If you have no meaning, you have no life
If you have no life, you have no meaning

If you do not understand love, you will never understand life
If you do not understand life, you will never understand love

If you never hurt, you will never feel
If you never feel, you will never hurt

If you never dream, your life will remain empty
If your life is empty,  you will never dream

If you have no hope, you will never have faith
If you have no faith, you will never have hope

for right or wrong
to live is to be strong

i want
i will
i love

i must have it all

to know is  to learn
to laugh  is to cry
to feel is to love

i have
i need
i care

i must have it all

to give up is to burn
to live is to die

have you ever lost your keys and have them in your hand

have you ever got out the shower and forgot to rinse the shampoo out of you hair

have you ever locked your keys in the car and left it running

have you ever went shopping and forgot your wallet

have you ever called your girl friend by another girls name

have you ever drove from point a to point b and forget how you got there

have you ever drank a beer with a cigerette but in it

have you ever **** or ****** in your pants, just a little

have you ever threw up on somebody

have you ever forgot where you parked your car

have you ever had a conversation and didn't hear a word

have you ever tell someone you love them and didn't mean it

have you ever found the elf that steals one of every pair of socks, who hides your sun glasses and steals your money

have you ever blacked out from drinking

have you ever got tired of writing

We sometimes look at someone who needs salvation
We sometimes look at someone who needs hope
We sometimes look at someone who needs a shoulder
We sometimes look at someone who needs help
We sometimes look at someone who needs a push
We sometimes look at someone who brings up the past
We sometimes look at someone who is lonely
We sometimes look at someone who cries
We sometimes look at someone who wants to die
We sometimes look at someone who needs love

Me, at one time in my life I needed everyone of them

As I walk in my shadow
Spewing words of pain

Floating over a razors edge
Already dripping with my blood

Trapped in darkness, unable to move
Blaming God for all I've been through

Is it me or does satin have me
Can I be helped, can I break this spell

Is there a God, or is it a conterfit thing
I will now pray to this god

To please heal me

From dust to life,
we live a fight that never ends....

With love and heartache,
to pain and stomach aches....

To tears and fears,
of love from the past...

Where time stands still,
and life is no longer a thrill...

The mind tumbles,
and one's life crumbles....

The break the grips of hurt,
one tries, yet the mind is never alert....

If god can change,
water to wine....

Then can he change,
reasons to time?

Then one's life would never end.....

Thickened stars,
to moonless nights...

To the creator,
that we sometimes fight....

Like black and white,
to love and freight....

With feelings of love...
To feelings of hate....

To the wars in this world,
to death and faith...

Is there a god,
or is he a fake....

Does satin exist,
or is it only a myth...

With time and matter,
to the clock on the wall....

When is time right,
or does it exist at all...

Like feelings and emotions,
to the loss of control...

Is love the option,
to the heart and soul....

i try to love my self more then you
but it can't be done and I don't complain

i try to recognize these familiar feeling
trying to light my candle of thoughts

memories are like finger prints
as yours are stuck upon the shelf

hearts and thoughts will fade away
but the meaning i try to hold onto

Both man and women get caught in the heat of the moment
When out and something sparks the fire they can't wait to get home

They touch each other as they drive home;
The mans words are we'll make love all night long
The girls ****** desires rises above the norm

As they get home, kissing and touching, ripping their clothes off
She says slow take your time enjoy this feeling bring me pleasure
He says, you know it baby, with only one thing on his mind

As they get caught up in the heat of the moment
She want's to be touch, caressed, kissed and pampered
He agrees, but wants only one thing, it's always in an minute

She thinks after hours, they can cuddle, spoon and talk
He thinks about other things and wants no part of it

After only few minutes, he says he's sorry, give me five minutes
She wonders, with still a small bit of excitement

He has to, of course use the bathroom
She has seen this so many times before

5 minutes go by, and he pops back in with a sandwich and soda
She then says no way baby, come back to bed

He reply's, as soon as ESPN is over, I promise
She is not dumb, she knows that ESPN is a 24 hour sports channel

When you think about heaven
What do you think of
I'm sure that you have

I've heard many stories
From many people

Do you first see a light or
Do the angels come and tell you it's OK

Is there a tunnel or
Are you just dead

Is it everlasting life
Is there really a hell

Some people say
That you meet the last loved that died
Just after they do, they come one by one
And say that they love you

There's a beautiful pearly entrance
That seems to have no end

There songs about life and god overlapping 20 at a time
Such beautiful harmonies
That stay on your mind

Beautiful people
Where everything's white

Everyone's smiling
Everything's right
Everything's loving
What a great life

What is heaven
Is it man made

It's made by God
And we live by his ways

You can only know
The things that drive you

You can only know
The things that hurt you

You can only know
The things that hold you

You can only know
The things that make you

You can only know
If heavens beside you

As I walk through the valley of death,
I fear no evil, for my mind is dead.

Dead to the world as my life goes,
Walking in nothing where no wind blows.

Where people are made of delusions,
and where sound is made of silence.

The only thing to see is the pain in me.
With the only thing to eat is the pity of three.        
me, myself and I

Where the sky is dark red without any light.
The moon is an illusion with symptoms of fright.

