Good morning my friends
my fellow writer
there come a need
when we need to holler
we share our feelings
we share out thoughts
good morning world
and
thats just the start

The touch of her flesh
The small of her back
The smell of her hair

The glisten of sweat
The looks she gives me
The way she sighs

The look of LOVE
Within her eyes

I STRUGGLE INSIDE
FROM MY AFFECTION
NOTHING TO DO
BUT THINK ABOUT YOU
THE LOVE THAT I FEEL
CAN'T BE PUT ON HOLD
THINGS I REMEMBER
CAN NEVER BE SOLD
THE MEMERIOUS
YOU BRING ME
ARE A SIGHT
TO BEHOLD
THE FIRST DAY I SAW YOU
MY BODY THEN FROZE
THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES
I HOPED FORM THAT DAY
THAT YOU WOULD BE MINE

a small sign of hope
a glymps without a stare
i little thing of happiness
where you shouldn't be sad
a touch of affection
from one who cares
it may be small
but it's always there
only to feel your almost there
that feeling of hope
turns to love
wanting to help
wanting to know
things you will feel
that you  never knew
emotions inside
that have now grew
where did this  come from
i know it's not me
my life is a pleasure
and i'm finally free

as you grow, i'm always there
it always starts, truth or dare
you may not think, i start from there

as you grow, you do what's taught
you never think, were it starts

as you grow, you break away
never thinking, whats the right way

you begin to want, material things
never knowing, how to do the right thing

i'm your power, you love it so
i'll get you things, you'll never know

i've always wished, i could take your heart
i thank you know, for giving me a start

as you grow, you know know different
as i've become, your only freind

i'm always there, when your asleep
i'm in your mind, so be descrete

as we play, mind astray
you forget the things, you could of had

you may not think, but i'm always there
you never learn, you make me happy
do it over, i'll make you happy

now you love me, pain beware
now your mine, i'm always there

you should of thought
truth or dare

PASSION
GOALS, DREAMS
LIFE

GOALS & DREAMS
COME EASY

PASSION FOR LIFE
COMES HARD

DON'T LOVE TO LIVE
BUT LIVE TO LOVE

from a stain
to a drop
from a drop
to a trickle
from a trickle
to a puddle
from a puddle
to a pond
from a pond
to a lake
from a lake
to a sea
from a sea
to an ocean
from an  ocean
over me
a place to wollow
in misery

inflation of depression
what a sensation
the lowest of lows
with no place to go
not thinking whats right
we begin to fight
we try to get out
it's no where in sight
not knowing what to do
it's all up to you
never thinking
full of fear
I have no reason
don't want to be here
I hear about love
what a crock of ****
only to remember
I feel something dear
i feel myself changing
to understand why
this word of love
i'll give it a try
i truely found my reason
my reaso why
only to remember
LOVE and GOD

my pain is self chosen
which i feel the need
in times of darkness
with rivers of deceptions

my pain is so real
with feelings and emotions
my time must be near
with rivers of deception

no need for begging
as my past fades away
my visions come clear
what was once a dream

the rivers of deception
are now going from my past

Sarcasm with hatred
what a bad thing

One who's angry
and hates everything

There's never love
there fits never stop

They know no other
so how can they stop

They live for nothing
it's all they know

They'll never be real
or know how to feel

They'll end up dying
without knowing Love

What a life
I'll never know

The knowledge of Wisdom
what a beautiful thing

I never stop learning
what a wonderful thing

I have no anger
I hold no hate

I live to help others
I love everything

I'm always thankful
I'm always greatful

I once had hope
and
It turned to faith

How do I feel
about all of these things

I learned from the Bible
to understand things

If I love you, will you leave me?
If I hold you, will you struggle?
If I kiss you, will you turn away?
If I talk, will you listen?
If I hurt, will you feel?
If I cry, will you laugh?
If I'm in disaray, will you care?
If I walk, will you walk away?

If you love me, I'll love you back.
If you hold me, I wont let go.
If you kiss me, I'll kiss you back.
If you talk, I will listen.
If you hurt, I will care.
If you cry, I will hurt.
If your in disaray, I'll always be there.
If you walk, I'll walk with you.

If you love me, will you wait.
If you wait, will you Marry Me.

