I wish my life was an old polaroid picture,
where I am the girl wearing ripped stockings,
sitting on an ugly coach next to my best friend at a party
laughing and drinking too much and capturing that moment,
to keep it forever, to look back
and know that
things were
okay.  
*-kh

She's the kind of girl that wears converse with her dress,
eyeliner running and hair a mess.
She's the type who wears red lipstick and
smokes cigarettes.
She's the girl who drinks to forget,



and has no regrets.

I remember the parking lot you pulled over to when you told me you were molested by your uncle,
I remember the road we were driving on when you told me you were suicidal
I remember  the garage sale we were looking for when you told me you cut yourself,
I remember the song we were listening to when you told me you have an eating disorder,
I remember the crack in your voice when you told me you were depressed and it's all an act,
I remember the moment I realized how I grew up with you my whole life and I have no idea who you are.

I looked at her sleeping ,
with her makeup smudged from crying and hair a mess.
She looked tired.
Tired of the the fake smiles and ugly lies.
Tired of pretending to be happy.
And in that moment I thought about how
happy she was as a child for no reason,
and how simple things were back then.
And now she's slowly disappearing, and I'm
just sitting there, watching it all happen,
knowing I can't do anything about it.
...And thats when I knew that I would love her
more than she would ever love me,
simply because she had nothing left
inside of her anymore.- kh

If there's one thing I learned about death it's that
everyone forgets you eventually,
whether its 6 years or 10 months,
they will forget the way you laughed,
or what your handwriting looked like,
They'll stop visiting you at your grave,
and soon you'll just be a faded memory,
an empty space in their mind,
so if there's one thing I learned about death its,
while you are alive, live for yourself,
because in the end, the only person you will have
is yourself.

she said she hated everyone, but she really hated herself.