As the pain of my life
Brings the hurt from within

I feel no happiness
From my sins from within

I life of misery
I brought to others

I now try to change
To help any others

Why do these feelings
Overwhelm me

I'm not that kind of person
I'm from a life of misery

But time changes all
I now live to help others

We learn from our mistakes
So learn to love another

As I walk through these
poppies in an unending field

In a small village
In Afghanistan
A place of people's dreams

The one's who live there
Want a better life

The one's who don't
Want what's produced
From there crops

***** they make
That's in pain pills we take

Herion on the streets
Was once my dreams

This flower is known to be
A flower of God

It helped Alexandra the Great
To conquer this world

It's is only a flower
That helped define this world

There a lot of history
In drugs throughout this world

Walking though a ******
Filled with trees

A beautiful place
With a small stream

So quite, so secluded
This place  for me

This valley I'm in
This valleys for me

As slick as you are
You think your so good

I laugh ever time
When you think your getting over

Your so funny
You should here what you say

The things you make up
Is a very unusual way

Just say what you want
Say what you mean

Just don't play games with me
Because I'll get you in the end

Your home town
Special or not

A place you want to be
or a place you never want to see

I hear people say
That there town is not them

I hear people in anger
Say I hate that place

What makes the town
Is it places are thing

Because other people
Are not about you and me

You may not like what they say
But it's your place to say what say

If you say nothing it's your own fault
But it is your life stay where you stay

The days of summer
are now in our past

Times to remember
That went by so fast

The girl you met
That took your heart

The times you laughed
and now your apart

All of my fiends
We had so much fun

With our girls and cars
It was our world

We sit back and think
of that time we had

Wanting those days over
Of that life that we once had

Because of someone's past,
does not make them a bad person......

One's thoughts are there,
if they have good intentions.....

So one has ****** up more than once,
in one's life, so what's new.........

You say you haven't,
I'll have to say you're a liar.....

Why are people hypocrites,
and talk about others......

Who are they to "******* Judge Anyone".....
They need to look in the mirror......

Is it the way they live or
is it because they don't care for others....

Is it because you are and I quote,
doing better than what they are......

That's called "Keeping up with the Joneses"

What makes someone good.....
What makes them bad.....

As long as they don't hurt you,
you should never feel bad.....

Always chase your dream,
regardless of what it is.....

Money
Love
House
New Car
Vacation

Get what you want out of life....
Stay real and stay true to your dream....

I'm bad
I did it
It's my fault
Blame me
Sorry
What can I say
I forgot
I wasn't thinking
I should know better
It slipped my mind
OK tomorrow
Remind me

I feel like I have sand in my eyes
My heads caving in
I have a foot in my mouth
and no not were to begin

I layed tied to a bed
In a very strange place

With wax on my *******
With a leather mask on my head

Not knowing what to do
I here voices whispering

Of two young girls
That followed me in the club

They slipped me a mickey
and I don't know why

I have no real money
and blackmail nots their style

They walkin with boots
Up to their knee's

They say were daddy's little girls
and they start to beat me

God what a thrill
If I only knew this before

They then each made love
Which I did adore

That night is now over
and I wonder everyday

Who were those two girls
Who made a grand stay

When she kissed me
It should of never happened

I tell her no
Yet she then touches me

I tell her, your my friend's wife
But she doesn't care

She stands and looks at me
With a passionate stare

She takes my hand
And drags me in the room

Her minds made up
She knows what she's doing

I tell her no
Yet she strips to the bare

She says I want you
and you better beware

She treats me like a toy
With her controlling ways

But she does not realize
It's my manipulating ways

A place we go
Where we do know

What we say
and what we do

It a place we go
To be a fool

You'll say things
You aren't supposed to

You'll break your golden rule

You'll tell on yourself
You'll tell on a friend

One to many
Can make it the end

Don't be that person
That says I'll do it later

Putting things off
Does nothing

It makes you
A procrastinator

Be that better person
Do what you say

You will find in life
That the better person

Does what they say
Be a person of your word

This is something
That makes life easier

this is the youngest
you'll ever be
this is your time

A black cat
A broken mirror
A step on a crack
A walk under the ladder
A broom swept over your feet
A loss of a lucky charm

A horse shoe
A four leaf clover
A penny heads up
A wishing well
A shooting star
A rainbow
A lucky charm

