My deadest fiance you give life to me, you are the light in the dark, when I'm near you I'm nothing but happy, happier than I've ever felt with anyone. You are the reason I smile, the reason I get up everyday and say I'm in love, your my most valued friend, your my other half, my best friend, the future mother of my kid(s), but above all your my fiance and I'll always love you, protect you, care for you, love and nuture you til the day we die. I love you so much you're my world, my shining star in the blank clear night sky, my happy place. My dearest your all I think about from the time I wake up, to the time I go to sleep and even in my dreams and if I could I'd do my life over and only have you as my love because you're the only one worthy of it. I live you and I'm glad you're mine and in my life with out you I'd probably be dead.

Ask anyone in the world what they think true beauty is to them none will be the same. Even congress wouldn't have the same opinion. True beauty to me is the beautiful woman who had my heart and once I have a child that child will be right there with her mother who has always been beautiful to me.

So I believe that by next month I'm going to be the proud father of I hope a baby girl. Only problem is we and my girl can't get a straight answer one doctor says yes another no but they could just do a fast ultrasound and find out instead of running is in a ******* circle. I feel like I'm in ******* NASCAR always find in a **** circle. I don't see how the stand it I'm dizzy and have to ***. I want to be a street race instead. Never going in a circle on a very predictable track. I want to go left and right and eventually end the **** race in one or three laps not 200 making only left turns. My minds always reaching and sometimes I wish I could just rest and have ask my problems just vanish. My religious friends say worth prayer antennas possible. I've tried it and honestly I don't think so cause if god even existed none of the people I know or you know would ever die. We would ask live forever cause why would someone who made us want to take us of this planet? ******* IT!!!!. If I offended I'm sorry I'm just done with this *******. Someone either give me some **** answers or give me some ******* help cause me and my girl can't do it at this current rate.

Dear Santa.
        All I ask for Christmas is just what I have right now, love, life, my job, and the woman who has my heart right now to stay with me forever. All I'm missing is my own place but I'll get that I've on my own. But yes all I wan for Christmas is what I have right now.

Why do people play games with my mind, why do people say that they were trying to help when they aren't, why am I still trying? These are just some questions that run through my head and I can't seem to find an answer. I run in circles mentally like a nascar driver on the track and I'm already dizzy and board and just want if this track to go drive in the street.

Still not a poem but I can officially say I'm going to be a father my girl went to the doctors whole I was at work and we are 6 months along and having a girl. So excited.

Ladies and gentlemen of hello poetry. I know this isn't a poem but I'm just so excited because as of this morning I've just leaned I'm going to be a father. I'm excited but nervous at the same time. This is a weird feeling I must admit.

Still not a poem but I can officially say I'm going to be a father my girl went to the doctors whole I was at work and we are 6 months along and having a girl. So excited.

Why is it everyone puts so much on my plate and expects me to be perfect but if I mess up one time I'm *******? I'm sick of being thrown between everyone and all the problems. I've been in the middle so much for sooooo long I'm getting major headaches.

What is happiness? Some believe it's eating a filing meal, others think it's that first morning bathroom break while I believe it's the woman I love, how I feel for her, and how everything is between us. We share a bond that's stronger than I've ever felt in a relationship.