When I think of things
That I have never thought
I often wonder how it starts

Is it something that I have dreamed
Is something that one day I should be

I do sometimes wonder if it will ever pass
But I always feel that it has come from my past

Regardless of what created this new thought
Now never ending and no longer a strange thought

Should I react on this thought that I ponder
Can it change my life I often wonder

then as it was
then again it should be

the course time will  change
but rivers always reach the sea

blind stars of fortune
each have several rays

on the wings of maybe
we live as birds of prey

makes me feel sometimes
that I didn't have to grow

but as the eagle leaves the nest
it’s time for me grow

changes fill my time
that's alright with me

in the midst of life
and how it used to be

as my eyes I sparkle
my senses growing keen

tasting love along the way
See your feathers preen

*****’s in my dreams
no surprise to me

my life will always be

as it was once was
and again it will never be

What can time bring me
That I have not already lost

What does life hold for me
If I no longer have any wants

What can someone give me
That has not already been taken

Why should I hope for something
When none of my dreams come true

As my pain is self chosen
The only direction I know is

Down

Into the darkness I have ran
To hide my sins from the things I have done

They say God keeps track of my sins
How does Satin tally them

I personally have lost track
But in this week alone, I have many sins

I think about confession, but I know no prayers
Am I condemned to hell because of this

I have played with fire all my life
I now must burn in the fiery pits of hell

I often wonder if I will be
provided with special accommodations