Don't tell me
it was all a lie
because I knew
at one point
it was real
more real
than my hand
in front of my face
don't tell me
those lovesick mornings
were for nothing
and that you meant
nothing
don't tell me
that you didn't mean it
because I know
at one point
you did

All I want is to be simple with you
the warmth of your hand in mine
and your favorite sweater
are all I need
along with your kisses between sentences
spelling out I love you on my cheeks
and something to eat

and we can just

be

I know you think you're doing the right thing here
but darling please look again
at your choices
at the things you've been saying
to the one you once called your best friend

I know I've done some wrongs
but my dear I've apologized!
I tried to fix the remains of what was
but you just broke it again in my hands

So I've changed your name to
"DO NOT ANSWER"
in my phone
even though I have more things to say

I know you think you love him
but darling please look again
you're trying too hard for this
and now you've lost your best friend

you came into my life
and I saw a thousand ways you made it brighter
you settled right in
and I thought of a thousand things we could be together
you made me feel wanted, needed, loved
and I thought of a thousand ways you had made me better

you started growing cold
and I tried to think of a thousand ways I could fix this
you began to leave me behind
and I thought of a thousand things I could have done differently
you started to forget me
and I thought of a thousand things you were forgetting along with me
you cast me to the floor and my glass body shattered
and I felt a thousand different ways you had wronged me
you left me there and found someone else

but still I could only see

a thousand ways you made me better

The only way to describe
your unnaturally blue eyes
would be to use every cliche in the book
anything else
wouldn't do you justice

The only way to explain
the way that you are
would be to write a book
about all the things that you do
from the way your face
changes when you laugh
to the dumb things you text me about
'because you thought I would laugh'

the only way to describe
the way you make me feel
would be to use every cliche in the book
anything else
wouldn't do it justice