not enough sleep

just drink more coffee

all jittery and hyped

for nothing

just working the days away

for a future i’m unsure of

do i even want to live it

i try to be optimistic

so i’ll keep saving

—just so worried and anxious

awaiting the answer of your approval

of life and learning

of the past and future

cheers to you and me

for all the times we've gotten back up

just to be pushed down

underwater, scathed by fire

scabs healing and urges in our fingertips

our minds the same

but trying not to be

we don’t know what this is

it just is

just let it be

and climb the mountain

huffing and puffing

the metapohorical life cliff

i have fleeting moments of pure happiness
bliss then struck down by sadness
overwhelming me
sometimes i want to live forever
for that's not even enough time to do everything i want to do
sometimes i want to live multiple lives
other times i wish i was someone else
and on the darker days i just wish i was dead