Ashtray
I'll hold this for you
let your cigarette burn
while you stare through
cool smoke
watching kool kids play
with fireworks and baseball bats
and I'll be the Ashtray
Your Ashtray
afterall: it's what I'm Good at.

Lean in
like a predator.
I could be prey
if i wanted to
I could prey.

If i were a Mantis,
i'd be devout.

A man once told me
that we
are the sum total of all of our
arguments
i call *******
i'd rather be right

**** my mind of my
own self gouging.
Bitter work.
I'm too lost.
(not lost enough).

the salt of the ocean sticks to my feet,
the soft grind of the sand and water brings comfort,
                                          to my mind; and to my eyes.

i believe too much
no
not enough
no
i believe whatever.

some things go without saying

                                                      some are said anyways
some sit;
I sit;
i have a tendency to sit
(no i don't)

if concrete were a bed, we'd be in bed.
if stars were a ceiling, we'd look at a ceiling.
(Lets go outside)(Your choice)(Let's go)(Don't let go)(I won't)
                                                  Whoever asked the question deserves the answer.

I never felt better
than when her chin was on my chest
and she peered up
looked politely
i'm glad she didn't mind
when i closed my eyes
she knew why
i'm Smiling again.

                                                                                                                              
        
                                                                                                  **kitten

Fire* is warm.
Warm like blankets.
Wrap me in
an inferno
of an embrace.
The warmth,
dances with
what I might call
my soul.
I am surrounded,
but it exists
beautifully
around me
Tongues of flame
play with my fingertips;
curls the edges up my lips
toward the sky.
*Smile.

Ecks oh ecks oh
gentle
quiet
embrace

"Whad'd ya think'n 'baught?"

Nothing.
Just kidding.
Something.


Just kidding.


i mean


you're here.
so it's okay.
okay.



And as bold as bold may be,
I still question manhood,
question certainty,
integrity,
bravado.

My feet are warm.
I have socks on.
So don't worry.
Sorry.


Don't apologize.





"you'll know when you Need to"
"I'll cue It."