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kevin garcia Oct 2014
The night caught me
When the day left my ***
It embraced me
Called me its child
I fought its querying zeitgeist
I whispered
It was trying to help

Brought to its kingdom
I was forced to observe
I saw the king
What a *****
The queen tried to trick me
Saying she wanted to help

Signs of the snake in the grass
Made me run with the group
I don’t want to be last

We laboured long
Pulling the truth up
From the root of its weave
Seeing lies and trick
Our mind could not conceive

Obedience
The ***** whispered to me
That is all ask for
You will get a tall glass or ****
In the canteen of my mind
I bartered for some
Shut the **** up soda
A red roti
Dripping the blood of my ancestors

I used the benediction
Saluted the moon
And prepared to write fiction
kevin garcia Feb 2013
Been a lot of **** that I held back
But I will let you know now
I feel the darkness of loneliness
Blackout, it's getting dark in here

Turn on the light, let me see what's in front of me
All of a sudden, this picture I painted just turned ugly
I'm trying to do good, but the devil's ******* with me
Because I never had no grief,
But now I am some ******* heat

It seems like every time I get it I lose it
Get it, abuse it, and what I'm left with is useless
Because three years in a row, I felt like the world was mine
And three years in a row, I lost it all in the blink of an eye
And I believe what I do will come back one day
But why am I still losing?
I can't take the pain
Am I to blame?
Please excuse me for my rotten ways
I'm just trying to do what I got to do

Get down and pray for me
To the souls from up above
And hopefully my guardian angel will show me some love
Forgive me for my sins and all the **** that I did
Hopefully in my dreams so wild
(If I ever have) It won't reflect on my child

They say, "One day here, it'll make sense"
That's why we get drunk and stay bent
Even the rose grows from the pavement
Yet I stay hidden in my mind's basement

I feel like I was born with stress on me
The only feeling I have in this world is the life within
Though my heart the doctor says is impaired
My blood it still flows red

You have to be near dead to see the nights I been through
**** near dead to feel the wind beneath you
Envisioning so much, my minds an open window
Where I gather all these thoughts for all your broken info
If seeing is believing then there's more to live for
My only reasoning is breathing
And I live to just hope
I live but I feel like I am on dope

I am just numb to the world
And everything in me
Like being at the bedside of a loved one
Waiting for them to die peacefully

And what you know about no heat and no electric?
I sold my soul to pay the bills, I'm so pathetic
I wake up and go to work, back aches and my shoulders and chest hurt
And what's it worth? I'm easily checked and don't control my earth
Still walk these hollow grounds, being lost but never found
Say to the Lord, "I'll die for love", but there's never sound
Screaming in vein, everything seeming the same
Ask my God, "What's the problem, why am I feeling this way?"
Ask my God, "Can you solve it?", this game, I'm bleedin' to stay

More than willing to give it up if I can't live it up
Hand in my head, gun in my lap
I try to maintain, the pain is unstoppable
Put my life on my back and I maneuver through the obstacles

Maybe I am not worthy of your bitterness or pain
kevin garcia Feb 2013
I'm lying in the dark
I'm counting the stars as they appear
I'm running all over the place trying to find you,
your out of my sight, out of my heart
but you'll always be in my mind
now I'm sitting in my room looking at myself,
with a disgusted look
I'm inching out of my skin
I'm scraping at my face,
with bleeding tears
coming from my wrists
i drop to my knees,
and think why am i not good enough for you?.
if i cut my wrists to show you my love....
will you be with me..
Do u believe in love, like i believe in pain
kevin garcia Oct 2014
Children of the echo tree
Can you hear me?
What punctuates your mind
How survives your kind?
Does the bell ring in your head
When your dreams turn dead
Children of the echo tree?

All you live is a reflection
Of what was said before
Echoes of silence
Echoes of violence
The tree of echo

You are so empty children
Echoes of unoriginal
Not even shadows

Oh echo tree’s spawn
Created all alike
Can’t you see it is you, you hurt
When you scheme and spite

Children of the echo tree
Where does your master sleep?

