It so hard to breath,
when I say I want to leave....

My heart hurts so,
when I see your tears......

A life without you,
brings up my inner fears.....

Even though it's time to go,
lets make it slow.....

We've tried so many times,
which causes us to lose our minds......

If faithfulness would last,
we would never have to talk trash.....

When I look at you,
I can only see through you.....

With only a glimpse of our past,
is why I tried to make it last.....

But your actions today,
give me no reason to stay.....

Your love I hold dear,
which will only fade away.....

This is to you and to me,
to find love another way.....

The secrets that one keeps...
The lies that one will tell....

The fears that controls one....
The tears that hold one...

How one's life is controlled,
from one's past....

How one's life,
goes so fast....

From love to heartache......
From joy to pain.....

From living a lie.....
To living in sin...

From sad to happy.....
From tears to cheers...

A life long adventurer,
for many years....

From the things we've done,
to the things we will do....

This roller coaster ride,
for me and you.....

As the cars lights,
shine into my eyes...

I think of my life,
that I must try to hide..

Of a girl's thoughts,
full of hate and control...

My mind keeps moving,
to find my joy...

A desirable direction,
for love and contentment..

Once was found,
now seems like a dream...

And now I'm lost,
and filled with misery...

So what is the key...
So what is the pain...

Does even God know...
The master plan...

Is it a time for forgivness,
In this cold world so sad...

****,
I'll just take a drink..

In this no mans land...

ONE DAY SOMEONE WILL WAKE UP AND REALIZE WHAT YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED. ....AND REMOVE IT...THEN WHATS LEFT IS UP TO YOU

Friends are not forever.
Whoever said that lied.

When you stop helping friends and start helping yourself you become the enemy. A true friend will help you become successful.

The wrong friend will give you the pistol and watch you sink yourself.
Wake up friends and understand you are not the only one with problems.

You cant help somebody when you need help yourself.
Before you get mad at a friend for not helping you.

Ask yourself what can you do to help yourself.
We all have dreams and ambitions so what makes yours more important.

Stop expecting people to put their life on hold to get yours straight.
Get your own house clean before you try to clean another...

Have a Blessed Day..

horror!
specified from a thought
of a meaningless life

pain in darkness
fighting every step

****** now the only passage
as it looms over you with frighting sights

why does this follow me over
deeply planted from something in my mind

trust in me, I hope is well
as I trust my self

things of non belief
I run but just can't move

feeling like I am frozen in time
with these feelings following me

locked up in myself
feeling nothing but agony and tragedy

a walk away and try to let it go
as I walk away closing my eyes

when i sit here and think about our life
the times we had were so much fun

the times we laughed
the times we cried

things always change as we get older

the lines in our face
our gray colored hair

but the love you bring me
will always be there

this life we have
with our children that grow

will take our place in life
to carry our name

a reflection of us
with our loving ways

The covenant of our father's
The antiquities from our past
The scrolls with words of wisdom
The lighting in our past

Buried in ancient times
Myths from the past
Artifacts under water
History is our past

Demeaned never to be found
In a world that is still unknown
With their own dreams and delusions
They destroy them in these days

What was once made for a reason
Was meant to stay sacred
What is now stored and old
Will send them to their grave

Never try to read a person,
It will only confuse one.....

You can not control a persons thoughts,
so don't try to make something that's not...

We sometimes think people change,
but we usually don't see everything...

Most people make something out of nothing,
then regret it.....

Relax,
take a chill pill and let life play out.....

The more you say,
the more you put yourself in a corner....

The less you say,
the more regret you may have....

Stay true the life's rules,
Trust...
Truth...
Honesty...
Love....

And faith in God!!!

darkened eye's from when i cry...
--
pain and hurt that makes me sigh...
--
broke emotions oh wo is me...
--
delusional thoughts lives in me..
--
my crocked life can i let it be...
--
i always thinking of whats to be...
--
this hole i have how could it be...
--
my mind can't think from day to day...
--
i often wonder am i dead...
--
only reminded from my head...
--
these painful feelings that i hold...
--
this crippled life as i grow old...