Why won't these voices
Leave my head

They tell wrong
But there my best friends

They make me do things
That I do not like

They make scream
They fill me with fear

They sometimes make me
Hurt someone

I tell them no
But these voices control me

They make me cry
They make me sad

But there always there
When I'm alone

I beat my head to get them away
But what can I do to make them stay

They telle to ****
In the most unusual way

But I can't take a life
I would rather die instead

As I lye awake in bed
Thinking of a girl I had

If I could do it over
It would something to be had

Don't ever think
You could do something better

It may may be different
But it's not the one you had

Learn from your mistakes
Yes we all go through heart aches

Yes everyone's different
But our one is the worse

Think a out what you want
****, I don't want to be alone

I want someone to love
I want to have a home

A home is not being alone
That's so boring

A home is filled with love
and that's what I want

If you really love her
Romance her like no other

Not once a week
But every day

If she is your life
and if you want her to stay

Give her one rose
Day by day

Tell her you love her
In every way

She should be so special everyday

Keep that loving feeling
and she'll always stay

We always forget
and take love for granted

Remember her life
and always romance her

What are conclusions
Is it a place to stop

A place to take a break
or just time to regather our thoughts

Is it being polite not to bore
or is it a way to make a score

Conclusions in life
Can't be put on paper

We have to live them out
Before we go to our grave

As I lye on the pier
At the end of Key West

I look at the stars
and think about life

As dark as it is
The sky is so bright

A trillion miles away
And we still see the light

How can this be I often wonder
Is there other life
or is it our God of thunder

What ever it is
It's filled with miracle's

Miracle's of matter
Miracle's of life

As I walked in the door
I saw a rose on the floor

A note at my feet
That said follow me

Peddle by peddle I found on the floor
A trail I would follow to the one I ador

The sent of her love
I picked up in the air

I walked passed a mirror
That said I love you in lipstick

My heart then started pounding
Full of love

I have to find my women
Is all I know

She loves these little games
It arouses me so

She's hiding somewhere
And I want her so

She tries to hide
But her  breathing is so hard

My passion goes wild
Because I love this girl

She can't hold it in
Nor either can I

We make love all night
Like the stars in the sky

What happen to the past
Which was once a dream

What happen to the people
That were once my friends

What's wrong with life
Is it something I can fix

What are my thoughts
Of life with this pain

I try to hold it in
Yet explode inside

I sometimes wonder
I sometimes cry

These feelings in life
We will always face

Keep up the pace
We have no choice

Keep in touch
With your loved ones

There your real life
Of love and joy

Do you ever close your eyes
and your mind starts to race

You try to make it stop
But it's no where in sight

So we try change thoughts
But it stuck in one gear

That train of thought
Of something you fear

We clinch our eyes
To make it stop

We have no luck
It's stuck in our thoughts

We try to sleep
But it's just to deep

We think about love
But have no luck

This racing mind
It drives me crazy

Until the problem solved
It stays in my head

When we can't sleep
What did we do

I never wrote
I had nothing to do

Just like in prison
I was bored to death

I then took pen and paper
And wrote about life

About my past and people in jail
Such a strange place
Like nothing in this world

It is so very different
Nothing like TV

There's still plenty of heart ache
With a lot to see

A lot of tatoos about people's lives
Many different cultures and a lot of fights

I had more laughter then words can tell
****** up lives of people who thought it was hell

Me I got lucky was facing 15 years
From nothing I did wrong
someone didn't like me

It could of been envy or jealousy from what I had.

Whatever the reason, it was something I had

I stayed there a while
Yet they had nothing

Nothing on me
Yet they tried very hard

The time then came
They had to let me go

It taught me how to write
And how to live my life

As I sit here in time
And chip away rocks
One rock at a time
One falls to the ground
With blood on my hands
I chip at another stained with sweat
It was from an old lover
I look to the ground
And its covered by another
As I chip away at life
My pile is very full
I shuffle through rocks
To see where I'll go
I see rocks stained with tears
I see rocks from my past years
I find rocks of heart aches
Which there were many
I find rocks of joy
Which there are plenty
There's rocks filled with herion
That's from my past
There rocks of forgiving
Those are rocks that last
There's rocks of bad
From when I was a boy
There's rocks of lonlyness
From when I was alone
No matter the cause
No matter the reason
These are rocks of my life
It's what gives me meaning

