Anxiety attacks.
I want to sleep..
I want this sadness to go away
But I can't my thought won't stop. Why won't they stop?
When I fall asleep it's not for long.
I wake up not breathing.
Anxiety attacks...
It takes everything I have to get out of bed.
To get ready for school.
I skip breakfast I don't like eating.
When I eat it gets stuck in my throat it's hard to swallow I feel like someone is in me pushing my food back up.
So I prefer to not eat.
Before I walk out of my house to school.
I get dizzy, I can't breathe.
Anxiety attacks...
I go to school I'm silent
I don't talk to anyone.
I feel like everytime I look up I see people staring at me. Talking about me.
So I keep my head down.
I get home lay in bed try to sleep.
But my breathing speeds up I can't catch my breathe.
Anxiety attacks...
I lay their shaking gasping for air.
I feel like I'm drowning
And I can't find away out.
I'm stuck, I'm lost, in lonely.
HELP ME!
I feel weak, my chest hurts.
Anxiety attacks...
Tear stained face
Sunken eyes
Chapped lips
Pale face.
I feel nothing now.
That's when you take the blade to your wrist to feel something.
You lay back in bed close your eyes.
Wishing for the world to go away.
To never wake up.
You can't breathe your shaking once again.
Anxiety attacks...
I wrote this for school. She said to write something big or a funny memory or even a sad memory of your life. This isn't a memory but is something big that I struggle with everyday.