I am not always me
as I have to pretend, to feel free.
I try to stand tall and strong
but nightmares haunt me all night long.
In the day I hold up my chin
but when no ones around I claw at my skin.
I like to embrace the strange and quirky
but in my head I feel you all judging me.
I guess I kinda live a lie
as I always seem happy but want to cry.
I can't tell anyone
cause they don't understand and that leaves me alone.

She sits alone in the wood
Her claws deep in the ground
Only here she is understood
The whispers in the trees
The smell of the earth
Near to the place
Of her birth
She had been abandoned
Left to rot and die
But the wolves rescued her
When the heard her cry
They taught her to hunt
And become one of the pack
But she didn't quite fit in
And so was left at the back
The pack alpha wanted her gone
She was too much of a pain
She couldn't keep up with the rest
And struggled with their games
But when sent back to the people
She was treated like a clown
People laughed at the way she acted
And turned her smile into a frown
Always treated as an outcast
And never had a home
Was the tale of a girl
Who was all alone
There was only one place she could go
Where she was understood
And that was all alone
Deep into the woods

It's true,
why couldn't I see?
I'm exactly what
He said I'd be.
I cannot cope,
I am weak
and like he said
I'm a freak.
I failed life,
I lost it all,
if I continue
I'm sure to fall.
I can't give up,
I must go on:
I couldn't if i tried
as I'm weak not strong.
Either way
I shall be dead,
a walking zombie
or encased in lead.
I am sinking
and cannot be found
and will be buried
within the ground.
Maybe then
I'll be of some use,
once I am cut
from the noose.
I bet He'd show
once I'm gone,
when at last
He can sing His song.
He will raise His hands
and shout with glee
that  is in a place
that no longer included me.

Slit my throat
make me cry
stab my heart
and watch me die.
I'll bite my tongue
and hold my breath
lean towards you
as I welcome death.
Tie stands still
as you come for me.
I do not run
but just wait and see
for you to take my hand
and spread your wings,
an end to my pain
you will bring.
The kiss of death
I welcome thee
dark angel fly up
to rescue me.
You can drag me
to the pits of hell.
I don't belong in heaven
you know that too well.
You can remove
all this pain
and take me to a place
where I can no longer maim.
To those I ave hurt
I'm sorry for what I've done,
that's why I've decided to leave
to a place where I'll be alone.

In the dark hallway
Is where she stood
covered up by a
white cape and hood
So many directions
which to choose
it doesn't matter
she will always loose

at the start
she would run
testing out every
single one
but one day
she lost heart
as they all lead her
back to the start

so she slumped
into the dust
knowing that she'll
never be good enough
she will never
find the right way
running through tunnels
day after day

but in her heart
she also knew
it was no good
feeling blue