kattrinsart

kattrinsart Nov 2016

When did, everything turn grey?
When did the colours, all fade?
When did, the earth start to frown?
And why did the world degrade?

The petals would fall off of the flower
And bury themselves into the ground
Losing their glistening colour
As they no longer can be found.

Then people would come and trample
Crashing with their heavy feet
Hiding what’s left of the petals
to become almost obsolete

The colours are now lost
They’ve all been put down
Lying on the floor
A sort of mushy brown

This is what happens to people
Who are different and stand out
Other humans destroy them
And knock them all about

These humans think that they know best
that being different is wrong
But what they never know
Is that most just want to belong

I know this from experience
I wasn’t the perfect child
And so, I got beaten round about
Because I was too wild

I didn’t always listen and sit up
And share my opinions out loud
But there is one thing I always did
I made my mother proud

My father was much harder
And if I was wrong I got a slap
I would work my **** off
For that one rewarding clap

So, I wasn’t the intelligent girl he wanted
But I was all that I could be
Because all along, I just knew
That I wanted to be free

Free from all these stereotypes
And judging people looking down
So, what if I was a bit topsy-turvy
So, what if I was upside-down

I did all the important things
And set a lot of goals
That one day I will achieve
After I finished with my dolls

But I wanted to take my time
I wanted to do well
I wanted to do my best
No one had to yell

No one had to shout
Or put me down
No one had to tell me off
Or make me frown

Scowling would do nothing
Laughing didn’t help
Using me as a punching bag
Would only make me yelp

Like I said, I’m different
I’m nothing like the rest
You shouldn’t expect anything more
I am not your jest

Look at me for who I am
I am no mistake
Look at me and you can see
That I am wide awake

I am learning each and every day
Learning to be free
So, what if you don’t like who I am
Why should I not be me

Why should I follow patterns?
Why should I follow a crowd?
Why can’t I just be me
And be proud?

In truth, everyone’s different
In truth, no one is the same
If everybody was
It would just be lame

different things make people smile
different things make them sad
but this means we can help one another
shouldn’t we be glad

every bully is a fake
pretending that they’re the same
every bully is stupid
playing their little game

you know that girl you hurt
as a little jest
well she has real problems
wracking in her chest

you think it’s funny to scar others
to make them shiver in fear
but you don’t know what’s going on
what’s whispering in their ear

one day they could be amazing
they could save your life
but why would they want to save you
the one that dug in the knife

it may be just words you say
but words hurt to
you may laugh at this
and say it wasn’t true

think about how you talk to people
what if something is going on?
inside their mind
and they are barely being strong

you don’t know them
you don’t know their story
stop being mean to them
and leaving full of glory

instead, put yourself in their shoes
and read their face
be nice to each other
we are all part of the human race

we are all different
and we are all the same
we all walk the earth
and we all have a name
we are not part of some sick game.

kattrinsart Nov 2016

I am me

One day I’ll look into the past and see what I’ve learnt
I will Start following my dreams
The past is what shapes us to be who are
Each step is more than what it seems

(Chorus)
I have to listen my heart
Remember what i forgot
No more hiding who I could be
I am me
Move the clouds out of my way
Need to brighten up my day
So, that I can see
That I am me

I used to cover up my eyes and hide my face
Ashamed of who id become
Scared that I would be just like him
Scared that I’d be all alone

(chorus)

I used to find comfort with my animals
Because they could understand
The pain that I always felt
When I was under his command

(chorus)

I used to look after everybody else
To help them Find their own place
When it was really me all along
That needed her own space

(chorus)
I am me
So, that I could see
That I am me

kattrinsart Nov 2016

Free to be me

I’m wishing upon a star
To make my dreams travel from afar
Its true
There is nothing new
I look out to the sea
And think of what I could be
If I
Never met you

But it’s time that I stand up strong
Time I take my place
Time to right my wrongs
And put on a brave face
It’s time that I stood out
From the crowd
Time to share my opinions
Out loud

I’ve always been someone who would rather hide
Never sharing the feelings deep inside
They’d tear me up, they’d put me down
They’d make me lose my faith
They’d throw me to the ground
They’d make me feel unsafe

