I sweat deep warmth
In the grouchy storm
Because my body’s worn

In a cold dress
Captured
In a melting mess

Sized from ignorance
I peel labels
Torn through significance

I reveal the stress
But given this test
All the cut feathers
And opened chests
My instabilities
Cause me to digress

He finds repression
Skinned naked
By depression
In ultimate digression

Healed by succession
Only cheated by obsession
Fooled by impression

In every session
He burns confession

Hated for his transgression
In ultimate digestion
He finds progression

He finds repression
Skinned naked
By depression
In ultimate digression

Cut by oppression
Cheated by misconception
Fooled by concession
He burns mental possession.

My method sentimental
Bold is my mood
Surely with light
I must improve

I throw my self into a haze
In a mythical daze
Of rhythmic cortexes
A phased phrase

I run for a day
With the dreams
I cast truths away

My method sentimental
Bold is my mood
Surely with light
I must improve

Stop staring
I’m defaced
When I find me
You’ll be replaced

Winter Vitamin D
Here’s happiness
I’ll never see

Ripped into a metropolis
Warmed in clothed greed
You shine their suits
You melt frozen streets

I’ll always find you
Always sadistic
Always shining through

Impregnated with uncertainty
Long overdue

Waiting on opportunity
My patience is subdued

Attempted abortions
With 4th trimester distortions
Stillbirth ensues

Screams inside the sirens
Struck with hospitalization
Bedridden doormen
Realization…

The time arrives
With labor pains
And liberation pangs

I cut the umbilical chains
Only a piece of me remains

I feel the guarantee
The time is now
I feel parturiency…

Some eerie dissonance
He always seems to reverence
Instead, I chose this presence.

Until now, I realize
The dangerous game he played

It took me until now.
The dangerous mistake I made.

Destruction of every blunt fate
Dwindling
I’m my washing my plate

I have devised a simple way

To dig the fork
Into this white
Without the knife

Beyond my course
The pieces of the round
Are stripped and strangling forth

I know there are many ways to lift you
To shape you
To cook you

Garlic and gravy
To make you

Mashed potatoes in my mind
What does this mean?
Simple representation of the time

I wonder if I should deal.
Observing the ***** ice
Shaking the cup
Will this suffice?

For my current incision
For my journey
My current decision

I see versions of prosperity.
They pass my eyes.
Flashes of freedom
In disguise

My thoughts become liquid
Like a watery gloom

Filling it up
Pouring into the room

Then sweeping me away
Like a used broom.

I see versions of prosperity pass my eyes.
Flashes of freedom
In disguise

Stolen villages
And labored hands
Forgive my feet.
They walk the conquered lands.

Behind my eyes
There’s a fierce intensity

I breathe a false air
I separate true destiny

The past and the future
Hearing the call finally

Within a realm of shattered proportions
I ask the walls to lie

They wrote a different story for me
Withdrawal, I would comply

Should I live?
Yes, someone says… selfishly

You’d claim emotions
I have always lost me

I walk around
With an enormous planet

It sits on top me
I’m drinking all the oceans
And all the seas

No connections to draw on
No protection to feed on

Wet and *****
In a rainy mélange

I drink my spirit
I swallow my soul
Because it’s synthetic
It’s not my own.

It doesn’t matter what I think
My head driven into water
I want memories to sink

My angel wings clipped
Forced into a participation
It was draconian experimentation

He is the wretched force
An intimidate inclination
He wants to find the source
Of ultimate liberation

You’d spark my core
Like a bomb in war
My apologies
You, I couldn’t ignore.

They controlled the way I think
I’m sorry
They erased your indelible ink

We were magnetic poles
Our minds were watched
Like border patrols

You meant everything
Whispers of truth began to sting.

Flashy debates and conversation
Like electromagnetic radiation
I captured your vibration

She injected me
With the poison inside
They knew we were attached.
My feelings, I pushed aside.
My thoughts, I would hide.

