Alone
Although it's better to be alone
It's not.
Alone in silence
Silence is darkness
Darkness is sadness
Sadness is hurt
I don't want to be hurt.
Alone.

Although I rather be alone
I want to be with you
But you make me feel alone
But your not alone.

I want to be alone
But I can't be alone
I want to be alone
But it hurts being alone.
Empty

Although I want to be alone
I don't want to be empty.
Empty
Alone
Hurt.

Is it pain that you feel when you get hurt?
Is it suffocation?
It feels like you can't breathe?

Do you think that getting hurt is better then healing from it?
From trying to love again?
I think it's worst

It's worst to try to love someone
But can't no more
Because you don't know how .....
It hurts more then getting hurt.

It hurts wanting to put your all into someone
But can't because your insecure
You doubt it
You don't have faith

It's hard to trust again
Love again
Feel again
Because it hurts wanting to buy can't.


So you don't try it
You ignore it
You don't charish the love that someone is giving you
And so you hurt them.


It's all a cycle.
So just try ....
Try to love
To feel, to care....

What's the meaning of true?
Truth ?
You?
No.

True... With your words?
No
You?
Not you

You was never true
That is not you
No
You?

You being true
About what?
About you?
You don't know you.

Baby girl, accept that your still learning
Be true
Accept the truth
Yes.
You

Thighs, beautiful Tighs
Thighs so big
But beautiful at the same time
Beautiful.

Thighs, I can touch all the time
Mines! My thighs
Beautiful girl thighs
Touch my thighs?

Touch them
Nice and slow...
Make them yours
Own them

Touch my thighs
While kissing my neck
Touch them nice and slow
Lay me down and kiss my thighs
Whisper to them that there yours

Make them feel like luxery
Like their royalty to you
Like the rest of my body
Make them feel like their important.

I’m sorry that I surprised you with my insecurities, with my doubts, with my way of action.
I’m sorry of my silence,  but silence of a wind of lighting, looks so bright but so quit but also means a thousands words.
I’m sorry that I’ve been through a lot where I just compare you with every animal (male) in this field of land

I’m sorry that I wasted your time,
I’m sorry that I tried to take the risk with you, because I liked you and I thought I could love you, the way you fell in love with me
But I just can’t believe you, I can’t trust you, I cant be with you, can you forgive me?

Don’t get me wrong at one point I felt a spark
That maybe just maybe I could fall in love you
But it went away right quick when I rethought about the sadness that I could go through if I fell in love again

But than we have to think about everything is a risk
If you don’t take a risk where would you go in life?

Maybe just maybe
We could start all over again
Maybe just maybe
We could make something happen

Maybe just maybe
We wont have to pretend
Maybe just maybe we could love all over again]
But for real this time
Maybe just maybe

Maybe just maybe
I wont be so insecure
Maybe just maybe
I could trust you all over again

Maybe just maybe
I wont be that **** up *****
You once called me
Maybe just maybe I could forget that

Maybe just maybe
I wont be that **** you claim me to be
Maybe just maybe I could forget that
Maybe just maybe

Maybe just maybe
I could give you another chance
Maybe just maybe
I wont be so deep into my thoughts
I might just open up
Maybe just maybe

Maybe just maybe
I could erase the images of that other *****
Maybe just maybe I could forget
Maybe just maybe
I wont have that in my head, while we are making love
Maybe just maybe

Maybe just maybe
I could forget
That picture she took
And put It al over instagram quoting “My baby, I love him so much 1year at it”
Maybe just maybe I could forget that

Maybe just maybe
I could forget that you wasted 5 years of my life
Maybe just maybe I could forget that

Maybe just maybe
I could forget that you cheated on me
With another *****
For a complete year, than come back to my house like nothing
Maybe just maybe I could forget that

Maybe just maybe
I could forget that you got this ***** pregnant
Maybe just maybe I could forget that
Maybe just maybe, I could forget that you once got me pregnant and made me abort that
Maybe just maybe I could forget that

Maybe just maybe you left me
To go be with her
To take care of that baby
Maybe just maybe I could forget that

But you know what
I don’t even know why your at my footsteps
My husband is sleep, from taking care of our newborn baby
Maybe just maybe you cold forget that.

A love so strong
Could always forgive
A love so strong
Could always forget
A love so strong would never leave, because it’s a love so strong and that’s what every lover needs.

I could never leave you
Because my heart needs you
You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me
Why yours is like a little  seizure?

I thought our love was true
But you left me on the middle of the road without a clue
I didn’t know what to do
At that time I really needed you


I thought two lovers was amazing
I thought to lovers was creative
I thought two lovers only care about each other
And only one another

But you prove to me that I was wrong
You prove to me that I was dumb
Because I believe what you told me
I believed that you was in love ….. I’m so dumb

You just see my body
And that’s what you want
You see my curves
And that’s what you want

You get that *** scene of us and that’s what you wanted
You never wanted “us”
You never wanted love
You just want to *** not even make love.

It took me so long to realize this
Even though I already gave you some of me
You still managed to stay
Something I could never understand

Which is what makes me think you loved me
But yet again
I could be thinking on space
With my eyes covered by my hands

I love you, I love you enough to forgive you
But I cant fight anymore
My heart cant handle it anymore

The way he looks at me
Makes me want to melt
The way he smiles at me
I just get lost of words.

His smile is just so perfect to me
Just watching him study
Makes me fall for him
Is it feeling that I’m getting for him?
For someone I barely even know?

He makes my heart warm
He makes me happy
He’s so perfect to me
Wow….. I might be able to love him

I’ve been hurt so many times
But it seems that he may cure the hurt
It makes me so happy just thinking about that
Makes me blush

On facetime with him while writing this
And he don’t even know it
He only see me looking at him and smiling
So I hope he knows that he’s winning.

But what is the secret that he’s hiding
I must know
I must know why he’s like this
Is he faking these emotions?
Is he lying..

But I don’t want to think like that
Because I might mess up  something worth fighting for.