When you appear at night and kiss my crown
But disappear right before dawn
When I still feel your touch post-awaking
Which leaves me yearning for your making
But then I meet you not in dream
And notice how little to you I mean
So I endure in quiet despair
This self-induced haunting nightmare

Of course I didn't tell you that.
Especially after you so excitedly declared your love for it.
You looked at me expectantly.
So I agreed.
Even though I hate the rain.
I hate how cold and clammy it makes you feel.
But I guess for you I could romanticise it.
I really tried to.
Every time it rained I looked up at the sky and thought of how much I loved it.
Even when it got colder.
Even when it was stormy.
I could convince myself that I loved the rain.
But one day after a really bad storm,
I stood there, soaking wet, asking myself
When I had started to love the rain so much that I grew used to being uncomfortable.
Because I had to do it for you. Right?
Because I loved you.
But at that point I wondered if the rain wasn't too cold for me after all.
Because then I remembered that I don’t have to love the rain.

“How could anyone hate the rain?”

I ask myself

“How can something so wild and beautiful
not soothe, comfort one-kind?”

But then I realise that rain is art and art is meant to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comforted

So I guess I am disturbed and yet comforted by the presence of teardrops falling from the sky alone

A thousand kisses brace my skin that took all the way from the ocean to me

It feels like a confession

A sign of love so wild and unconditional
so brutal and so honest

Yet people fail to understand that this love
is not meant to be pleasant

It can be cold and painful
unforgiving and off-throwing

This love is not meant to be easy at all times

And the way the ocean's love comes unconditionally
I might as well reciprocate it

Allowing myself to just close my eyes and feel

Because that is how I feel about the storm and the breeze, the warm and the cold,
the loud and the quiet, the wild and the calm

Because I love the rain how it loves me.