Why did I do it?
Suicide, I did commit.
When we split

I’ll always swim in regret
Wishing we’d never met

I emerge ****** and wet
In pain and upset
I look at my silhouette
I see you.
I’ll never forget.

Paraphrased is my paradise
Pushed down

Clouds
Waiting to be found

Left in mass transition
Pondering in blurred positions

Paraphrased is my paradise
Pushed down

Celestial clouds
Waiting to be found

Distorting my vision
Bent through kaleidoscopes
Caught in between
Periods of hope

Exporting distortion
Because I’m not broken

Days running in
They’re carved

Imprinted
I starve.

Tainted relief
I feel free.

Each veil
Remaining beneath

Exporting Distortion
Because I’m not broken

Restoring
All the power
I grab.

Reinforcing
All the power I have

I’m on a great journey
Trapped on a glorious road
I feel like running
Embedded with a code

Chewing myself
Swallowing one person
Digesting someone else

Plausible reminders
Allow the time

I prepare for the jaunt
In discovery of what I want

Chewing myself
Swallowing one person
Digesting someone else

I’m wrapped in a cordial dysfunction
Seared with an initial
An acronym of disjunction

I’m on a great journey
Trapped on a glorious road
I feel like running
Embedded with a code

Never disown hope
In the swallow of storms
Give up the recitation
Of all previous forms

I was an affirmation
Firm in someone’s grip
Hidden under doorways
Now I’m about slip

Reminders of destitution
Reaching for solutions

Running the prestidigitation
Trying to solve my situation

Never disown hope
In the swallow of storms
Give up the recitation
Of all previous forms

Give the revolution
Take your hands from the die.
I never give up.
One must see the sky
I captured the vision.
A new world inside my eye

Exporting distortion
Because I’m not broken

Days running in
They’re carved

Imprinted
I starve.

Tainted relief
I feel free.

Each veil
Remaining beneath

Exporting Distortion
Because I’m not broken

Restoring
All the power
I grab.

Reinforcing
All the power I have

Hot liquid in pieces
Exiting CO2
Excreting reflections
Thinking of you

Bleeding skin of fire
Together we fill the void
With An incision of desire

Journeys around the stratosphere
Sour digestion of tears
Love drowning all our fears

My body recognizes the link
Trying hard not to think

Under milky designs
Exploring wonders and signs

Releasing individuality
Feeling duality
Tasting originality

Forever entangled
In every aspect
Of paper pampered baskets

Silicon words
Status dripping
From the print preserved.

Calling his name
He believes.
He is deserved.

Inside fleshly plumbing
We hear humming
The voices of birds
In rapture of peace
Living a short life
Just like you and me

Crummy digestion
We cry against the wall
Screeching sleep
We awake to hear a call

Shattering your life
With a blinking thought
All too soon
We both are caught

We run pass the windy greens
In a maze
Remembering all the dreams

Lost in a grainy storm
Our thoughts subside.
We are gone

Obeying the orders
Programming our cognition
On an assignment not our own
Drifting on a mission

Excess
Encapsulates the truth
When you express

All that is or isn’t me

Given to the broad and minimal
I understand it’s intentional.

I feel like going insane
Searching my pockets
For tickets to the bronze train

The tracks are nickel and steel
Your fingers plucking them out

The tangled and webbed
Struggling to be free
Excess
When you express
All that is and isn’t me.

Bomb threat
The carnivore and I met

I deplete
Heavy breathing poison
And Nightmare success

Trapped near the clear walls
Concussion
I fall

Lowly walking outside my cage
Loud roars invisible
I’m in the Dark Age

Bomb threat
The carnivore and I met

Pieces of metal leaves
Nature gone
They left
Explosion on edge
No food
Starving this death

Once again
Banging glass
To look within

Fire breathing delusion
Begging
Confusion

Glassy sand
Underneath
Choking
I’m not the sea

Bomb threat
The carnivore and I met
Pieces of metal keys
I’m gone
Explosion
I left.

