tired eyes and restless body, music playing in my ears but all I can focus on is how even the sunburn on my back doesn't compare to the pain i feel from missing you so much and your beautiful smile

the gift of life is too beautiful to be sad or upset
even with all of the things I have and am thankful for
why am I still feeling low? why should anyone feel low?
these waters are too high and too many people are going under.

I feel physical pain in my heart when I think about you.
it makes me feel sick and the only thing that will cure it is being with you
which is a very unrealistic dream
and that fact slowly kills me
am I fatally ill or am I just lovesick?

The only thing we could agree on was that we loved each other

numb but also so happy but also so sad
what are you feeling?
the mix of emotions is too complex to understand
this anxiety and insecurity is past the point of bearable
all we need is to feel free
love free
be free
live free

let go of the past
don't worry about the future
focus on the present, it's a gift

if only I could feel your touch again
it was in the most innocent way but love grew
this love was different, there was no way it could fade or burn out
this love was real
if only I could be with you again

another sleepless night due to you taking over every thought in my mind.
if only I could have you by my side or near me in anyway I would be my happiest.
cause you were my first love and I don't know how I'll ever get over this.
the thought of you makes me sick because I miss you so much.
come back to me, cause I know it's meant to be.