All copies
So empty
Children of echo tree

What your handler shouts
You repeat it back to me
I see.
The echo tree
It controls you with empathy
Traps you so wickedly

Your stained finger
Displaying your wasted effort
Your reward
More words to echo
How deep you do fall

Children of echo
Who will save you?
kevin garcia Feb 2014
You pick me up.
You lift my spirit.
You elevate my expectations.
You bring me joy.
You give me hope.
You fill my heart with song.
You encourage me
You hold my hand so tenderly.
You make me an exception.
You guide me in my weariness.

You do all of this….
When you dust me off,
Every two months or so.
When you remember,
That I exist.
When you feel,
Guilt on my omission.
When you need,
Someone to boost your ego.

I am not your empath
I cannot thrive
On your limited proclivity
Your temporary fawning
It bothers me
You make me feel so wrong
While I am expected to make you feel so right
kevin garcia Oct 2014
Fireflies dancing in a court of shadows,
Paint images of light to behold.
Like you my love,
Dancing in my mind,
Casting out the dark shadows,
Sensuous, overt, sublime.

Every glimpse I get,
Sets my soul alight
Glowing with passion
A fire so bright
No form or fashion

My lovely firefly
Oh how I yearn to hold you
Cup you gently in my hands
Oh my beautiful firefly
How I long to exchange those sacred bands

My lust is tamed
As my love becomes better framed
By the light you cast off
This is insane
My breath…..there it goes again
My sweet firefly
Set down your frame
Soothe me….there it goes again

My firefly
Do not leave my court in shadow.
kevin garcia Feb 2014
Your spirit reaches out to me,
Yearning over a thousand miles.
The wake of your presence,
It sits lightly on my mind.
You excite me,
By just pursing your lips.
You entice me,
With every sway of your hips.

I inhale with pleasure,
Your fading scents,
Deep into my lungs,
To remember times spent.
My eyes close,
So your image cannot escape.
Burned into my retina,
A landmark on my mental landscape.

My fingers caress my lips
Wishing it was your skin
A heat,
It escapes my hips.
In yours I wish to be within

I do not feel a yearning.
Compare my feelings to that of a match.
Lying in wait.
Waiting to be scratched,
To be caressed,
To be enflamed,
To be engorged with fire,
Exploding only for you.
When you desire.

mmmmmmmmmmm
The only sound I want to hear
Is your moaning
Directly into my ear.

I remember your eyes
They were so piercing
So bright
My sunglasses
They melted
Even when I wore them at night

My uneven verses
Are like how I breathe around you
I am so twisted
My chest feels conflicted
All because of you.

Your spirit reaches out to me
Over a thousand miles
Made mere inches
By your feminine wiles.
kevin garcia Oct 2014
Warm up the bbq
I don’t want no war with you
You said achoo
I said bless you
See you in a few
Follow where the wind blew

Mourning the loss
Of your mind sanity source
No more are you a fckn boss
Hoss
Why the force

You want to be liked
Yet every word you say is miked
Who you broadcasting to
What they do?

You feel the breeze
When you squeeze your knees
To fast
You want your head rub
So you could get some ***

Hoss
Warm up the bbq
I don’t want no war with you
Let’s sit and talk this
Through tongues of ***
Tequila to make belly bun
Put more pepper on that son

What’s wrong with you
You said achoo
I said bless you
See you in a few
Follow where the wind blew
Don’t sneeze on me dude
Leh we talk this through
kevin garcia Jan 2013
"How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways…"
Hmm, not very original,
And very Cliché.

Give me a minute,
The words will come,
And for you,
I will write a love song.

The right words will tell how I feel,
Will tell you how my love is real.

The right words will tell,
How my life without you would be hell.

The right word will say,
How much I miss you all the day.

The right words will let you know,
How I love you so…..

Give me a minute,
The words will come.

