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Apr 2013 · 367
Untitled
Kendra Gibson Apr 2013
For she loves me not for who
I used to be or who I was before,
but for who I am now and what
she knows I'll be in the days to come.
Apr 2013 · 749
What is Rightfully Mine.
Kendra Gibson Apr 2013
I give myself what is rightfully mine.
The ability to be myself without
the judgement of others affecting
my emotions and self confidence.

I give myself what is rightfully mine.
The freedom to BE without
fear of being disliked and loathed
and tormented.

I give myself what is rightfully mine.
Because you do not have the power to
tell me who I am.
Nor do you have the right to
belittle me into nothing.
I am everything.
I am me.
You cannot change that.
Mar 2013 · 797
Parenthesis
Kendra Gibson Mar 2013
There is a parenthesis plastered to her face.
She stands out in a crowd with her glowing
cheeks and
her infectious laughter.
But if you really look at her,
you'll see the void of happiness in her eyes.
She's not as happy as she pretends to be,
among the crowd of misguided youth.
Her parenthesis are turned the wrong way
but only her eyes tell us the truth.
Mar 2013 · 305
Untitled
Kendra Gibson Mar 2013
He was not alone.
The moon and the stars were there.
He could not see them.
Mar 2013 · 357
What was it?
Kendra Gibson Mar 2013
What was this
when the snow started falling?
Did it change when the skies grew grey?
I'm not sure if this was meant to be
but it sure as hell could have lasted
a bit longer.

What was it
when the sun beamed through the clouds?
Was it nothing but you turning around?
Here is a shadow,
you ****** the darkness upon my shoulders.
I'm not sure if it was meant to be.
But I'm sure that you were as cold as ice
when you could have been the Summer sun.
Mar 2013 · 546
Different Directions
Kendra Gibson Mar 2013
Maybe if the wind shifted
its direction
our souls would be
less fractured.

But for now it seems
that our remains will be
severed from our remedies.
Our maladies
meet their extremeties
and forever
less than never
our lives
will be nothing but dust in the breeze.

Now remember please,
that our choices are
confusing.
Save the formalities
for the ceremonies
this rigorous ritual
we claim to be sentimental
our lives that cause stress and
our minds that break our souls.
Like I said, our lives are nothing
but dust in the wind;

if only it'd shift its direction.
Feb 2013 · 822
I Am My Own Friend
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
I've forgotten what it was like
to have someone there for you
when you needed them.
I've gotten so used to being my
only friend
that I can't recognize the
kindness in another person.

I've become bitter toward
the human race
for leaving me alone in a time when I needed
someone the most.

I felt as if I was a drifting wood,
floating amidst the blue seas.

Endless.
I found no other drifters.

Endless.
I found a horizon that I could not reach.

Here I am,
a floating soul with
a neverending ocean of solitude.
I am my own friend
and I feel like I'm losing me too.
Feb 2013 · 410
Untitled
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
She says she's an alcholic
while she holds her
invisible
bottle of gin.
Feb 2013 · 377
I'm Sorry
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
I'm sorry,
my words aren't good enough
for you.
I'm sorry,
my thoughts aren't worthy
of you.
I'm sorry,
my feelings don't mean anything
to you.

But I'm not sorry,
that I'm honest.
And I'm telling
you how I feel
because
I know that
in a matter
of weeks,
days,
hours,
minutes,
you will not mean
anything
to
me.
Like I didn't to you.
Feb 2013 · 440
Let Me Tell You A Story
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
I'd like to tell you a story,
     a story about a girl,
a story about a boy.
But while I tell you this story,
                                  I want you to listen.
Listen to the sounds around you,
                    listen to the cars driving by,
     listen to the planes roaring in the sky.
Most of all, listen to yourself.
Your rhythmic breathing,
           inhale


                                exhale.

            Inhale


                                   exhale.


Listen to your heart as it
thumps
  
      thump
          thump
                
                   thumps
in your flesh covered chest.

Tell yourself you are real.
You are alive.
Your story is more important than the one of this boy and girl,
because their story doesn't exist.
Your story does.

So feel alive.
Feb 2013 · 585
What Night Brings
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
Yes
I will turn on the music
turn on the vibrations and
listen to the rhythmic
beats in the background
while drinking red tonic in a
broken glass;
but at the end of the night,
I will force myself into unconsciousness
and depend on the blackness of shut eyelids
to get me through to the next day.
Feb 2013 · 595
Weary
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
White washed wood
with a whistling rush of wind.
Where rounds of woodchuck beer
past the rustling of chips and laughter.

Empty bottles, elaborated clinks.
Even every inch of eager filled smiles
covers the thoughts of enamored hearts;
Entrusted with faults and sorry's to be accepted.

