I cant help but stare out these windows peering from behind the eyes of despair I search for my soul in darkness where I lost it must be where start is..if its just me here why do I smell **** ,****...I done flushed **** out the toilet...now it seems I've flushed my soul down a toilet bowl...bloodstained and burdened with grief it circles then is swallowed..into the abyss into sleepy hollow..into the mind of the beast where all dear not follow..from the mind to the mouth..swallowed to the south into the grout..into the belly of the beast..deeper down into the depths of hell...deeper still..Satan knew me well..The Chosen just beyond reality I lay in a spell...Zeus' arrow to the heart of Satan I William Tell.

who'd think a girl could be such a creep
you dont even need to try
use to think that you were sweet
now your kiss taste of lemon pie
they say beauty's only skin deep
and now I see why
the things that you do to me
but wont ever give me a try
now I'm writing cant sleep
at least i didn't cry
one thing though our love was sweet
that i cant deny
but next time I'll let still waters sleep
and let sleeping dogs lie

i forgot my book of thoughts at home
so i decided to write about forget-me-nots in bloom
i can see us staring over the vatican in rome
or makin signs of the cross at Jesus tomb
not the religous type
just spiritual in the dome
a love child is born
cause we got all spiritual in the womb
baby i'll never leave you alone
even when i have to i'll leave you a phone
number the days til i get home
just remember too forget -me-not

One man blind
two broken minds
one shattered soul
it's story untold
the unchained spirit
it's true story unfolds
ghost in a shell
please save me from hell
Vengeance unceased
forever no peace
the nature of the one
we mark as the beast

A soul cast into societys drama
no comfort zone
no word from my mama
to lose a friend is darkness never ending
todays end nights beggining
to life's expirience this smile im lending
the only one i've got
now sorrow never ending
never to the point life's roads forever bending
countless broken hearts love never mending
to you friend this message im sending
in a dead zone notes forever pending
so sorrows my friend now lonliness never ending
me and sorrow friends forever
the worlds end our tomorrow
holding hands upon lifes sands sinking fast
looking up at the stary sky
its night so vast
on sorrows shoulders my burdens are cast
no matter our past
sorrow and I a friendship that'll last

sitting in the background of my backyard reminiscing of my past year
thinking about **** that was said gat me like smt yeah
****** dont get down but they wanna act here
life is just a show and we gat ya tickets in the back there
main eventing on some ******* stunting on some hoes
where my **** smoke blows "hell' aint nobody knows
cutting off ya air supply you starring in my shows
the irony in life makes us all grow
where we headed from here?
not even god knows
so im packing all my clothes saying goodbye to you *******
taking extra packs of back getting faded on you snitches
and where I end up only God can tell
where ever it gone be is what it is
nothings worst than hell
this is a farewell ******* PIGS **** the haters and the hassles
searching for life at midnight on the beach smoking **** building sand castles

only when i look through The Eyes of God am I at peace,otherwise nothing else makes sense,nothing else matters.why?there's nothing else Mathers,Marshall law we were all mislead by indoctrinated Fathers,who sought to turn us into martyrs,for entertainment only like the top five NBA starters,consumed with keeping up with the carters n catering to you haters simply by having goals that's greater,keeping faith til one glorious day Sandy comes and meets me standing in the breeze blowing trees , wind and rain set my mind at ease,caught in a storm lost in a whirlwind my head spins tilted in a dribble passing the days,still giving thanks "forever"until the day I'm carried over to the center of the suns rays...finally i see the light...yet i remain the same so many things on the brain lost,grounded,clueless;stuck like a bird in the rain.