People talk to complain
and do nothing about it
We say whats better
and they don't even listen
We offer them help
and they don't even care
We tell them about life
yet they know it all
They try and tell us whats right
but they don't even know
They say they know GOD
but they don't understand
They think their better
but if they only knew
I feel sorry for them
because they don't lnow better

I want you
to remember

I was young
Just like you

Felt lonely
No one home

Had no meaning
Easily sold

Never true
Always blue

Life wasn’t easy
had no holds

Always gone
Growing old

Never Home
Always cold

Knew no feelings
Never felt whole

Found a family
That made me whole

They never knew me
Nor I knew them

Fell in love
With all these friends

Found my love
With a family

Life’s now easy
Now I’m whole

Someone loves you
And that one is me

I don’t think
What I do

When I Think
Just about you

This love
That I have

Is the love
That I hold

My feelings inside
Will never grow old

The things
That I love

Are the things
That I hold

My life
My soul

These thoughts
I hold

My reason
For life

Is the love
That I hold

Passion for God
Makes me whole

The love that I have
Will never grow old

Is the love
That I hold

With Christ
In my soul

where do i think i'm going
where do i think i've been
who the **** do i think i am

my best freind Paully
along with my other freinds
this narcotic charm called herion
took them all to the end

this ******'s dream called herion
they think it's fun
you might as well use just a plain old gun

prolong the agoney, keep ******* around
think about them, when you use again

it could be your last time
remember it only cost a dime
so you think you can do it
but it could be your last time

you shoot it anyway and you don't even care
to you it's only that very next fix

i tell them all the time, you better beware
don't do as i do, but it's all up to you
you can't ever tell a ******, whatever to do
always remember, it's all about you

this dope called herion
is no ******* game
always remember it's out to drive you insane

if your luckey, you'll only get hooked
so give it a try, so do what you do
to just get high

this world of herion
doesn't only want to get you
always remember it wants to **** you

Things we never thought
Thoughts we never think

Things we put behind
Things we never find

Things we never forget
Never wondering why

Times that we forget
are easy there no myth

Things that we miss
Are easily found

Things we never hide is our
Heritage, Roots and Pride

GOD** has really stepped up
In my time of need.
For that he will always
Be first
Even before Me.

He saved me from death!!

Fellings and admaration
Will get you to your destination
The love that you hold will never grow old
The things that we learn
Are the things that we teache
Our life long adventure
Is something we keep
There's pain and suffering
Show that you care
With these things in life
You can go anywhere

I saw the drugs and the damage done.
Their so young and their life has just begun.
They do what they do, not even thinking why.
All they want to do, is just get high.
It's all fun and games, until you get hooked.
I wish this on no one, from my experience.
You have to face life, but you don't even try.
All you want to do, is just get high.
I stop and stare, it's because I care.
I tell you what I know and you don't even care.
I try to tell you hope and you better beware.
One day you'll be alone and you should of cared.
Remember I was young and I was once there.

Things we do, we never know.
We talk to complain and all about you.
You think its a game
You don't know what to do
After awhile, it's all up to you
I thought it was a way to get affection from you
You told me you didn't love me
So I said I'd get you
So I took my own life
Not knowing what to do
Always remember your life's up to you

The school that I went to
The scool that I faught
I got my daploma
From the school of hard knocks
Life wasn't fun
But I didn't care
I got what I wanted
Because life wasn't fair
I was never bad
But I hurt some
Only to remember my time has come
I broke on my own
With no sympathy
Only to learn that I could be free
Life went fast and I had some fun
Only to relieze my life has begun
I got comfortable in life
I did what I did
Things I should of talked about
and I wished that I did
It doesn't matter know
Because I got a new card.
I will now get started
and
My life will go far

what is real
how should I know
how should I feel
is it a game
what is life
what should i think
should i care
why do i stare
when does it stop
when do i change
what does it take
why do i do what i do
does it ever stop
what will make it better
when is it fun
will it take a gun
this is no joke
it's as real as it gets
so figure it out
i'll do us a favor
and
shut the **** up
or will i care

Who's this monkey, I've heard he's there.
I've always heard, pain beware.
I hear people love him, I know he there.
Where's this monkey, pain beware.
He's easily found, he's everywhere.
Find that needle, he's always there.
You may not think, what you do.
The monkey smiles, everytime you use.
Do it agian, you'll make him happy.
Do it some more, he'll then be yours.
Now that you've met him, he was easily found.
He never wants to see you without a frown.
I told you, you'll love him.
He'll be your best freind.
You'll never lose him, he's there to the end.
Now that you love him, will you do it agian.
Now that you know him, will you use again.

