i say there's no god
i say there's no salvation
i say there's no perfection
but looking at you makes all of my convictions
disappear

might be going to the gym tomorrow
might be drinking beer at the cheapest bar
might take a coffee with a cigarette
or a bullet to the head
none of it is permanent
everything must fade in time
all colours turn pastel when sun gives love
and every river is an oxbow if you just let it grow old
and nothing but love endures
in the ashes of a heart once beating
and nothing but the warmth of company
can stand against the roaring fire of eternity

find love
or burn this whole place to the ground
and let the warmth of flame
fill the empty halls of your heart
let it rage and roam free
and put light to the oil that runs in your veins
never find solace
be at all times on the run
the valley is vast and eternity long
let rivers flood
and wildweeds drown in their endless lust
let the nightwood wisps show you where to lay your head
between the mosses and spring blossoms
listen to the rain and to the wind
and what the willow has to say
give space for the lonesome loving robin
to roost between your ribs
and hum the melody of your rushing lungs

we lay awake
not quite yet dreaming
our bodies trembling
in the sacred rhythms of the earth
with twilight at our feet
a single breath
I submerge myself completely
into the river of your body
and it is like spring has come so soon
the flood awakens
and your cold waters bathe
the grasses, the wildflowers and the weeds
upon our lips, a rosebud each,
opens up in prayer to the sun
and into one another
moss grows to cover up our bodies
we rest for every winter that will come

google drive kept telling me
it's not too late
month after month for years
succumb succumb
your memories at gunpoint
succumb, forfeit your money
i promise you'll be glad
it's all good faith
it seems i've waited far too long
kept saying it's not worth it
without a back-up plan
i thought i'd never need it
but now i'm lost out in the hills
and i've lost something here
and i don't know what
no memories remain
i plead to you great corporate god
above, below and omnipresent
return to me all memories
that i've held dear
i'll give you all my money
i'll betray to you my flesh
take it take it great corporate god
return my memories to me

i dreamt of sunflowers in water
and endless hills; green, rolling
i dreamt of dolphins dancing in the waves

i dreamt of all-surrounding grasslands
and cloudless skies; clear, blue
i dreamt of goldfish leaping through the heavens

I am a proud Irish elk
and I am starving to death