Does darkness consume me,
as I try to break free....

I bleed my life's blood,
only to get closer to God....

Repenting in my head,
which is beating me down.....

So i pray,
how did my life get this way....

As daily life takes a part of me...

Every time I believe,
it is ***** from me.....

Felling like a have no release,
I find nothing in life is free......

Sometimes I can't take this place,
hoping I'll never fall from grace....

Why do things have to be this way.....
Why do things consume our life....

Fractured time in life,
can never be fixed....

To turn....
To change....
To believe....
To hope....

Trust the love from above,
which his hands cradle us.....

Does one believe in a false God....
Not knowing who looks down on us....

Some say the end is near,
which fills their life with fear.....

I pray for rain,
to wash everything away....

Hoping it will bring,
a better set of sunny days.....

Who's this monkey, I've heard he's there.
I've always heard, pain beware.

I hear people love him, I know he there.
Where's this monkey, pain beware.

He's easily found, he's everywhere.
Find that needle, he's always there.

You may not think, what you do.
The monkey smiles, every time you use.

Do it again, you'll make him happy.
Do it some more, he'll then be yours.

Now that you've met him, he was easily found.
He never wants to see you without a frown.

I told you you'll love him, he'll be your best friend.
You'll never lose him, he's there to the end.

Now that you love him, will you do it again.
Now that you know him, will you use again.

Love is always a gamble...
There's a lot of feelings at stake...

We play our cards,
hoping the outcome will be right...

It might be my best hand,
but I'm scared and might fold..

Wanting to win her love,
you take a gamble....

The eyes that are on you,
hope things aren't right...

Is this your last chance,
or do u play to the end...

So I write about my though life
Give the strike and pad gripe

So right is right a rewrite
So wrong that wrong is Right

But Armageddon will fight
And ignite the Force flight

The tank and rank politely
Hold the trigger tightly

Raining hard Thunder lightly
Then the Illuminati mighty

All powerful bush Al gore Kennedy
And natzii hover and **** telelepethy

I cause he'll diminishing
Deman and Angel thing

A d

Where can i find my peace of mind
Only to know it's lost in the sands of time
Looking for something just a small clue

Where i go i just don't know
Trying to hide my self destruction
As my life declines into nothing

With feelings of disparity
And self engaged rage
I only get the best of myself

Looking for something new
No longer wanting to be blue
Changing my life is all i can do

Addicted to air only has me gasping for more
I sometimes hold my breath to try and break this habit

I hear addiction takes time to break and I should take it slow
To detox from this I must be careful and gradually hold my breath

I do find it painful at times, yet I am know up 3 and half minutes
I find it exhilarating at times, knowing that I will beat this habit

I have now learned to hold my breath while I sleep
I have been doing some research and have been saddened

To break this habit I must die and I am scared of suicide
Is my addiction my reason for not wanting to be hear?

Twisted motions..
Lost emotions....

Fragile thoughts...
With a soft touch..

A light breeze,
feeling lost....

With a bread crumb trail...
My life is now become frail...

Two by two,
they'll come for you..

A place...
A time....

A lost moment,
that will never be found...

The hands on the clock,
no longer tell time...

They point to a place,
we try to find....

As you stare in the air,
we should always beware...

That the breath you take...
Just like the first..

Will be the same as the last...

as my life keeps burning from my past
i see the fire below, which is my destiny

with the future of this time
as i leave this life behind
melting in the sandglass of time

controlled by powers unknown
suffice will never show

why do i believe in someone
who's rules are not right

no one ever told me
i would end up by meself

stretched out beyond belief
where theres no turning back

my life has now turned to stone
where i play games with myself

only to know that i would lose
to this paper trail of aftermath

how was i to know there was no heaven
and that i only believed that life was hell

It came to me on a rainy Wednesday
I Thought I heard you talking softly

I turned on the lights, the TV and the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you

What has happened to it all?
Crazy, some are saying

Where is the life that I recognize?
It has now gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world out there

Somehow I have to find it
And as I try to make my way

In this ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
Once prompted you to say

