I see what I think;
slanted views
assumed
guessed
Wrong.

My eyes perceive
how I feel
when things
aren't real.

Thoughts run wild
depleting
decreasing
diminishing
my view of me.

I feel ...
uncomfortable
unwanted
unknown.

I think I am wrong
so I look again
revisiting
reviewing
reenacting.

Tainted eyes
fooled me again.

I am ...
wonderful
welcoming
warm.

I believe in me.

Of all the places we can go
     the library walls are endless,
with secrets only some will know.

Surely making many minds grow,
     with wisdom that is so precious,
Of all the places we can go.

Truly we do enjoy the flow
     of all the letters in sentence,
with secrets only some will know.

All time stops because of the show,
     leaving us caught up and breathless,
Of all the places we can go.

Mesmerized by the colors glow
     As all the spines are numerous,
With secrets only some will know.

We love to come here to hang low,
     Gain free knowledge is tremendous.
Of all the places we can go,
With secrets only some will know.

i am in love

like in the clouds in love

like floating in the sea in love

like relaxing in a tree in love

i am in love

with the dimples in your cheeks

with the glow in your eyes

with the shape of your lips

i am in love

unconditionally

wholeheartedly

deeply

with you

drifting along
I allow my feet to take me
forward into the unknown
hoping for only the best
as i try to lift my head
only to keep it afloat as
my eyes immediately
look back to the ground
the weight on my back
grows heavy while the cloud
on my shoulders falls lower.
short shallow breaths define
my unsettled state
the uneasiness that is keeping me
i desperately close my eyes
praying to vanish in the
evening dusk fully blending
with the trees and thick air.

I dread these days
where the weather changes
and my new found family
falls away.
Each year it begins the same
colors changing, the air cooling
I cringe inside hoping to
hold on to each member.
Ultimately I am left alone.

Bare, naked, exposed
to the brutality of the
cold winds flowing
every which way as
thick white fluff surrounds
my base, lengthening
my chill for weeks.
Every now and then
I am filled with hope
as the sun rises.

Beams of light are everywhere
warming me to the core
as the icicles melt away.
Continuous showers provide
nutrients so accessible
that eating feels easier than breathing.
I am strong and passing
life on to my new family.

Small buds are now
open in full bloom
creating safe havens
for friends whose songs
tell tales to be passed on.
Each day someone new
comes by to rest in my shadow,
eat from my leaves, or live
among my new family.

sudden excitement
and a rush of joy
fate handed it over
to us saying
now is time for more.
the possibilities
overwhelming as I
grin thinking that its
time to finally move in.
until words of fear
zap all pleasures
and your mothers
control lays thick
like wet feathers.

I dream of moving

with you into our

own place

it would be marvelous 

to wake up to you

each and everyday.

I close my eyes and

imagine it all coming true

And then I look at my

bank account and my

heart skips a beat

because there is money

there waiting for this

but not enough.

I worry about the future

sustaining each month

on my current pay.

I am ready for more

money to come.