one by one, I start to think,
what is it that i like about you?
was it the way you smile with your eyes shrinks half it size?
the way your lips spread open, showing gums resembled what i'd hoped and wished i could see everyday?
then i think about how it was probably how you stood your ground, calm me down, and picked me up.
Or maybe it was that time where you showed me what you were good at, excitedly with joy that was contagious to all.
What is it that made me infatuated?
you, you, you, you, you.
it has always been that, not him. not her, not me.
you.
you've never really spare me a glance,
maybe you have, but I didn't get to witness it unlike the rest.
This all messes with my head.
Can't you get out?
But only for a while,
I don't think I can last long without thinking about you.
Maybe I can, but I'd be on autopilot with no consciousness of anything.
I supposed it's my own fault.
I got myself in too deep.
Then i decided to dug deeper.
Even with help, i don't think it's possible to get out.
Not that i want to, because maybe, just maybe;
I got too comfortable being here.

- kimin

it's true that people told us won't last.
But darling, did you forget?
That I am a headstrong person?
Words will circulates, just like rumours filling the air.
But I will never stop, until I know that you're back here.
More than a month has passed.
Surely it's a given month to grow and forget,
But this one whole month without you there,
I grew, but never forget.
Ir's not that I never forget, it's that I cannot ever forget.
Don't worry, once you're back, acceptance and love,
Warmth and familiarity, is all you will get.
Sweetheart have you forgotten?
We made a promise that night,
Together till the end, together no matter what,
I'll chant those words till you're back,
Even when you're back.
Because love I don't want you to forget.
That where you are, I am always here.

- kimin

Hearing you whisper words to me,
Soft gentle sound resonates to my ear,
I tried my best to will my self to sleep,
All because I didn't want to hear you speak.

But the more words you expressed,
I can't help but feel like I want to know more,
I want to hear more of it.
So I let you speak on your own.

My eyes closed shut,
Afraid you would figure out I was awake,
But it didn't matter,
Because I turn around in hopes to make you stop.

Stop belittling yourself,
Stop blaming yourself.
I turned with pain in my eyes to see you looking at me fondly.
I knew I chose the right person.

Words of apologies weren't the only thing that were exchanged,
You made me feel reassured, safe and secured.
I was lucky to have you as mine.
Mine today, tomorrow and forever.

- kimin

It hurts.
Breathing. Blinking.
Swallowing. Smiling.
Laughing. Learning.

When I don't have the will to laugh,
Even more when someone tries to make me laugh,
or call my name.

When I act different than my usual self,
But the usual me isn't my real self.
I'm much more than what I put myself,
Out there to be.

Those words you said,
It stays in my mind now.
The will for it to stay is much stronger than my will,
To be happy.

It's a different case for me,
For you is a whole different case too.
It matters more for you apparently,
Mine seems to be cascaded to the side with no second glance.

- kimin

I don't know why, but I can't seem to do it.
I try to forget you, but you stuck so strongly in my mind.
Nothing unbinds you, not even when I see you happy with someone else.

- kimin

To that person who will win his heart and be by his side,
This is not a warning, nor a threat but simply an advice.
See how he is, see through his lies,
The way his eyes blinks, the way he stutters,
His postures and his feelings.

I want you to be by his side,
Throughout all the problems you may face,
Please remember that human makes mistake,
If the mistake can be overturn,
Don't leave, but Stay.
Understand why.
I am sure he has his reasoning.
For he is a man of a deep thinker
He was my man, but I let him go,
I left and didn't stay,
Be the different that I can't be.
Stay.

- kimin

Its days like these that made me think,
What would it be like, if I were in you arm,
Abstracts shapes traced on your skins,
fingers caressing any skin exposed,
as a results of being comfortable with you.

I kept thinking and thinking,
What would it be like if fate were on my side,
Will I get to see you?
I kept imagining how we will meet,
different scenarios plotted in my minds with one similarity,
You being in front of me.

Out of all people I decided to fall for, it chose you.
I suppose fate is by my side.
Fate wants me to leave you alone, to watch you from afar,
As the possibility of me hurting you when we're together,
Hurts me more than when Fate do put us together,
I just hope Fate place you with someone who dearly cherishes you,
Just like how I do.

- kimin