A night of disappointments.
Exasperations and constant
reminders of what could have been.

Why can't Happiness embrace me
for a single moment
without Regret
seeping in
from the sides?
His cold and spindly fingers
eventually seize me;
and I am unmoved
by the sweet sounds and encounters
of Joy;
He tries so hard to move me,
yet, to no avail.
The warm and comfort of
his presence goes unnoticed,
for Sadness enters
after I have been
raptured by Regret.  

As I sit,
crying
Sadness softly sits
besides me;
he whispers,
"just let go; nothing will be resolved,
just let go."
I listen, his beckoning words,
the moroseness, in
his voice
is convincing and enticing.
Happiness, and Joy
are no match for his song.
This ballad of sorrowful peace;
stories with no
happiness
ever
after.

If we live in constant fear
We cannot live at all.
The only strength we find within
Is the will to fight on;
To chase our dreams
Knowing there is an end.
Lo, we cannot--must not
Fear this end
But must revel in it--
For we have never been through it before.
Fear not in it,
But take comfort in knowing
The unknown is
Just
Beyond.

I cannot explain the dread I feel
when you look at me with those eyes.
As if I had failed.
Your admonished stare pounds me and my heart
sinks with the pressure.
The sheer weight of it all;
No normal person could thrive
(let alone, survive).
The knot in my throat,
stomach and mind is impossibly
taught.
Impossible.
That's all it is.
It is impossible for me to function
knowing I failed you.

Relying on a response
By your hand
Holding my heart
So delicately it beats
Unremittingly of songs
And tears it weeps
For love of hope
Alone I cannot win
Your affection

Do I dare
Strive for more
Than what has been
Of late nights
I lay awake
Dreaming of dreams
Do not come true
Love will prevail

Selfishly, I want you
to be mine.
Egregiously, I err
on doubts.

Then I shall walk forevermore
Into the ocean
Onto the shore.
The wind’s caress will guide me there
From grains of sand
To heaven’s stairs
The waves will beat onto my heart
Reflecting stars
So far apart
Yet close enough for eyes to see
The dreams of hope
And hope of dreams
Then I shall walk forevermore
Into the ocean
Onto the shore
With closed eyes and open heart
Hoping this should never fall apart.