it was like---
I was on the edge,
knowing theres a lot more to face,
but the walls are all pushing me,
making me small and terrified,
with no light to follow,
just darkness all the way,
alone.

we were completely aware
of the way this will end
the things that would happen
yet we cling to each other like flies

I cant lie;
I do get jealous,
seeing you smile from far away
without me.

I don’t get it
you told me to promise;
to never leave you,
but you’re the one who left.

And since then,
my nights are so empty;
without a person to talk to,
without you singing,
without your lullaby,
or even a night wish.

Yes, indeed;
I miss you badly,
but if you’re happy,
then I guess I’m happy.
well eventually.

If only they knew
the sounds,
voices,
works,
could easily make my head;
feel so angry.

My fingers are shaking,
when will it stop?
how can I make it stop?

A simple answer given by my brain;
to cut,
to hit your head,
and it all will go away,
washed by your tears.

I am convinced that
I do not love you.

It is absolutely possible
to fall for another
through the personality
they chose to show
unfortunately it is not
the case for me.

Nothing comes to mind
of where the two of us
are heading with
who knows what we are
nevertheless you never
fail to visit my mind
I might say perhaps
it is a new location
for you to live in.

It is clear
I am unsure of my decisions
the path I chose to follow
however id like to stay
on this road with you
to an unknown destination.

Im running out of words
I just want you to be happy
if it doesn't involve me
I wouldn't worry
as long as I can see
your smile from a distance
I love you
and you would never
get to hear it.