So close to leaving this game of life
Tears in my eyes as lie awake at night
As I fall into darkness, my head starts to ache
Is it a dream or is it to late
My minds playing tricks
and
I feel the pain
I now lie awake to face the day
Is it a dream or has it just begun
No place to hide
No place to run
I try to relax but it can't be done
Is it a place to face my fears
or
Is it a place to retrace my years
Suddenly I see a new deminsion
Now that I have someone watching over me
He will protect me at night
and
Set my mind free
Now that I'm away from all those bad dream
I was the master of illusion I now relize
The day has come where I can open my eyes
The journey has gone from inside my head
I have learned from everything
That I have now said
I'll never forget my past
and
My dreams will come true
To suddenly see
That I'm no longer blue

I know were apart
From the things that I've done
I know that I Love you
and
Don't know were to start
I've always said
That I'm going to change
Ther was only one way
and
GOD answered my prayers
My life was ****** up
I felt nothing but shame
Do I ever feel that I love again
If not for me
What about her
It should be about us
Is what I'm saying
My love goes deep
So give me some trust
My life has changed
and
It will take time
You don't need to be there
But I'll be there all the time

Why do we fight
With the ones we love
and
Passify the ones we hate.
Full of fear
With no one near
Like a shadow at night
With death in the air
Why do we feel
That no one cares
Will I ever change
These feelings I hold
So one day I'll cry
So one day I'll Care

If I use you
Will I love you

If I love you
Will you let me leave you

When your gone
I will find you

When I'm sick
Why aren't you there

I will follow you
Even though I'm sick

When I cry
It's because I miss you

Why don't I hate you
But I should know why

The ones that care
Are no longer there

Why don't I care
Why isn't life fair

Please let me go
But I don't even try

Why do I follow you
For no reason why

Now that I hate you
I keep you around

I struggle with life
Now that I'm on my own

Surrender in solitude
Just ask for forgiveness
His light will shine bright
and
He will give forgiveness
Bring up the past
Confess your sins
He's a loving GOD
and
Knows everything
He will change your ways
To understand why
You'll know no evil
and
Sometimes cry
He will give you true life
So hold your head high
Show him LOVE
Then bow your head
It's all about good
and
Never bad
Love the Almighty
and
Your dreams will be had

(insparational writing)
I notice in life that we sometimes forget to dream. I mean dream about what you want out of life. Are most people afraid of falling short, being overwhelmed or they just don't try. My definanition of dreaming is not about money, it's about life.What makes you feel the feelings you never had before. It's sometimes natural to feel that somethings can't be reached. But if you don't try it will never happen. I love the saying "Chase Your Dream", it is so true. I've already accomplished a lot of my dreams that brought me happiness. But there were no feeling involved. Life is to short not to dream. Always love your dream and it will come true. With dreams comes passion. This is something that is lifelong fullfilling. These can be simple things, such as: a great family or a quite walk with someone you want to be with, in a place you love. Never give up, never lose sight and don't give up. As long as you set your mind straightyou can accomplish just about anything you want.

Because of my life
From my feelings within

It's not about thoughts
It's what's in my heart

When I bleed from within
Its from my past

But its not my last journey
So I keep my life real

I will always feel
The feelings I never felt
The feelings that are so real

My love for life
Is not surreal

My blessings in life
Are very real

I live to help others
Its what i do best

I've learned these things
From my terrible past

a prisoner of night
with dreams of suclusion
as the day is long
the night is day

no reason for life
no reason for death
as i lie awake
spinning in my head

no place to go
no place to run
no one to hear
with nothing but tears

with only tears
to face my fears
why can't i think
why can't i run

is this life
or is this death
can i figure this out
or
should I blow off my head

I have these problems
why can't i face life instead
why am i scared
why don't i scream
one day i feel
i should be rid of these dreams

i cut myself
to reliese my pain
only yo know
i'm cutting my stains

can i ever change
or
will i ever will
only to remember
i'm up to a 100 stains

is there a GOD
or
is it a conterfit thing
why do i do
all these bad things

Why can't I think
Why can't I run
Why can'y I hide
Why am I caught
In this everlasting dream
Why can't I sleep
Why wont it go
Why do I live
In this everlasting dream
Why wont it stop
Why is it there
Why can't I figure out

This everlasting dream

My journey from,
somewhere to nowhere.
With nothing beneith my feet.
As the journey ends,
within my head.
My feelings of solitude
are gone from my head.
As light leads me
from my destiny within.
My eyes have finnaly opened
and my dreams now begin.
With my past as my guide
and my feelings within.
My heart has now taken over
as my true life begins.