There is this pain in my heart that doesnt go away
It's still in the background of my happiest days
Some days I can bare it and other days I want to die
Some nights I can ignore it while others to sleep I cry
There's nothing I know of that I can do
But put on a smile and try not to be blue
I hope one day it will leave me and never come back
Until then I will pretend my heart isn't a shade of black

This feeling I have won’t go away
I’m so scared now because I want it to stay
But I’m not the one that decides its fate
I just have to hope love doesn’t turn into hate
The only thing to do is try the best that I can
This time around I am going to keep my man
The feeling I speak of is love in the raw
And this is a war where there is no law
Just keep up good spirits and pray for that band
One day it will go on the third finger of my left hand

Why am I the exception to every rule?
You can't look, but I can
You can't touch, but I can
You can't kiss, but I can
You can't miss, but I can
You can't hurt, but I can
You can't love, but I can
You can't worry, but I can
You can't die, but I can
I look
I touch
I kiss
I miss
I hurt
I love
I worry
I die...
So do you
In the end am I that different from you?
Do I expect different things from others?
I want respect
I am human
I am me

The failed relations before you were necessary
To fully appreciate what you do to my heart
This love is something i've never felt
And i'll do everything i can to see it doesnt fall apart
Of course we will disagree, it happens
And we're two very different kinds
Like black and white and ying and yang
Our love conquers our minds
I know i won't feel this way again
It's ok cuz i won't have to search any longer
Nothing can tear our love from us
Cuz every day it just gets stronger and stronger

There's nothing better than being in love
Lips there to kiss, a warm body to hug
You're so happy you feel like flying
You're heart might explode and you think you're dying
You feel safe and secure like nothing before
You hope you'll never have to close this door
They say its better to have loved than not
And it's true this is a feeling that can't be bought
So hold it close and don't ever let go
Trust me, i'm in love, so i should know

Sometimes it feels like the world is falling down
We can't seem to get this smile to replace the frown
Life is good so why do we feel so bad
Its like there is no happy, only sad or mad
We try our best to take things one day at a time
But these problems keep coming in one long line
One person can only handle so much pain
Its like not having an umbrella when stuck in the rain
The only thing we want is to be warm and dry
And not have another needless tear fall from our eye

Your body is **** and
it makes me hot and wet
I want to get you naked
so we can sweat
I'll **** your pop
and you can lick my pie
I'll lick your neck
if you slap my thigh
Let me ******* slow
Then you can **** me fast
Pull on my hair
while i grab your ***
I want you so bad
it burns deep inside
I'll want you forever
You're my one of a kind

Your hair's dark as night
Your eyes bright as light
Your lips smooth as silk
Your skin sweet like milk
Your build hard and strong
Your height tall and long
You dress with style
You make me smile
Your manner fun
My heart you've won

Life *****, and then you die
Your heart breaks and so you cry
You pick it up, and it's painfully tough
You can put a smile on, but it's never enough
Just live each day like it's your last
Don't look back, not to the past
Chin up, life is hard and it's cold
But you've been dealt your hand you cannot fold
You tell yourself it's nothing you lack,
That sometimes the love is just gone
And it doesn't come back

Things I Hate...

I hate it when you're talking to someone online...and they just go offline w/o saying bye (can you say rude?)

I hate when you bite into a chicken wing...and get that tough vain thing and you throw up in your mouth a little

I hate it when someone tells you they'll call...and they don't

I hate it when you find something on tv FINALLY...and its got five minutes left

I hate it when the bible thumpin, honk if you love
jesus people, decide you need jesus...at 8am

I hate it when you're reading a book you got from a resale store...and the last few pages are torn out

I hate it when you put your heart into something...and its just not good enough

I hate it when you feel alone...yet there are dozens of people all around you

I hate it when you try to help...and it goes unappreciated

I hate it when you dont want help...and someone insists

I hate it when people volunteer you for things...without asking you first

I hate it when you're heart aches...but they dont make a pill for that

I hate it, that i hate so many things...when all i want is to be happy

There are feelings inside
That i try to hide
I need to be strong
But everything always goes wrong
I want to ask why
And not break down and cry
Really what would you do
If reality was closing in on you
I will not give up
I'll yell to the world "i don't give a ****"
I know how to pretend that's true
But all i want is to be held by you.

Now is the time
You have to be strong
Look him in the eye
This won't take very long
Tell him what your thinking
Exactly how you feel
It's the only way
To make your open wound heal
Once you have done this
It will help you move on
You're a very special person
Too wonderful to be used as a pawn
Love's not a game
It's a tactical mission
It takes great finesse
And some die hard precision
It's a feeling once felt
You should never let pass
Even when you know
You might fall flat on your ***

When you are down
And feeling alone
Put on a smile
Try not to groan
Things will get better
As time goes by
Think happy thoughts
Pretend you can fly
Soar through clouds
Forget your sorrow
Leave pain behind
You'll feel better tomorrow

Am I too nice
Am I too dorky
Am I too stupid
Am I too porky
I don't know if I can
But I have to try
My heart aches so bad
It wants to lay down and die
I know who I am
Very smart and so cool
If you don't think so
You must be a fool
I know what I am
I'm an original catch
So to all you guys
It's your turn to fetch

You said we had a future
With no goodbyes
Yet here I stand
With tears in my eyes
You let me down
Without even a blink
It happend so fast
I had no time to think
I thought I could trust you
Though I was deceived
But I will be strong
I'm not going to grieve
From this experience
I will certainly ascend
Because all new beginnings
Come from another ones end

Sometimes it feels
Like I'm falling apart
There are a million cat scratches
All over my heart
Everything is blurry
My body feels numb
I can't get the words
To roll off my tongue
And then I remember
What I'll one day be
Then everyone will wish
They could be like me

I'm a badass *****
I can ease that itch
You're all full of ***
And baby i want some
I can make you smile
Make it worth your while
You'll need to hold on tight
This could last all night
You're not taking advantage of me
I'm taking advantage of you
I know you want me
I'd ****** want me too
Tell me what you want
And sugar, that i'll flaunt
I'm a very generous giver
Gonna make your body shiver
You know that I can take it
No way you're gonna fake it
Your world's about to fall
For my love you're gonna crawl
You're not takin advantage of me
I'm takin advantage of you
I know you want me
I'd ****** want me too

Every day gets better and better
And so then i worry more
I worry this is just a dream
Or the calm before the storm
I think life has its ups and downs
There's nothing you can do
But hope they want to make it work
Just as much as you
You get what you put into life
Not the other way around
Love the way you would want to be loved
And hope it doesn't let you down.