After a year you decided
I was your tattered t-shirt
You threw me out and you left on the curb

I'm cold
I'm cold

In the back of your closet
I'm just a photograph
Polaroid from three years ago
You never looked back
You're moving on

I can't blame you
for chasing your own dream
Maybe we're two differences
with opposite destinies
The land where my fantasies start to
collide with reality
My heart shatters in remains of what
we used to be

It dawns on me the promises we've broken
your lingering scent that
my pillows are cloaked in
I'll pretend that
I'm not hurting
You'll pretend that you
don't notice

I can't blame you for
chasing your own dream
I was just a star in your
infinite galaxy
We're crashing and tumbling
on the shores of the same beach
When you find where you belong in this world
Please remember me.

“I’m fine,” I’ll say.
And I’ll lie to your face and smile and act like
I’m okay
But I am not okay

“Nothing’s wrong,” I’ll tell you
And I will assure you that I am emotionally stable
That my tears are not threatening to spill from the surface
But they are

Because there are some wounds that Band-Aids cannot heal
And pain that ibuprofen cannot suppress

There are monsters inside of me
That even my bones cannot protect me from

*But I am okay.
I am okay.

It’s moments like these—
When your eyes connect with mine,
And I can’t help but fawn over their beauty.

Moments when your fingerprints leave
Invisible marks on my skin.
Branding me
Promises of forever,
A mere dream unspoken on your tender lips

Your kisses stealing
The end of my sentences
Murdering me soundlessly with every
Drawl of my name
And lingering glance

It’s moments like these,
When I thought it weren’t possible
Or not possible enough
That I’ve fallen even more in love
With your presence or
Your every word

Moments like these when I cannot control
The utter and irrefutable
Desire

The craving to be near you
To hold you
And just feel your existence

Moments that remain imprinted in my mind