Are the ancient artifacts,
again the reason we think that trust is best?
A beer is best passed along with time.
Here's the drink, calm down please.

Resting in reverie,
is this really what we pretend it to be?
Requesting solace from a drink and company?
Ritually wrought instincts and partially rellished revelations.

You'd never understand if it wasn't for being young.
Yearning for years and solemnly sought
yells and whispers.

Please, I'm tired, hand me another beer.
Feb 2013 · 360
Why?
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
Because I've this urgency
to kiss you on your trembling lips.
I've this energy
to hold you with my tightest grip.

I carry an overwhelming
desire to smile when I see you.
It's inexplicable with it's overpowering.
I need your heart when you need it too.

Your kindness kills.
And your eyes,
like a poison pill,
an icy blue disguise.

The ink upon,
your freckled skin,
a way you bear on
your actual sin.

I can't help but feel your presence,
for you are omnipresent.
Here and there and of course;
You're everything I yearned for.



You ask me, Why?
Well, I don't really know.
Feb 2013 · 959
Messenger
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
She sat at the mahogany table,
salty water drops splashing the wood veins,
meticulously clenching the unopened envelope.

The messenger came,
wearing a raincoat.
Like a shadow in the night,
a darkness far from moonlight,

Spilled ink, blackest black,
branched in veins down the thick,
white parchment.

Russian roulette,
the bullet has been shot,
but the signature was wrong.

The messenger came,
the raincoat not wet.
She looked up with
wild eyes.

*You'll need a boat, not an umbrella.
Feb 2013 · 325
Simple Words
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
Why must our words be so grand?
Cannot we just say what we feel and keep it simple?
For simplicity is the most beautiful form of being.

Words must be large and grandeur for not all
of the world knows what simplicity is saying
when it stays silent.
Feb 2013 · 385
Disciplinary Action
Feb 2013 · 568
Indisputable
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
I've a deep thirst
for the blood in your veins.
A craving to kiss the flesh upon your ossein.
My heart aches for an answer
from the heaves of your breastbone.

Up
and
        down.

Up
and  
         down.

You inhale,
my breathing stops.
You exhale,
my heart throbs.

My thirst is unquenchable for
your answer remains a mystery.
Feb 2013 · 881
Recipe For Disaster
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
A mixture of
distrust
a sample of lust
here lies the trigger
let the gun linger
give a dash of love
pretentious and unworthy of.

Forgiven
and unforgiven
to the color of love
that we are all empty of.
Feb 2013 · 419
Rewritten (13 w)
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
He has my words,
I am a blank page.
He will rewrite me.
Feb 2013 · 366
Hope Brings Hope
Kendra Gibson Feb 2013
Our hearts are broken and I swear I can feel the pain.
It climbs down my rib cage like the roots of a tree,
my nerves grab the Earth,
pushing their way through the dirt, hoping
for peace;
a break from this aching.

Something better will come along.
Jan 2013 · 314
Untitled (15 w)
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
Why is it,
           every time I see you,
                       you turn

your head
            the other way?
Jan 2013 · 504
Give Me
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
Give me something I'm going to remember,
be it raw and unrehearsed.
Give me something intangible
that my only my heart can see and touch.

I don't care whatever it may be just give me something to feel.
I need something to feel.
Let my heart burst!
Let my mind go free!
Just give me something.
I beg of you, be raw.
get down to the nitty gritty,
be true,
be honest.

Give me something to remember.
Jan 2013 · 671
Speechless
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
There is an infinite combination of letters into words in the universe
and I cannot seem to say how I feel.
I've chosen to speak in silence for
you would never be able to understand what I say,
so just believe me,
when I tell you that you are my light.
You are my moon.
You are the colors I see at dawn.
My morning coffee,
my cigarette.
You are the way the trees sway to the Summer breeze.

I want to kiss your knees,
I want to kiss your arms,
I want to kiss every inch of your trembling skin.
I want you to keep my crooked heart.
I want you to stay my moon.

I want you to listen to my silence.
For it speaks more than my words.
Jan 2013 · 283
Head and Heart
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
While the moon and the sun fight,
to be in the sky at the same time,
I fight with my heart.
I fight with my head.
For they both want to be in the same place,
at the same time.
But one see's the truth,
and one knows too much.
Jan 2013 · 365
Until Then
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
I feel at peace
For right now at least.
With the rain dripping
Dropping
On the window sill
You can hear them smack the puddles
Splashing into smaller drops.

I feel at peace
For right now at least.
I can hear the piano keys
Tapping
Tapping
It's lonesome beat.

I feel at peace
For right now at least
With the drops and the tapping and
Your warm skin against my warm skin.
I feel at peace under these cool sheets
The night as warm as a forest fire.