Everyone has

Pet peeves
Boundaries
Habits
Clicks
Ticks
and
Phobias

We all have our ways

Black bird
Sunken word

White teeth
Gleaming reach

Frost bite
What a site

Dog terd
Something heard

Long hair
So beware

Soft life
Nothings right

Full moon
Many crimes

No sun
Hiding some

Earthquake
Many shake

Hurricane
Strong winds

Killings
Sorrow

Death
Beware

War
Forgiven

Love
Hate

Pe­ace
Anger

Right
Wrong

No tomorrow
Just today

Pain
Heart

What's
Great

Fantasy
Illusions

Milk
Honey

B­read
Butter

Is this
A mistake

i want you to remember
this time and place

where people are killing
this human race

chemicals between us

there's love and hate
with no grace

street killings
bomb explosions
where no one feels

these things they do
for love and hate

to people we love
god forsake

i wish no harm to no one
now make a turn

find yourself
in a forgien land, like a refuge
how does it feel, to take their place

chemicals between us
about love and hate

we'll never get to know them
this human race

why does everyone do this
to our human race
to people who love

we expect it know
from this human race

As you split my brain with your lies
The other half lyes crazy for you

My thoughts bounce back and forth
One day I love the next day a don't

These feelings you bring me, I try to hide
These feeling of love I hold inside

The pain you bring me
I take it out on you in bed

The things that we say
Are the reasons I stay

I will stick by you as long as I can
But you must change your mysterious ways

When she kissed me
It should of never happened

I tell her no
Yet she then touches me

I tell her, your my friend's wife
But she doesn't care

She stands and looks at me
With a passionate stare

She takes my hand
And drags me in the room

Her minds made up
She knows what she's doing

I tell her no
Yet she strips to the bare

She says I want you
and you better beware

She treats me like a toy
With her controlling ways

But she does not realize
It's my manipulating ways

he was born in the city
he had no home
he no place to turn to
he was on his own
he had no mamma
he had no father
he had no friends
nobody to call on

what was I to do

Can you picture this sad true story
a young child of 13
one without hope
no home sweet home
no happy memories
with only God to wish to
living on the streets

struggling to eat
struggling to sleep
trying to be a man
but still a trembling child inside

and all alone

I am the deceiving
I am the hurting one
I am the monster of pain

I will lick you softly
With my acid laced tounge

I will eat you from head to toe
You won't feel the same
When I'm done with you

Vicarious in ways
Pealing your skin back
Only to pour salt in your wounds

As I gently scrape the retinas of your eyes with my jagged razor blade

I see your passionate blood
Run down my fingers

You'll feel my hand inside your chest
Pumping your heart

Holding you up with a noose to keep you alive.

As your face goes pale and your lips turn blue.

I've only kept you alive to say
I once loved you

A single tear drop
In your eye

Never thinking or
Wondering why

Is it trust
Is it a must

Never knowing
That it was trust

You let me know
In different ways

You give me signs
To make me trust

The more we trust
The more we cry

Tears of happiness
In our eyes

Antipathy towards a person
Makes you a biggot

Do people know what this means
It is such a nasty way to live

If you ever meet this type of person
Just turn away

If I  could only get into your head
Not to control it, but to venture
What would I find, what would I see

Would I have to push away the cob webs
Would their be many unanswered questions
Would it be a safe journey

Would I find love or hate
Would I find pain or joy
Would I find hurt or happiness

How does one's mine actually turn
Does one push to the future or dwell in the past
Does one have an intelligent mind or is one labeled

The are two main types of personalities
Extroverts who are outspoken,
Introverts who are not.

Each has their pro's and con's
What's inside of your head

one who says they will never know everything
who has an expanding mind

that looks for knowledge
and knows the true meanig of listening

holds the first key
the last key to life is

strive not to be a successs
but rather to be of value

As I lye awake in bed
Thinking of a girl I had

If I could do it over
It would something to be had

Don't ever think
You could do something better

It may may be different
But it's not the one you had

Learn from your mistakes
Yes we all go through heart aches

Yes everyone's different
But our one is the worse

Think a out what you want
****, I don't want to be alone

I want someone to love
I want to have a home

A home is not being alone
That's so boring

A home is filled with love
and that's what I want