And I will write us a love song
kevin garcia Feb 2013
If I should die this very moment
I wouldnt fear
For I have never known completeness
Like being here
Wrapped in the warmth of you
Loving every breath of you
Still in my heart this moment
Or it might burst
Could we stay right here
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry
Ive found the one Ive waited for

All this time Ive loved you
And never known your face
All this time Ive missed you
And searched this human race
Here is true peace
Here my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul
Bathed in your sighs
Wanna stay right here
Until the end of time
Till the earth stops turning
Gonna love you until the seas run dry
I've found the one I've waited for
kevin garcia Feb 2013
If I could have anything...this is what I'd want
Forever to stay by your side and never go away

I'd love to hold you and that would be so tight

Cradle you next to me and admire your beauty
Over and over again look into your beautiful eyes
Unveiling the love that's been waiting for you
Letting you feel the intensity of my kisses here
Day and night let me surround you here with love

Have you any idea of how you've impacted me here?
All this man does here its literally love you
Very tenderly I'd love to make sure you're loved
Everyday would be sweet paradise for this man

A love that has no compare and it's everlasting
Nothing in the world matters to me but you
Yes...I've had this feeling growing deep inside me
Today the first thought on my mind was you
Hoping that you'd be next to me and holding tight
It's to also say three words that mean a lot here
Now those words will be proudly said "I love you"
Going to make sure...if I could have anything..that is you
kevin garcia Oct 2014
I never woke up today.
In my mind did I stay
I stole the time
To be used in waking
I folded my mind
Into a basket for taking
I never woke up today

To the breeze I spoke
I shouted a psalm
My voice it broke
With no liquid to balm
I never woke up today

In silence I checked
My heart
Is it beating?
Behind me my regrets
My future I am seeking
Never to find again
I never woke up today

I dreamt a dream
In the dream I dreamt
I dreamt a dream
For the dream was my dream
Where I dreamt dreams
So I never woke up today

Heaven holds a sense of promise
I guess that much is true'
kevin garcia Jan 2013
Memories...
glisten from naked skeletons,
hung like sharp glass
shining in a sea of regret.

Petals...
plucked to breathe,
to survive the harshness
of winter.

Flesh...
oblivious to snow's chill,
caressed by the warmth
of inner compassion.

Flowers...
emerge at random
amid a carpet of thought,
recalling the summers
of happier times.

Fresh growth...
cupped in the
palms of future,
regenerating amidst
a cloak of bleakness.

Icicles...
drip languidly in the face
of desire, of strength
and determination,
as the calling of spring echoes
amidst a forest of hope
and the promise of
life anew.
kevin garcia Feb 2013
Memories...
glisten from naked skeletons,
hung like sharp glass
shining in a sea of regret.

Petals...
plucked to breathe,
to survive the harshness
of winter.

Flesh...
oblivious to snow's chill,
caressed by the warmth
of inner compassion.

Flowers...
emerge at random
amid a carpet of thought,
recalling the summers
of happier times.

Fresh growth...
cupped in the
palms of future,
regenerating amidst
a cloak of bleakness.

Icicles...
drip languidly in the face
of desire, of strength
and determination,
as the calling of spring echoes
amidst a forest of hope
and the promise of
life anew.
kevin garcia Feb 2013
I hit you from seven hundred angles
Inhaling your vapor
You stink
I never thought someone like you could exist
I think at light speed
How to take your oxygen
Make your existence reduce
Like a crack pipe abduction
Can I allow your death
Which your nastiness has denied
I wish your eyes to bleed
When you see my glory
Hold my dreams to your face
Fill your blood with its doses
Then watch it stop your heart
See my conscience in the sky
Feel my word of mouth
Stab you in the eye
Rip your lungs out
As you try to inhale
The fragments of my intellect
I am the young jedi
Looking to devour your force
Squeeze your source of life
It is quit awkward looking at my portrait
Smiling like mona lisa
Only I know what I want to do with you
I will fill your ears with poison words
So it can o straight to your brain
Feeling like I am hitting you with stone
There will be no copies made of you
As my words impede
Your reproduction
My thought will remain in your head
As you ******* to my ecstasy
Then you will love me
kevin garcia Jan 2013
Sometimes I wonder what you are doing.
Then think, it does not matter to me.
Sometimes I wonder why you are even in my space

My words, they cease to rhyme
You!
Are always on my mind
Is this me in decline?
This feeling its so sublime

Sometime I wonder what you are thinking
Do you sit and wonder about me
Like I ponder about you
Wondering what you do

Do you like me
Remember the soft touches
The passionate clutches
The lovers embrace
You lips on mine I still taste?