Slowly unplugging dreams
Holding my breath
Uncomforted contentment beams
Calmed by screams

Cords of love and lust
I light the past to déjà vu

Cords of hatred and trust
I light the future for you

My fingertips burn with jealousy
Living celestial reverie
Success enveloped by a fallacy

I was suffocated at birth.
Dragged by the liberation

I was suffocated at birth.
Decorated with colorful lacerations

I was suffocated at birth.
With hard cored freedom and insulation

I was suffocated at birth.
Killed by supersonic maturation…

Thoughts
Even when wrapped
And tightly capped

Between those eyes

I can obliterate
That crystal disguise

The method of prescription
Is not medicine

I see within.
The mental transcription

I’m sure it’s disabled .
Synapses relabeled

Never to slip into the dogmatic
I must speak to power.
I return to the Socratic.

I must encounter today.
In many moments
In many ways

Never in a backdrop
I wanted to paint images
Of windows shattered

Caste into boxes
Smashed together like trains

I melted wisdom
In complex rain

I waited for blisters
I screamed from callus
I waited for malice

I wanted to paint images
Without being told
I wanted to paint images
Without being sold

Several written
And none read
History stabbed
Stories bled

Torn
Withdrawn
To except a fate
Waiting to be born
A prisoner of this state

Separating truth
I reveal the lies.
Bearing the leverage
I see the blind
I am asked.
To surrender my mind

Calming capitulation
Revolution reformed.
From the natural expression
Of dialectical form

Several written
And none read
History stabbed
Stories dead

When I think of her
She inspires me to fight.
When I think of him
He inspires me to write.

Only when I think of them
Therein lies truth

Existing in small portions
Alive with no distortions

I misuse revival
When I discover them
I abuse survival

Overdone with zeal
I try to take control
They remind me
My hands are not real

When I put on the chains
I pull to them.
My rope hangs.

I dismantled.
Only a piece of me remains.

Cross cornered disposition
Weary eyes state my present condition

Reveling misinterpreted guides
Keycards lock the door
With me inside the floor

Blood dripping on me now
Mops began to plow
Yellow taped neighbors disavow

Red clocks separate events.
News mikes electrify the tents.

Reporting flesh
Reprising death
Writhing pain

Cross cornered disposition
Weary eyes state the present condition

Never fooled by green grass
It will leave me.
It will pass.

Unlocking
What I can’t ignore
Do I want it?
My hand on the door

Like a game
Time running out
I refuse.
The ****** mosaic formed.

Like scars unsealed
To your forces
Maybe I should yield

Medals are bestowed upon my frame
My attendance convinces me of the same

Rubber bands snap
I clap for myself
Rewarding my shelf

Green lit boxes tell me about progress
Who do you think are?
Red lit boxes?
Stop the squad car.

Catalysts become coupled
Into sweaty grains
All sounds are muffled

Pollution second handed me my life
I can’t breathe.
Bronchial ****** with a knife

This takes me back
Back to years
When I was wanted

When I was driven
Expectations daunted.

The trickledown theory of love
You may never get more
Than the person above

Asked to cross a bridge
Never constructed or built
Stretching with miles and miles of guilt

Switching each memory back
Clutching each thought
Remembering each act

This takes me back
Back to years
When I was wanted

When I was driven
Expectations daunted.

Now I live here
In stained judgment
Amazed at the emancipation
Of a withered reputation

Cold stairs inside of bricks
Breathing fire outside of sticks
You don’t like it when I look like this?
Different? Logical?

My face
Warm with blood
Filled with your majesty
Patient like a flood

Never the same
Bored by the ******
You orchestrated
My body maimed

Slamming at justice
Cherishing the gaveled
My life opened in envelopes
Sealing the unraveled

I address you correctly
In a bench of lies
You sit embarrassed
Everyone watching your eyes

A signed order
Sealed with my truth
Wrongly justified
Like a deafening light

Whispering from the fright
Crushing the gavel
Normalized contempt
Justice is now exempt.

Tabulation without results
Living here
I’m a part of cults

More than one
Not even two
Yes me.
Yes you.