Pride will tore us both apart
Well now pride's gone out the window

Cross the rooftops, it ran away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me? Crazy, some say

Where is my friend when I need you most?
Why have you gone away

Papers in the roadside
Tells of suffering and greed

Here today, forgotten tomorrow
Only here besides the news

Of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

And I don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world

Somehow I have to find it
As I try to make my way

You had something to hide
You should have hidden it
Now you're not satisfied

It's now time to pay the price
For not listening to advice
Deciding in your youth

It used to be so civilised
You will always wonder how
If you'd only have lied

It's too late to change events
It's time to face the consequence
For delivering the proof

Never again is what you swore
Now you're standing there tongue tied
You'd better learn your lesson well

Hide what you have to hide
And tell what you have to tell
You'll see your problems multiplied

If you continually decide
To faithfully pursue

Know the
Policy of truth

Realities in life,
keep us footed...

Fantasies in life,
keep us dreaming....

Sadness in life,
will eventually pass....

Happiness in life,
keeps us from being sad....

Heartache in life,
keeps us hurting....

Crying in life,
keeps us in pain....

Love of life,
keeps us wanting.....

Life for love,
keeps us looking....

Resentment in life,
keeps one angry.....

Envy in life,
keeps one jealous....

Anger is one,
keeps one mad....

Responsibility in life,
keeps one working....

Peace in life ,
keeps one content....

As I gaze into wonder land
Trying to collect my thoughts
I always ponder why am I lost

I know were I've been
But don't know where I'm going
In this life of after tomorrow

Conclusional or conclusive
Delusional or illusional

Is this part of your life

there's a little black spot on the sun today
it's the same old thing as yesterday

there's a black cat caught in a high tree top
there's a flag pole rag and the wind won't stop

i have stood here before in the pouring rain
with the world turning circles running round my brain

i guess i'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
but it's my destiny to be the king of pain

there's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall
there's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall

there's a blue whale beached by a springtime's ebb
there's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web

there's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out
there's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt

there's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed
there's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread

there's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack
there's a black-winged gull with a broken back

but it's my destiny to be the king of pain

So close to leaving this game of life
Tears in my eyes as lie awake at night

As I fall into darkness, my head starts to ache
Is it a dream or is it to late

My minds playing tricks and I feel the pain
I now lie awake to face the day

Is it a dream or has it just begun
No place to hide
No place to run

I try to relax but it can't be done
Is it a place to face my fears
or
Is it a place to retrace my years

Suddenly I see a new deminsion
Now that I have someone watching over me

He will protect me at night and set my mind free
Now that I'm away from all those bad dream

I was the master of illusion I now relize
The day has come where I can open my eyes

The journey has gone from inside my head
I have learned from everything

That I have now said
I'll never forget my past and
My dreams will come true

To suddenly see
That I'm no longer blue

I like spending time with my family
I like cuddling with my cat
I like fishing
I like going hunting
I like everybody that I meet
I like school

there's nothing to do
but I can't keep up with myself

under my tongue and eyes
i hold the presence of my anger

traveling through my emotions
trying to find something

beating my head on the wall
trying to break this confusion

I see these needles that make me bleed
I feel is if I am pin cushion

filled with pain and pity
boasting my pride

but deep down inside I hurt
never knowing laughter or love

my feelings are gone
my excitement is gone  
my drive is gone

the only love I have
is for the dope man

what's the truth
how do I escape from myself

endless ****** up behavior
I must lose

this is not for you
this is not for you

is it sacred
what comes from you

dedication,
with no power
is nothing to do

this is not for you
this is not for you

a love for life
is full of meaning

a life of hatred
has no meaning

the blood we shed
the tears we cry

a life long adventure
for one reason why

why don't they care
why don't they face life

no reason at all
but only doubt

why don't they try
why are they mad

they have no reason
so i don't want them sad

one day they'll know
i was only teaching

in different ways
for all the right reasons

they'll eventually learn
the ways of life

the reason i do this
is i want them strong

strong for feelings
strong for life

it's their beginning
they should know life

Hello,
Is there anybody in there?

Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone at home?

Come on now
I hear you're feeling down

Well, I can ease your pain
And get you on your feet again

Relax
I'll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon

You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons

Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand

This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb

O.K.
Just a little pin *****
There'll be no more aaaaaaaah!
But you may feel a little sick

Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good

That'll keep you going through the show
Come on, it's time to go.

When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse

Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone

I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone

I have become comfortably numb.

I count the falling tears,
that fall beneath my eye's....

I count every heartbeat,
as I count the days.....

I count every second of the clock,
as my life tics away.....

I can't tell you baby,
what went wrong.....

I can't make you feel,
what you once felt so long ago.....

I can't give you back,
what I hurt....

I can't feel the things,
that cause you pain.....

Nothing feels the same,
when you're in pain....

It ain't so easy,
to get back what we had....

I life without you,
only seems so sad.....

Yet heartaches,
come and go.....

The life we built,
took so long

We never know what we got,
until it's gone....

As my hearts heart bleeds through my eyes.
Tears of my past now flows down my face.

Captured by my sins though life.
My skeleton's now dance around my head.
Hoping to leave this soul for dead.

With a tiring spirit from my hurt within.
My past has know caught up with me.
As I now pay for my sins.

Sins in my life, in which I have never paid for.
Never praying for mercy to someone I don't know.

I hear that his name is god and he will forgive my sins.
Who is this man and where has he been.

Is it true that your a loving man and you don't care if I sined.
And that you'll make me a believer and keep me free from sin.

I thought from my past, that no one cared.
I now love you God because you are the only one who cares.

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

WHY DOES ONE FEEL
THEY MUST ALWAYS STRIFE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

WHY DOES LOVE FEEL
LIKE BEING CUT WITH A KNIFE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

WHY DOES ONE THINK
HATE LIVES IN ONE'S LIFE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

HEAD GAMES
DRAMA IN ONE'S LIFE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

****** UP AMBITIONS
LOSING TRACK OF LIFE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

LEARNING RESPONSIBILITY
TO BE ACCOUNTABLE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

LOVE AND WAR
FAMINE AND HUNGER

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

DEATH AND TAXES
WINNING THE LOTTERY

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

LIVING A GREAT LIFE
DREAMING OF A GREAT LIFE

WHAT IS REAL
WHAT IS NOT

FINDING TRUE LOVE
LIVING IN DESPAIR

From her words of temptation
With a toung like a sword
She can Peirce my eye's with a look or a word

She'll be living in my head
My life will be dead

I don't want to feel her pain
I beg for her mercy in the city of the ******

Did she mean to crucify me
But I did come to her

Is it any wonder
She drives me crazy

She fooled my life
The tears I bleed
Are tears for her love

I want you to remember
Every word you say to me,
With no words changed

How often you lied to me
and talk to complain.

You poor mouth me baby
Is that what you think of me.

Only to remember
The life you brought to me

Listen to me baby
Your heart means nothing to me

The feelings we have between us
Keep pulling us down.

You think you know me, watch this.

**** this disfunctional world we live in
Pressing our face in their *******

Choosing lies over life
Crowding every step we take

Breaking ******* promises
Breeding love then hate

Why do they **** us
Do they think were imbeciles

When I put my trust in them
I only live to spit and bleed

Mother Mary please help me
Someone start this world over

Break it up then crush it
Or let me sleep forever

They will only complicate every matter
Trust in them is what they seek

******* is what I see in them
Why does this have to happen

I know the times that we fight
I know who's wrong or who is right

I know the times that you cry
I can see your trembling eyes

I know the times that you speak
Are only words that are incomplete

I can tell by the way you look
Is that your feelings are unhooked

I can tell by your smile
Every time your gonna lie

I can tell by your hair
Every time when your gonna swear

I listen with my ears

I hear the things that you say
When you think that I'm away

I know were you go
When you don't think I do

You'll dig yourself a whole
When I tell you, I don't love you.