise again

I won't ever give up on the love I feel flowing through my veins.

i rememember how i felt
with your breath on my skin
while we were in bed
we were so close
i could swear our bodies were one

i tried so hard to memorize
the unfamiliar sound
of the breathing
that seemed to keep my heart alive

To this day i have never heard
something so beautiful
i have never wanted to keep
something more
i have never wanted anything more
than to hear it
again and again

i hate forcing myself to feel less
the whole world just wants
everyone to feel less
and i wont give in
let my Heart spill all over everywhere

I think I could write
At least one hundred haikus
Just about your smile

deep inside of us
all that we are made up of
Everything Is Love

I want to not know
where I end and you begin
do you understand?

I remember when
You slipped your hand into mine

Changing everything

it is because i am in Love,

and when

i am in Love





i am set on fire