What do I do to make you not want me?

Is it my sensitivity?
My lack of sensibility?

If only I knew how to truly make you happy.
Because you only know how to show that you're unhappy.

I guess something's got to change.

i try to fall asleep to the sound of atmospheric tones and rain

yet nothing can seem to dull the pain
of what i've always felt for you
what i'll always feel for you,
don't tell me this **** isn't new for you
too

i try to fall asleep to the sound of atmospheric tones and rain
but my mind remains
disturbed
i think i am quite
perturbed

i fell asleep to the sound of atmospheric tones and rain
my mind quietly hiber-
nates

as i begin to dance i can feel the weight lifting.
i'm soaring, like a bird. no, an owl.

soaring high.
higher than anyone ever before.

you thought this would bring me down?

i'm soaring.
never so free.

i'm soaring.
as high as can be.

on a rainy Saturday morning we made love
    the sun buried beneath the clouds

you kissed my forehead and said goodmorning

i wanted to love you i just didn't know how
    i didn't have to
you already knew

covers pulled from my bare body
    i felt you everywhere

you dipped into my valley and asked if you could stay

the thunder coincided with your thrusts
   you told me you loved me
      it started to flood
                           no umbrella

we made love on a rainy Saturday morning
      we were soaked

and just like lightning, i was gone

some say they can't quite grasp my demeanor
i guess it's something you've got to get used to

some say i'm a bit obscene, maybe a little uncleaner?
your personality is not something you should subdue

for it is you.

everyone says "I am who I am. Love it or hate it."
why leave it to someone to even debate it?

people's opinions of you are often based off first impressions
who gives a **** what they think?

as humans, we have many confessions
i think that's the part where our hearts and minds begin to sync

spiraling with you in a whirlwind of a world unknown

we must finish what we started

i won’t do this alone

my skin starts to crawl and i feel like i’m gone

unable to sit still as it courses through my veins

i can feel you

i can’t feel you

i can’t keep silent

i believe in little if anything at all

i believe in nothing at all

i left it all behind

my soul. my mind. my body. all.

i can’t do this alone

would you go down just to get high
even if i told you success was just a lie

does lowering yourself really increase your pride
or does it just not even apply

one day you'll see what self respect is like
to me, you're all just ****** alike

i wish i could meet just one genuine person
whose demeanor never seemed to worsen

i'm not saying i'm totally perfect
but at least my friendship is always worth it

as my hope in humanity decreases
my effort to make amends just ceases

we were both young when we fell in love, i was stung

i was willing to be with you through everything and anything
face all of the people who doubted us

while i was still falling in love, you were falling out

you'll never find a better lover, care taker, or supporter

if time and fate work their magic to bring us together again:

i hope you become a man who can hold his own
i hope you become a man who can love with all of his heart
i hope you become a man

because right now, you're a coward. you're such a disgrace.
you said nothing to my face, you hid behind the telephone

my heart is broken into numerous pieces, but at least i'm going to be something while you forever remain nothing.

there's nothing like a young romance

there's nothing like the brush of your soft lips against mine
there's nothing like the feeling of eternal bliss as your bare body wraps around mine

just me, you, and these four walls.
only God knows what we're doing, and to be honest, I don't think he minds.

I want someone palpable, a distinguishable feel
I don't want something fake, just give me real

Everything I ask of you is nothing I wouldn't ask of myself
Never will I require you to over extend oneself

All I'm asking is that you give it a chance
In hopes that this leads to an everlasting romance

Follow me into the light of dawn, where its blissful light shines on forever
Whisper to me, what our life will be as we keep the light bright together.

If i had to paint a picture i'd paint a picture of my soul
For my love is deep like a level of sleep in which you dream.
I let anything happen as my body takes control
For my love for you seems to burst out of the seam

Deliver me from this hate, this evil i feel within
Everything i am, will be, and have been
This mindset will ultimately lead to a crash
As i see all of my being turn to ash
My ties to you, i will have to sever
My journey to hate just ended forever

My journey to forever seems endless
My journey to hate is complete


My soul has encountered many journeys
My soul has many more journeys to dream

the timing was all wrong, but the words were all right
every time you near you completely lock my sight

i am blinded by you, and everything that you are
your beauty, your humor, your illuminating light

you should be mine, as i should be yours
but i guess the line of communication was a little too short

i'm writing to tell you how i feel, because these emotions seem so unreal

i hope you know that i would never hurt you
in fear of us parting and saying adieu

just know you are my best friend, my confidant, my mind, heart, and soul
maybe one day, this will turn into more
for you will always have my heart under control

Tell me you adore me.
Better yet, tell me you love me.
Tell me you want me.
Better yet, tell me you need me.
Tell me I'm your's.
Tell me you're mine.

I know I've made my share of mistakes.
Which, in turn, caused your heart to ache.

Maybe you'll leave.
But what could that possibly achieve?

Maybe I'll learn.
And maybe you won't return.

I often contemplate how you could love such a *****.
So many feelings mixed in.

your love is contagious.
like a yawn passing through.
like a smile exchanged by strangers.

your love is inviting.
so pure, so true.

you're the light that brings me home.
the light that guides my soul.

comfort me when i'm down.
encourage me when i am up.

everyone's waiting for us to fall.
stand strong, for we will always.

let me take you away
i'll be your sweet escape

i'll be your hero
your savior

i'll be the cave in which you store your remains
i'll be the tide that brings you home

i'll be the sheet to your music
the chords to your songs
the notes to your words

let me take you away
i am your sweet escape

the hectic work days, the long school hours
it seems like we're never together

i just want you, your love overpowers
i don't care what the weather's like outside

baby, let's just stay in for the night
say that you'll be mine tonight.



forever yours,
me.

i'm young, so what?
does that give you a reason to judge what you think i know?
how about getting to know me and judge me based on what i know


i am young, so what?
i am wise beyond my years


i guess you don't know how i came to be

many people question who i am, what say, and how i act
never shall i explain myself to you or anyone else.

for i shall remain me

To know I breathe the air you breathe, it's intoxicating
Your smell, your skin, your laugh, your taste
It's so inviting
Something I can't believe I almost missed out on

I know I can be all that you need, all that you want.

Before I met you, nothing mattered.
Now that I'm with you, everything matters.

write a song for me.
won't you please?

we're both dying here.
don't let it end this way.

i thought you were invincible.
i thought i was.

i guess things aren't as they appear.
i guess it just ends here.

don't sell yourself for anything of short
always live to your ultimate potential

stick to what you know, never abort
who you are is so essential

just remember to be true
because you can't change you

Time's running out
It's now or never.

Make your move, dear.
For this game is played by two's.

I learn to cherish each day more and more.
I learn to be a more optimistic person.
I learn to only care for those who care for me.
I learn not to put up with anyone's **** because that's not who I am.
I learn that if I have at least one true friend, I am more fortunate than some.
I learn that I can't give up just because someone put me down.
I learn that every day is worth living to the fullest.


And I will continue to learn, each and every day.

For some reason I can't help but feel that you don't miss me like you say you do.
That you don't need me like you say you do.

I just wish I could get under your skin and in your mind.
To feel how you say you do.