It's been a while;
Been a while since we've last talked.
This is harder than I think you think it is,
Having you leave me so distraught.

When I told you that I loved you,
I hope you know it was the truth.
You said it to me as well,
I hope you knew what those words could do.

Just so you know,
I've cried about all of this too.
I've cried for you,
And because....

Well, because of you.

I hope you read what I'm saying,
Because these aren't just random words.
Are you still there?
I'm not yet finished.
Just one last thing,
a few last little words.

Remember when you said goodbye?
You were sitting on the couch.
I was trying to hold back the tears that came,
While halfheartedly staring back at you.

You had this look in your eye,
as if no matter what I could have said,
It wouldn't have gotten through.

I could tell you were done,
we were over with,
we were through.

Hell, I was blindsided;
No doubt about that.
You beat me up
Pretty good,
But all along I knew you'd be good at that,
and all along I prayed
that it wouldn't end that way.

I just wish there was more,
More I could have told you.
Maybe to change your mind.

Maybe so I wouldn't even have to be here tonight.

Crying.

Praying.

Saying, although much too late,

I love you.

Hold it together girl,
Just a few more
Hours
Minutes
Seconds...

Now you can let it out.
Go ahead, cry yourself
To the point of choking.

No one's around to hear your sobs,
You're safe here in the dark
Where you can't see anything,
And anything can not see you.

I know he hurt you,
He didn't mean to.
You know he loves you,
Is that why you cry?

Well you'll get over it eventually,
Just be sure to not let them see you like this.
They need to see you strong,
So strong is what I'll be.

You know, people are right,
You'll find another boy
Who loves you just the same.

There are a lot of fish in the ocean,
just wait and see.

Are you done with crying?
Are you now all spent?
Good because someone's coming.

Better hold it together,
And not let them see
The pain behind the smile;
The hurt inside of me.

I'll be the cop,
You'll be the robber
Since you stole my heart,
And ran with it.

It took only 2 weeks
For us to come together.
Wow, what a time we've had

Maturing,
Joking,
Laughing,
Crying,
Loving.

I'm not ashamed
To say that yes, I do love you.
I was your first kiss,
You were my third;
My best;
What I hoped to be my last.

Time takes it's toll
And the cruel people of this world
Are taking you away from me.
Not the first my love
Has been taken from me.

The last robber I let go
Because, well,
He only had part
Of what I held dear.

You though,
You took everything.
I fell hard for you
And still have the bruise to prove it.

So lets play a game,
To deal with the pain.
Hm? What do you say?

I'll be the cop,
You'll be the robber
Since you stole my heart,
And ran with it.

Less than a month ago
We were laughing and kissing
And holding each other until the day's end.
Oh how cruel time and karma and life and time
Can be.

You really had to go, huh?
I mean, it wasn't your fault of course.
You didn't have a choice. And summer time?
oh, well airfare is way too much
especially with that new job
paying twice as much as before,
being the underlying reason for you leaving.

Yes, and flying back to see me,
Well that would just be too exhausting.
Don't worry,
I get it.

You aren't the first to explain to me
The troubles of life
And how Karma holds you in her grasp
day-in and day-out.

Life is a *****, isn't it?
Just cruel.
Tearing you away
From everything you love;
refusing to let you go back.

Just remember,
you aren't the only one hurting.
I have a heart too.
go figure?

Being your first love,
I know how it is.
This isn't the first hurt for me, however
so just keep in mind...

it hurts more the second time around.
and the third.
and the time after the third.
It keeps building until life is more than just a *****.

Have you ever met the devil?
I have.
His real name is Life, not Lucifer.
The scribes misspelled it, sorry to disappoint you.

I'm not a hateful person,
I'm really not.
You just hurt.
A lot.

I think I'm done here.

I've loved you as best I can,
I put my trust in you.
But when the time came you ran,
Just like the other two.

My heart; all battered and bruised,
It's now laying on the floor
Beating helplessly because of you.

I'd pick up the pieces
Of what's left of me,
But they only reflect
Who I used to be,
when I was with you.

With you I could fly,
I gave everything I had to you...
But when you left me here to die,
Well I guess my heart did too.

I won't blame you for the hurt,
Because that would just be mean
But I will say that what you did...
Well, it just got the best of me.

I hope your new town's fine;
Perfect in every way.
But don't forget who you left behind,
And all the memories that will haunt you one day.

- Kelsey