Ignorance may be bliss
But knowledge is power
So here I stand, king of the hill
Rarely challenged, never fallen off
Always asked for guidance
What do you expect from me?
Must I fix everything?
Am I surrounded by children?
Unable to cross the street of thought
So I hold your hand to show you the way
Only to be asked “How’d we get here?”
Fingers pointed in every direction
Because blame is easier than self-reflection
Scared of what you may see behind your mask
Living your life like a magic show
Smoke, mirrors, slide of hand and verbal misdirection
Unimpressed…
You may continue your double speak
While I read between the lines
Are you honestly surprised?
How do I remain king?
Simple my child
Truth, observations, and actions
If you ever grow up
You will become powerful

I find it so difficult to follow what you say
For what comes out isn't what your actions display
I don't understand
I thought you were different
Thought I made a difference
But I find myself back to square one
One of being alone
Only being able to trust myself
No more trickery
For that was the last time you pull the verbal wool over my eyes

Words written of walls brought down
Only to be let down
Sure your words expressed were genuine
But the words I held most importantly
Revoked
The grass will always look greener on the other side
Must mean I am the backyard
Not maintained for the viewing of others
But the one you retreat to for privacy
Do I question these actions
Or do I bite my tongue
Bite in fear of walls rebuilt
Walls I may never again scale
I lay alone pondering these saddened thoughts
While sounds of joy floods my ears
I must make these moments irrelevant
For you may never appreciate how bright I could shine for you

Laying together, wrapped like ivy to a building
I look to your eyes, viewing something withheld
I kiss your lips so they part with the words your eyes hold tight
Quivering with uncertainty, they say... I want you
Lustfully I grab your perfectly curvaceous hips closer
Kiss your enticing lips
Hips undulating in unison
Senses heightening with every breath
Clothes removed as if time was ticking
Urning to feel us together
While I ****** deep, I am captivated by your beauty
Skin so flawless, begging to be caressed
Tattoo like quicksand, pulling me in
Moments of ecstasy, you state felt like forever
Feeling what I had not ever felt
A ****** of which Everest would fall short of
We lay there wearing only what we arrived with into the world
Holding each other like ivy to a building
Basking in amazement of a moment shared

I step to quickly without reviewing my  intentions
Only to walk barefoot into the shredded glass of my mistakes
I'm bleeding regrets of poor decisions
I found someone worth fighting for
But I've placed myself against the ropes
Struggling to throw a punch
But I've tied my arms behind my back
I must break through these restraints 
Stop traveling in circles of my repetition 
Notate my mistakes, mend what I can
Study hard, and apply when tested
So I may tread softly

With you I'm at a lack of words but I'll do my best. 
Good thing we agree on emotions to fill the rest. 
I feel blessed to have been able to meet you
And only you have had the effect on me that you do

Everything you do and say, we seem to blend
It's weird to say, but I could get used to this trend
You deny it all day long
You're gorgeous, you and that fact need to get along

I love how your smile lights up your face
And only can make my heart race
I can't express the way you feel
And the way you make my heart flutter, it's the real deal

But not necessarily in the way you think
Your mind will be in a roller rink
Round and round in circles
I don't want to hear talk of ridicules

You make me happy like I can't explain
Like aerodynamics lift an aero plane 
I feel like myself once again
Like how my skin feels when it'***** by rain

It's refreshing like the quench of a thirst 
But there is one thing I must say first
You are something special
So amazing it's meeting my thresh hold

You make me want more, bring me to beg for a kiss
I'd drop to my knees for such bliss
The way you look in my eyes
Brings me up more than any of my highs

The connection we share
The way you care
I'm blown away
And here I lay

Wondering what you're thinking
Trying to be smooth with winkings 
I can't believe how hard I try to impress you
The feel of your lips and my urging, it's true

I can't help but think about it
I don't need mapquest to map it
I know what I'd have to do
But it makes me pause, is this the same feeling by you

I really don't know how to bring this to an end
But it's something I want to explore to no end
What fate has for us in store
I have no idea, just know I want more