The image of you
Floods my mind
All else I think of
Is the escape I must find.

I wish for you to hold me
Whisper to me that it's alright
Helping these temptations fade
Keep them away as you hold me tight.

Wash away the hurt from before
Cover up the pain with words you say
And even if only for a day
Capture this feeling and lure me away.

Everyday is a bad day now
No matter what happens
I can't shake this depression
In no way this feel bends.

I wish you were by my side
Even when I want to be gone
My love for you holds me hear
And keeps me almost strong.

thread through your fingertips
enclose your hand in mine
walk with me to the light
as innocence is defined.

Satisfaction
Take it slow
Make it last
Let it grow.
All I long for
Is what I'm not
You give me pain
More than I've got.
Carve me up
Make it deep
I promise you
I'll only weep-
The crimson tears
That you do cause
I ask of you
Only this because-
You give me
Just one choice
To go with you
And have no voice.

cut me open
slice me deep
my love for you
is why I weep.

a deeper wound
with every word
these sensations
are not absurd.

I know in my heart
and in my soul
the feelings that we have
are out of our control.

I admit that I miss you
But it's too late
No one can take back
What was fate.

I gave my heart away
One more time today
Trembling, without ease
In his hands it does lay.

I wish I had asked them not to break
What heart I have left, after you
And to help me find the strength
To do what it is I must do.

But the pain is overwhelming
And the words won't come to me now
I know what I want to say
But I just don't know how.

Yes I do love you
This I know for sure
My love for him is forever
A love that's true, that's pure.

Compulsion to escape
From this giant fear
Seeing it as fate
For me to get hurt here.

I know what I feel
And I think you know it too
But how you feel
I don't know if it's true.

I'm so afraid to feel that hurt again
Scared that I'll have to let go
So I keep it deep inside
My feelings bottled low.

He didn't see how I cared
He left me after all
But maybe it was meant to be
Destiny that he would fall.

Because if he hadn't hurt me
We would never have met
Since I might still be with him
If he wasn't dead yet.

I'd hate to be without
The new love I have found
My love for this one
Turns me around.

Unknown to you
She is the one
Bringing me comfort
When you have none.

As I sit here alone
Letting my tears leak
She is the one
Who's presence I seek.

To cover my sorrow
And lift up my heart
She is the one
Who begs it to start.

A secret I have
That I wish you knew
She is the one
And you this does *****.

When you read this
You'll stop in your tracks
As my words
Are what attack.

She is the one
Who opens my heart up
Even if there won't
Ever be a pre-nup.

My love for her
Won't come undone
For as I said
She is the one.

I thought I'd send you roses
But they would soon die
I thought about sending chocolates
But there the empty box would lie.

Then I thought of sending balloons
But they would soon deflate
I thought I'd come out to see you
But I would show up too late.

What could I have gotten you
To express my love?
For nothing in this world
Lasts as my love does.

Ignore the torture
Ignore the pain
Hide it deep down
And never refrain.

Never remember
Never forget
Never have known
**** the commitment.

Not much longer
Your time is set
Now your heart
Can pay its debt.

Always leave
Always stay
Always know that
No one is on your side.

A downward spiral
***** you in
But you just let go
And go for a spin.

Forget to wonder
Forget to care
Forget to notice
You're even there.

Time long passed
With no relief
Only an escape
Can cover up your grief.

Compelled to hide
Compelled to leave
Compelled to shudder
When you pull down your sleeve.

Sometimes remember
Sometimes forget
But never mean never
Or death you have met.

Stuck in a trance
Unable to see
Waltzing with the angel
Mixing in her darkness.

Questioning your every remark
As well as insanity
Run into the valley
Let the shadow of death consume me.

Delicious misery
Has consent to do no good
Dependent on them
Any who come along.

Spawn of the devil
Argument with innocence
Bitter sweet intensions
In this game called love.

Never ending darkness
As we fade away
Watching out for nothing
Are they wishing we could stay?

No one I would rather be with
As I forever fall
Misery and ecstasy
Knowing nothing at all.

Confusion and clarity
Drawing you closer
Hoping you will give in
to my biggest temptation.

Capture your love
By stealing your heart
Blame me for nothing
Out of your way I dart.

A promise of patience
Comes from my lips
But you want more
Into old love you dip.

They say if I love you
I'll let you go
And if you come back
True love will show.

But neither one of us
Is ready for that commitment
To have our love
Be here concreted.

I cannot let you go
Hold you to my hearts doors
Keep you warm inside
My souls core.

Your face, those eyes
Boring into me
Piercing my heart
Increasing its beat.

Enchanted by you
The detail of your mystique
As you unthread your fingers
And out of my hands you seep.

Intensify my love
Draw you back in
Follow the beat
That leads you within.

Live up each day
For tomorrow we may be gone
But it would be worth it
For you are the one.

Tormented souls
Longing for answers
Search to hold
What they think are cures.

Countless times
At my beck and call
You'd come running
When I'd fall.

Gratify my lust
Wash away my desire
Give me what I long
You who I admire.

She came to my rescue
But couldn't see my defeat
And she is longing
Another's standards to meet.

Brush away her bangs
As your hand falls down her face
Trace her jawline, slip a finger across
The lips you've longed to taste.

Her eyes flutter
Caught up in thought
Astonished to discover
You've felt this all along.

No words yet spoken
Just the crave of affection
Curiosity precedes her
As all reason is thrown away.

A shadow cast overhead
Every step in darkness
What you've longed to see
Lingers just behind those eyes.

Lock the final door inside you
Use your hands to see
Step into your porcelain coffin
As it soon will be.

Let it slip between your fingertips
The ones who've longed to touch
Drag down through your palm
Feel your tendons push.

The memories that haunt you
Now pour out with grief
Soon you will feel nothing
Yet in your last moments, there is no release.

Your last thoughts cling to you
Holding you hostage
Suffocating you with reluctance
Flailing to stay true.

It is the only one
That will not fade away
The only one who brings regret
To where the blade is placed.

Your hearts final memory
Before it lets you part
Brings forth the face of a girl
The one you love so much...

Emotions trickle downwards
As you snap back, but not soon enough
Now she will never know
Because it's too late to be saved.

Too late to unlock the doors
And let her love come fill
Too late to have told her
She is why your heart beats still.

You grasp to hold on
But cannot fight the cold
Embrace the end now with ease
Swirling in your memories blood.