I sometimes doubt
That we‘ll ever see
I sometimes doubt
If we could ever be

Like the electrons
Floating in empty space
We don’t even see
What’s right in front of our face?

Like neutrinos never erased
Sooner or later
By this hovering planet
We’ll be defaced

Tabulation without results
Living here
I’m a part of cults

More than one
Not even two
Yes me.
Yes you.

Capture the microcosm effect
Separation united
From the dangerous affect

All monetary discretion
I retired at 27
With death at age 37
Wiped way and washed
Like ashes to dust

Terrified of endurance
I know there’s no assurance

For my love
For my gain

Banded like toothpaste
White with mystery
Brushing in purgatory

For my lies
I asked candles
Waxy and dismantled

Burning with my dissent.
For my logic
Emotion is bent.

Corporation bosses
Tossing the lost
Into the fist of jaws

Concentrations flossing
The reparation of old glory
Muted and refuted

I’m not joining the band
Just because he said
Yes we can

Forwarded impact
Tampering with instructions
Designed to distract

Simple extraction
Of a words retraction
Windowed to sounds
When insanity surrounds

Where can I find
Where they draw the line
Intimately confined
To the criminally designed

Rebellion to the failed
Melting the walls
Of those jailed

Bored in governing planets
Murderous, supernova
We now live
In blundering expansion

Forwarded impact
Tampering with instructions
Designed to distract

There’s dark force
Raging my skin
And invading my corpse

Damped by ****** moods
Immersed in holy hues

Arranged in the distance
Cruising the corners
In apprehensive missions

Returned to a stolen delivery
Matched to a coved misery

There’s a dark force
Raging my skin
And invading my corpse
I never let it in.

Midair captures me
And I don’t care
I wrap up in rapture
Exploding every flare

Afraid of a dark alter
Stomping up infinite steps

Dissipating under me
I am kept

Octagons and windy signs
Captivate me
And my dark eyes

Midair captures me
Exploding every flare
I wrap up in rapture
And I don’t care

Running to forms streams
From race to race
I yell for screams
From face to face

On a plane of peace
Worries and despair
Gone today
But always there

Midair captures me
Exploding every flare
I wrap up in rapture
And I don’t care

Lock the faces
With a look of shame
Drudges and spaces
Places of pain

I’m sorry you died
I never got to see you
I’m sorry you died
I never got to meet you

After long years
I’m caught with no response
Tripped by delusion
And trapped with confusion

Lock the faces
With a look of shame
Drudges and spaces
Places of pain

Slushy, grungy, muddy
Plaster wall
Smashing plates
Demolition.
States fall

Branched anger
Tearing fear
Leafy goals
Plaster wall
Experience molds.

Lights out
I began to shout

Lit by ignition
Methane speaks
Losing cognition
I feel weak.

Luckily, blind
I knew you could see
Water leaked
Imaginary guarantee

I am safe.
Swallowing debris
Like a hero without a cape

I decided to run for ages
Under leafy dreams
Everything burned
Now it’s my turn

I decided to run for ages
I looked back .
I see burned pages

Leafy branches withdrawn
My whole life wasted.
My whole life is gone.

I wanted to say these words
Without hearing myself say them

I wanted to repeat these words
Without having to weigh them

Until I arrive
Am I leaving?
Now in this time
I am grieving.

For my brotherhood
For my meaning
They misunderstood
I wasn’t just dreaming.

A part of destiny
Because they don’t see
What they could be

I have yet arrived to the place
Where I can know
Everything about who I am
Or where I can go

But it’s ok.

Because until I arrive
I am leaving
Now in this time
I am grieving.

I am alive.
I am breathing.

Now this time
My life has meaning.

In an instant
I soar

I always wondered
What it was like
To explore

In an instant
I’m not human.
Like an object
I’m stored.

Clouds and glory
High rise to wealth

Down below.
I see myself.

Purple symmetry
Knives
Slices of chemistry

Dry
Nestled on the stove
I know why
I wasn’t told.