And all of this came from a man it is true
And that horrible man was you
You were meant to be kind
And love me for me
Instead you were blind
You just couldn’t see

You were a **** and I was your daughter
expected to go to you like an otter to water
expected to ask you
if I needed help
but instead I wanted to run form you
instead I wanted to yelp

but at last you have gone
so now I can be strong
now i can find out
who I am meant to be
and there is no doubt
that I am free to be me
whoever me may be

kattrinsart Sep 2016

The Vampire and the Human

She stands there
hands on hips
a scratch with her claw
a bite on her lips
her skin was pale
as white as chalk
she stepped forward
with her gliding walk
her red eyes glisten
in the night
she could never
lose this fight
she never ad
she never would
as the humans
were her food

but this one was different
this one was weird
it didn't look like
it was her he feared
her kind were known
for their poisonous bite
and for their
inhuman gift of flight
they were incredibly strong
incredibly fast
deadly creatures
from the past
but he just
didn't seem to care
that she was leading him
straight to her lair

her cape fluttered
as she danced
he followed blinded
by her beckoning prance
she wanted to keep him
that much was true
but what for
we never knew
we suspected that
he'd make her pet
but that was just
some silly bet
she originally
wanted to eat
his sweet blood
and tender meat

but once his lips parted
this was no so
as his voice
was calm and slow
he put his arm
to her face
and his skin
her fangs did trace
but haw jaw
did not close
no danger
did she seem to pose
he became
her first love
a vampire and a human
was unheard of

the tales travelled
around the world
around the earths axis
it curled
she loved him
with all her heart
she was sure
they'd never part
but the day came
when he go old
the only way to save him
was to make him cold
she bit into
the flesh of his neck
biting down hard
more than a peck
his blood dripped
from his arm
the poison flowing
like a charm
locked together
in this form
away from people
and the norm

I wrote his after a night out so excuse the weirdness.

kattrinsart May 2016

Once he was there

Once he was there,
everywhere,
anywhere I'd be.
I tried to escape
his evil lair
but I had a brother
that needed me there.
I looked after him
even when he was scared.
I cradled and nurtured him,
I let him know I cared.
He used to wake up
in the depths of the night
and sit up, shout
and scream in fright.
He would call for his mum
sit and cry.
I wanted her to
but I had to lie.
I had to protect him
from the truth.
He was too innocent
in his youth.
His father didn't care,
he was a snake.
Slippery, slimy,
cunning and fake.
He'd wind his chains
around us.
Playing his mind games
to control us.
We listened afraid
that we had no other choice.
Hung on his every word,
let him to steal our voice.
We had no opinion
anymore,
not anything but his
sharp tooth and scratching claw.
And now several years
have gone by,
I'm still afraid to
hear my brothers cry.

kattrinsart Apr 2016

Fear

Fear is not just an emotion
but something that controls you.
It penetrates your mind.
It drives you insane.
You do whatever you can to stay away.

Some say it paralyses you
but this isn't true.
It winds you up,
it drives you wild.
You can feel the blood pumping,
the adreneline making your body shake
from head to toe.

Others say that its a superpower,
if only this were true.
You don't feel strong but weak
like every muscle is focused upon one thing
to run away.

Fight or flight they say
but the fight is washed out.
Giving up seems the best option
but that isn't one.

No one will prepare you,
no matter how you are trained
when you feel that first wave
its like a splintered sword.
The splinters stay deep inside
and causes pain and burns
when you move,
when you fight,
when you fight,

kattrinsart Mar 2016

Trio

Though the woods I race
Barely able to control my pace
I have to get there
I have to go
whats there?
only few know

I gallop around
the trees
get to the rock
and fall on my front knees
and dip my nose
in a low bow
then I tipped it in the air
ready for the midnight howl

He is already there
in place
His vibrant gold eyes
rested on my striped face
He lifted his nose
into the sky
waiting for the last of our trio
to fly

She soared towards us
spiraling through the sky
I love to watch her
as she darts by.
No-one knows her
she's hidden in mid flight
she starts the howl
at midnight