Sometimes

I do wonder what you think
When you are not near me

I am glad you will never leave my side
I love you.

Somtimes I do wonder.
kevin garcia Feb 2013
If I could have anything...this is what I'd want
Forever to stay by your side and never go away

I'd love to hold you and that would be so tight

Cradle you next to me and admire your beauty
Over and over again look into your beautiful eyes
Unveiling the love that's been waiting for you
Letting you feel the intensity of my kisses here
Day and night let me surround you here with love

Have you any idea of how you've impacted me here?
All this man does here its literally love you
Very tenderly I'd love to make sure you're loved
Everyday would be sweet paradise for this man

A love that has no compare and it's everlasting
Nothing in the world matters to me but you
Yes...I've had this feeling growing deep inside me
Today the first thought on my mind was you
Hoping that you'd be next to me and holding tight
It's to also say three words that mean a lot here
Now those words will be proudly said "I love you"
Going to make sure...if I could have anything..that is you
kevin garcia Jan 2013
The good side of me wants to give you a gentle handshake when we meet,
the bad side of me just wants to let you know "I'm the man!!"

The good side of me wants to know your what's on your mind,
the bad side just wants to know, are you naughty?

The good side of me is interested in every word you say,
the bad side just wants you to shut up!

The good side of me wants to tell you how nice you look,
the bad side wants to know how nice you look under those clothes.

The good side of me wants you to feel warm and cozy around me,
the bad side wants the devil to come out in you.

The good side of me wants to spend real quality time with you,
the bad side just wants to spend time with you during half-time.

The good side of me wants to make sweet love to you,
the bad just wants to bang the hell out of you!

The good side of me wants to express tender loving feelings afterwards,
The bad side just wants a cigarette, then roll over and go to sleep!
I promise to be good when I am bad.
kevin garcia Jan 2013
If I worry about everything
Then everything and
Everyday will not be sunny
Welcome to my mind
I love you so much in here
With words and emotions
I cannot express out loud
But here in my mind
It goes just how I want it to
It all turns to gold
You are my alchemist
Benvinuta
Keep chasing my nightmares away
Help me find myself
One day I will open my eyes
Follow you with my iris
My leader
My love
My companion
Like heat rising from the ground
You are my mirage
Dancing in front of my face I take from you
Everything and anything I wanted
Everything and anything I need
Your are the symphony I compose
In my mind
Forgetting the words when awake
Stay in my mind
My perfect world
My perfect mate
My love
Here in my mind
So clean and pure
Bienvenue!
kevin garcia Nov 2013
There is a wolf on my rooftop
I hear his paws pattering
There is a wolf on my rooftop

I am afraid to to leave my home
There is a wolf on my rooftop
My home in it I stay

The wolf on my rooftop
It howls my name
The wolf it howls from my roof

Of this wolf I am afraid
This devlish lycan
I am afraid of the wolf

The wolf want to devour
My soul and life
Devour me the wolf wants to

Yet I will not allow
The wolf to prevail
Allow the wolf I cannot

Because I am the wolf
On my rooftop
The wolf on the roof is me
kevin garcia Feb 2013
Your voice grabs me
Squeezes my soul
I take a hit
I am drunk
I have no chance to escape
On my way to see the king
It is my fate to be judged
In this place
I see the gates open
But I don’t know where I am going
Wanting to start a journey too….
My tomes are muddy
Clothes ******
I am down on one knee
Hug me
Time for a decision
I feel the weight of a nation
Hear the cries of its real
From people who are more fake
Than this page I internet on
Take my words
Grind them down to all its compounds
And see who my master really is

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