white squares slowly
                       spread wide as I
         stare into your eyes
              loving nothing more
                          than to be with you.

I yearn for your
    warmth - your strong
  presence next to my side.
I put my arm out hoping
    you will fill this empty void.
Tonight I need your company
  your support. I need to
know that I am still loved,
   everything is okay. I am
               not alone.
The world isn't crumbling but
  I hurt. I wish you
were here because only you
   would silently understand.



RIP. 7/12/08

I stumble
                            You reach out to steady me
I fall to pieces
                               You walk behind catching it all
I criticize myself
                                You never agree
I put myself down
                                   You bring me up
I curl into a ball
                              You wrap your arms around me
I shed many tears
                                 You wipe each one away
I laugh as you tickle me
             You smile knowing our love is here to stay

sudden excitement
and a rush of joy
fate handed it over
to us saying
now is time for more.
the possibilities
overwhelming as I
grin thinking that its
time to finally move in.
until words of fear
zap all pleasures
and your mothers
control lays thick
like wet feathers.