I feel at peace with you beside me
For right now at least.
We'll see what tomorrow brings
But until then... I feel at peace.
Jan 2013 · 301
What is this? (10 w)
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
I don't know where I belong.
Here,
there,
or nowhere?
Jan 2013 · 313
Ignorance (12 w)
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
Give me love,
                           or give me life.
For neither is the same.
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
Give me a mountain top
and a rain drop.
All the clouds in the sky.
Nothing, though,
ever, ever,
will make me feel any different.
Jan 2013 · 316
Untitled
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
When I walk,
there are thorns wrapped around my calves.
When I sleep,
there are needles on my bed.
When I talk,
there are no words in my head.

I'm hurting.
I can't concentrate.
When I-
Wait. I forgot what i was going to say.

I'm young.
I think.
But I feel so old.

I'm hurting.
I'm hurting.
Later in the year last year, I went to the doctor and found out I have Fibromyalgia. It's not fun living with it . Honestly. I'm 20 years old and I hurt like an 80 year old.
Jan 2013 · 378
Oh God.
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
It's that bad again.
I want to slam my head against a brick wall and watch
the blood trickle down my uneven skin.
Hopeless
Restless
I know it all too well.
I just want to be.
But I won't let myself.

It's all my fault. It always is.

I want to watch the deep red liquid fall aimlessly down my
uneven skin.
I want to feel something.
I want to feel pain.
I want to hurt.
Why do I always have to feel helpless?
Worthless.
I'm stupid to think anyone would ever want me.
I don't even want me.

I'm a perfectionist but I'm so far from perfect.
It's that bad again.
I don't want to see scars on my body.
I want to slam my ignorant brain into a wall.
There's the anger I always feel.

Release it.
I want to release it.
I don't want to be angry anymore.
I'm too bitter.
I don't want to be bitter.
Jan 2013 · 309
Friends with the Night
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
"To hell with the day," she said.
For the sun hides the stars, the moon, and the dark.
Why must we run from the night?
That's when we can be most alive!
Shimmering stars are our party lights,
we mourn the moon but it gets lonely, too.
I see more demons during the day.
To hell with the sun.
I'll be friends with the night.
Jan 2013 · 582
Fingertips
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
Your fingertips,
the gentle brush against my skin,
the trembling it caused,
frightened me.
So new was this experience,
the overwhelming flood of emotions and
happiness.
You elated me.
You were lovely.
So lovely.

I could not handle your fingertips,
as they brushed against my trembling skin.
Every motion you made with your fingertips
I could read as if you were writing a book upon
my flesh.
I was a blank page,
and you were the pen.
Your fingertips,
pouring ink all over this new found feeling.

I wish you would never stop writing.
Jan 2013 · 306
Rain
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
Rain is rain.
There's no other way to explain
the sound it makes as it hits
the Earth.
         It's the soft, sad sound of
            seconds,
                     slowly
                            slowly
                                  slipping away.
Time has gone away in the moments
it
takes
for the ground
to
        drown

like bodies and their sorrows,
a soul and it's pain.
Hopelessly flailing
     frantically wailing
            drowning in emotions
             that mean to spite you.
If only you realized that the
drowning, choking, spitting;
was meant to cleanse you're broken
soul,
not **** it.
Jan 2013 · 379
I've become bored.
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
I've lost what it's like to live,
Well really, I never had it.
I've become bored with living;
There's not much to look forward to.
Stuck in the daily rotation, I sleep
Eat
Drink
Talk
Work.
One of these days I will sit
In silence.
For sake of hearing what the world has to say.
I'm sure it will whisper to me
'There are far better things to come.'
I just have to make them happen.
Jan 2013 · 548
Your Last Cigarette
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
I remember the last cigarette you inhaled,
the flame flickering hither and thither,
whilst you stood against the metal railing
of that aging stone balcony.
I remember how lovely you looked,
in your blackest, black robe.
That's all you were wearing, but the secrets of your skin we're still invested
in the foremost thoughts of my mind.
You were a mystery,
even to yourself.
Like smoke,
you remind me,
of something unattainable;
a beauty of sorts explainable.
Your last cigarette,
something that cannot be repeated.
You remind me
of your last cigarette.
Jan 2013 · 381
Something New
Kendra Gibson Jan 2013
So many other words,
I have written on blank pages,
blue lines crossing from side to side.
These words seemed different.
Winsome words.
Alas, they pulled me forward
to a secret place.
Yes, these syllables were strange.
I'll could say them
over,
over,
and
over,
again.


Don't leave me.
Dec 2011 · 679
Black Ice.
Kendra Gibson Dec 2011
Fall-
       ing,
snow,

down to Earth.

Ice and white;
Ice and black;
          Reckless

           Watch your back.

— The End —