All the measurements on the rim
And the layers paper thin

Heavier than yesterday
Is the new glass
I almost tripped.
Reflexes move fast.

Scoops of jelly
Spoons
Slippery symmetry

After I am finish
Impatiently
My thoughts diminish

On the couch
In grocery dreaming
I devour the meaning.

My words are young.
I test contents on my tongue.

I rode the gluey spread
Because my thoughts were sandwiched
When I taste the bread

Today’s introversion
Of mental conversion
Is a dark demonstration
Because I see them
Drilling conversation

They aren’t here.
We burn candles
Because the lights are out
We disappear

Deep down
You asked
Who we are?
You run to us.
You know where to go
And how far

You cut our wrists
You push us off our throne.

Adorned with sorrow
You know who we are
For us …
There is no tomorrow.

Tabulation without results
Living here
I’m a part of cults

More than one
Not even two
Yes me.
Yes you.

I sometimes doubt
That we‘ll ever see
I sometimes doubt
If we could ever be

Like the electrons
Floating in empty space
We don’t even see
What’s right in front of our face?

Like neutrinos never erased
Sooner or later
By this hovering planet
We’ll be defaced

Tabulation without results
Living here
I’m a part of cults

More than one
Not even two
Yes me.
Yes you.

Capture the microcosm effect
Separation united
From the dangerous affect

Chronic high
Heating cool stairs
Pushing buttons to alarm sighs

Causing you to yearn
Causing me to learn

Chronic high
Heating cool stairs
Pushing buttons to move leg and arms
Shy

Abrasive winds on the follicles of an ear

Bursting chimes
Scrabbling nickels …dimes

You send messages
Twisting thoughts
Momentarily fined

You scribbled messages
I could read
This time
You defined

We marched forward today
Our arms gliding over the globe

We were the ray
Of light
Shattering the creation of all aberration

We became the screams in middle birth
Then we transformed
We became the earth

We became energy
Lifting brains out of our skulls

Over the cosmos we swam
Like the fish in an open dam

We were night.
We were day.

Our arms gliding over the globe
We were the ray
Of light
Shattering the creation of all aberration

We walked with Lions.
Over the Hydrogen Sun

We walked with the sky.
Beating like the drums

We slid between the leaves
Killing nature
We became greed

We marched forward today
Our arms gliding over the globe
We were the ray
Of light
Shattering the creation of all aberration

We were born into truth
Me and You
Before we die
There is something we must do.

Demonstration takes me to the memory
Of blank pages
Floating with integrity

Bitterness trapped on the white of my teeth
So I swallow the words
And never blink

My words disappear on skin
Pushing them down
Allowing elevation to begin

Demonstration takes me to the memory
Of blank pages
Floating with integrity

To go away and mourn
Dynamic scorn

Feeling stuck
Trapped
For days

Getting the messages
Transmitted through outer space

The scientist tomorrow
The artist today

It doesn’t matter
Neither one
I can’t forsake.

With the rupturing of the body
And splitting of veins
I unleash pain
Wrapped in chains

I’ve taken each desperate pleasure
And wrapped in a beautiful measure

My skin destroyed by naïveté
Breaking my bones
And crippling my day

Inside my body is engaged
Poison on my wedding finger
My body ends the battle
Asking to be enraged

I cling to the temperature
Warmed by a vision
And cooled with a light

I lost every battle
Weakness and strength
Power and might

Almost drained by a perception
That my life is complete
Dripping with confession

Inside my body is engaged
Poison on my wedding finger
My body ends the battle
Asking to be enraged
  
With the rupturing of the body
And splitting of veins
I unleash pain
Wrapped in chains

Jammed into structures
Meshed into forces
Crumbled by voices

Closing into my breaths
Closer to excitation
Silently dreaming

For them to hear me
Violently screaming for help
For them to see me
I’m alone, by myself.

Jammed into structures
Meshed into forces
Crumbled by voices

My brain is empty and null
Closer to excitation
I crush my skull