As you think your playing me....
I'm the one playing you....

To a fiddle tune,
that will mesmarize you.....

You make a move to benifit you....
I'll have you reach for a star and you wont have a clue...

It is a game,
so what's your next move...

You think you have options,
but it's always my move....

If it's something you want....
I'll throw you some change...

If it's feelings you seek,
I'm not that meek....

They'll give you a smile,
a kiss and a hug....

It takes more then that,
to get to my heart....

I'll play the game.....
I'll play the part...

I was the one in control,
right from the start....

As the winter winds blow in the night.... I hear howling sounds with thoughts of freight.... With thoughts of pain and feelings of hurt.... I try to run but my legs won't work... Will my time come from a sharpened knife.... Could this be the end of my life..... Is it fear of the night that i hold.... Did it come from a dream that feels so cold.... These thoughts I feel keep me trapped.... Someone please wake me with a slap....

The darkened roads of the night,
Will soon see the morning light....

As I drive down the hwy of I-10
I see my old city as this trip will end..

It brings up thoughts of the past,
that quickly change to the future...

I am now in the city of New Orleans,
as I will soon begin to wake....

What's on the streets is the homeless, drunk and me....

I park in the french quartes and make sure not to get towed...

I wall to the river and what do i see....
Two young girls kissing on a bench...
A homeless man making no sense...
And a man on a bike without a life...

I then myself gaze upon the river,
As the sun comes up, so do my thoughts...

Watching the tugs push barges,
and the ship's filled with life...

It's a lonley romance the city life..
Yet filled with adventure for live of the night...

Sitting in the exact same place on the railroad tracks as a child...

It was 3 am in the morning, I was smoking *** and watching a recking ball, tear down Jax Brewrey for a mall.

Thought of the past how quick they come and go... How we lose them and choose them is not for me to decide...

Back to the streets as the city come alive... The city will now begin to strive...

As my eyes cracked open....
And my thoughts begin to turn...

A morning light,
shines onto my head....

With  thoughts from a dream,
still in my head.....

I have fog from the night,
and cobb webs in my head....

I thought it was a dream,
yet it was a drunken night....

I felt an illusion,
come into my life.....

It was a girl,
that made the night....

Yet I can't remember,
if I had *** last night....

A note in lipstick,
written on the wall....

That said:
You were awesum last night,
give me a call....

When i look into the pouring rain,
it brings up thoughts of life with pain....

From my years of fears,
I have countless tears....

From the times I used,
is my life which i abused...

To the needle and spoon....
To the pipe of delight....

To a nod during the day....
To a tweak at night.....

To break that fight,
is now in sight.....

A life without dope,
is what I hope....

I am have now been clean,
for two plus years....

Which once was a dream,
Was to live my life clean....

Dreams do come true,
it is my given fact....

A life without drugs,
is where I'm at....

It so hard to breath,
when I say I want to leave....

My heart hurts so,
when I see your tears......

A life without you,
brings up my inner fears.....

Even though it's time to go,
lets make it slow.....

We've tried so many times,
which causes us to lose our minds......

If faithfulness would last,
we would never have to talk trash.....

When I look at you,
I can only see through you.....

With only a glimpse of our past,
is why I tried to make it last.....

But your actions today,
give me no reason to stay.....

Your love I hold dear,
which will only fade away.....

This is to you and to me,
to find love another way.....

In a drunkin state,
one will make mistakes.....

In a delema state,
one could possible break.....

In a frenzy state,
one could never cooperate....

In a lucrative state,
things could be great....

In a state of mind,
one could be kind....