As I walk in darkness
Into the depths of black

I feel with my hands
For something to remind me

Remind of a place
To know where I am

For I am blind
And I know who I am

As I find my way
To and from

My time in darkness
Has just not begun

My senses come alive
I can hear the air

I can smell the smell
Of anything in the air

I need no help
Because who I am

I'm one of God's creatures
That's who I am

As I sit here and think about
What I should write

I think about love
I think about life

It's what's inside us
That makes us write

There could be a reason
Or it could a fight

No matter the reason
We continue to write

It's what we do best
It's part of our life

Has the unusual ever happen to you
Something you cannot explain

We can only try to justify these thoughts
Through our own reasoning

What is the unexplained
Is there a reason for this

Do we waste time to figure this out
Do we let just pass because

But why can't we drop it
Why can't it be forgotten

Is it just me or is it
A factor of the brain

When something slips your mind
What is your reasoning

Is it because we forget
or don't want to remember

Is it because we care
or don't want to hurt someone

Is it because we feel
or don't want to cause pain

Is it because our mind is overloaded
or is it just fried

Me, I just flat forget no excuses

There will come a time in life
When you must speak up

It won't feel comfortable
But it must done

Who am I to say
Well just tell me I'm wrong

Is this bold
If you think so

Do I care
I think not

Do I wish you the best
Of course I do

Do we hide our feelings in words
Of course we do

Do we express our thoughts in words
Of course we do

Do we have fun writing
Of course we do

Do we make **** up
Of course we do

Do we think of others when we write
Sometimes

Looking only hurts
When you're broken hearted

Which is deeper
  
          Love

                 Hurt

                        or

                          Pain

Hate is a byproduct of Love

As you split my brain with your lies
The other half lyes crazy for you

My thoughts bounce back and forth
One day I love the next day a don't

These feelings you bring me, I try to hide
These feeling of love I hold inside

The pain you bring me
I take it out on you in bed

The things that we say
Are the reasons I stay

I will stick by you as long as I can
But you must change your mysterious ways

When I cry, I will wonder why
When I hurt, it feels like the first

When in pain, I feel nothing but shame
When I lie, I want to sometimes die

But when I smile, I feel so loved
And the tears I cry or tears of joy

Now when there's pain you feel inside
I will be with you right by your side

Now if you hurt, I will hurt with you
Just until the hurt is fulfilled for two

Now the part of lies, should never be
Be honest and open as we can
Only try to be

Christmas is now over
And the remnants now fade away

The day of life for love
Is now an economic way

Just as thanksgiving, as we give thanks
And our love for Christmas

Is for only one day

But in my heart, this makes me sad
Because everday, should be about

Love and Thanks

When your thrown into the window of hurt
Everything is filled with pain

Life seems to becomes so strange
because of the feelings of loneliness

demented ways become habit
as no one can tell you whats right

these feelings always linger
in every waking moment

with the feelings of people
plotting and scheming against you

the people that care
you feel are no longer there

there is only one factor to get over hurt
and that only comes with time

tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick

the feelings of hurt will eventually go away

i
am
filled
with to
much, to
late, to keep
from hurting
as you toss me
pain day by day
i still throw it away
i care less about you
so tell me must you try
to always get in my way
day after day week by week
are you so weak must you stay
i'll tell you  your pitaful and weak
that you are a freak and cry and weep
go find a new life get the **** away go play
but yet you still follow are you a stalker a freak
what can i say what can i do all i know is i hate you
i can no longer deal with this **** your driving me crazy
and you think you can win. what it is i don't know nor i care
but i'll tell you what, that life is not fair. keep messing with me
and you better beware because i'll ****  more with your heart then
you can bare. now this is your last warning so don't stop and stare !!

did you ever wished to be somewhere
and then you get there and wonder why

did you ever want to see somebody
and then they turn out to be let down

did you ever want to see something special
and then you see it and say, you've got to be kidding

did you ever pay big money for something
and say what the hell is this

did you ever wanted to be with a certain girl
and finally hookup and she turns you off

did you ever think of eating at a new place
and the food and service was ****

things we sometimes expect are usually let downs
yet things we don't look for are the most fulfilling