With eyes white as snow, with skin so pale.
Black as the night is how my soul prevails.

With burning dirt of fire.
With dust that burns.

Were my skin crawls with leech's that boil.
And a spirit with nothing, a spirit that's spoiled.

These feelings I get, makes me think I'm in hell

Is this my life or is this a dream.
Someone please wake me before I scream.

Hello to my mother
For she is in Heaven
Hello to my father
For he is asleep
Hello to my brother
For he is he
Hello to my sister
For she loves me
Hello to my niece's and nephew's
For they make me laugh
Hello to their children
Who make me complete

A lost soul i was
For most of my life
Without a family
With no hope in sight

Now back with my family
Which gives me true life
I have now been granted
This gift of true life

like an empty canvas
under the sheets of pain

her legs spread out before me
as her body once did

with looks of confusion
as her thoughts are almost their

she begins to paint her image
of the life she will have under the sun

as she taste and breath
her life has taken a turn

all I ever taught her
and once ever been, is  now gone

with twisted thoughts
her mind fly's away
with love gone bad

she stroke her thoughts softly
with a bit of nervousness

but her painting is now started

strokes of red
strokes of blue
strokes of black
strokes of new

how her canvas changes
as the years have gone by

and still the canvas is not complete
only a half painted picture

a painting of confusions at times
a painting of passion at times

but still no painting of love

so many beds
so many faces
so many dreams

will she ever finish
will she finish her painting

I know one day she'll have a beautiful life
I know she'll be a star

Word play,
foreplay....

Between the lines or
Between the sheets...

Her move my move,
The strategy begins...

My fault...
Her falt...

What's the difference....

She throws a dagger...
I throw a dagger....

Black and white
so what's the fight...

A heart that holds us...
A mind that molds us...

World's apart,
so how did it start...

Crippled by a cruch...
A life of fuss...

What can hold it...
What can mold it..

The question,
is only in the moment..

Only the moment,
is the eye of the beholder
without a shoulder....

To cry when tagged,
under the buds or rolled over...

Decimals demencile demanding,
in the roller coaster...

When she said she loved me
It was like spitting in my face

She says to me, I love you
And can you give me a 1000 dollars
All in one breath

She does absolutely nothing
She has everything she wants
And I really don't what her to stay

I say please can you leave
And what do you want

She says she wants a million dollars
Or your life won't be fun

I laugh and say get the **** out
There's nothing you can do
To make my life not fun

There always making...
There always taking...

From a flower so sweet,
it will control your means...

The poppie plant,
the joy of life.....

Opiates consume,
and take another life...

What ever the dose,
yet ****** come first...

The pharmaceutical companies,
make it worse...

Now a legal drug,
with no proabition....

Will take many lives,
without a decision....

Either way in life,
weather its right or wrong...

Drugs will take your life,
regardless how strong u are...

I can no longer revel in your fantasies
With this hollow heart you bring me

Torn in half with all your games
Your loving ways drive me insane

Your feeling ways are never there
You make me think you just don't care

You spit in my face every time say
I love you baby will you stay

Choose your words correctly I say
Burning sweat runs down my face

She say she doesn't use me, right I say
Tell me another white lie, as you say.

She'll never wear white to her parade.

From her words of temptation
With a toung like a sword
She can Peirce my eye's with a look or a word

She'll be living in my head
My life will be dead

I don't want to feel her pain
I beg for her mercy in the city of the ******

Did she mean to crucify me
But I did come to her

Is it any wonder
She drives me crazy

She fooled my life
The tears I bleed
Are tears for her love

my thoughts change
with every touch from you

when you touch me softly
you want to love me

when you slap me
you must be ******

when you rub my back
you appreciate me

when you punch me
your ******* angry

when you hold me
you want me

when you kick me
you want me to get away

when you kiss my neck
you want to **** me

when you pull my hair
your down right mad

when you tickle me
you want to play

when you spoon me
you want to sleep

it's when you don't touch me
is when i worry

Hey
Did I say I really need you
Did I say I want to touch you
Did I say I want to feel you
Today

Hey
Did I say I want to see you
Did I say I want to hold you
Did I say I want to be with you
Today

Hey
Did I say I want to squeeze you
Did I say I want to kiss you
Did I say I want to make love to you
Today

He rest's his head
on a pillow made of concrete

Feeling maybe he'll see
a better set of days

Hands out again see faces
that are not familiar

Dark grin he can't hold in
when he looks happy
he looks insane

Thoughts arrive like butterflies
he doesn't know so he chase's them away

Kneeling down looking at papers
though he doesn't know how to read

Praying to something that has
never showed him anything

Feelings understand the weather
and he's know winter is on the way

Ceilings few and far between
all legal halls of shame

Whispering to his hands gently
to please take him away

Your home town
Special or not

A place you want to be
or a place you never want to see

I hear people say
That there town is not them

I hear people in anger
Say I hate that place

What makes the town
Is it places are thing

Because other people
Are not about you and me

You may not like what they say
But it's your place to say what say

If you say nothing it's your own fault
But it is your life stay where you stay

i have loved in my past
yet, i have bled in my past

i have no true love
yet, still i bleed

my past was black
now my sky's are gray

i hope for the future
that the bleeding will stop
and my sky's will clear