I’m not lonely like before
Just kind of deceiving
I ‘m not the one to shut the door
If I had you believing

I’m not a lover of the melody
And all that’s easy to see
I’m not part of the symphony
I always am me

I’m not the one to close the eyes
And not care what’s inside
I’m not the one who rolls the dice
I choose my own ride

I’m not the one who loves not
And act like a fool
I’m not the one who gives a lot
Then regret giving my all

I’m not the one you can easily read
Like books and newspaper
I’m not the one you might not need
You know me ever or never?

Tears
I can bear
Even pain
That takes
Time to heal
Even slaps
On my face
And my
*** getting kicked
I can take
Losing a thousand
Times
With my face
On the mud
I can take
People shouting
And cursing
At me
But what I can’t take
Is your silence
That lingers from my ears
To my heart
And to my soul
That simple silence
which tells me
I can never be in your
World

My mind is battling itself
When my heart is falling dead
This love I do not regret
But this life I hate instead
The misery of every second
I have collected in my pocket
Is my very own ticket
To be blown off by a rocket.
And there I go
Away without another
No one really cares
No one even bothers.

Wish I know how to say the right words
Wish I know what you want me to do
But all I can say are my own little words
And all I can do is only few

Wish I could be the love of your life
Wish I am the one made for you
But all I am is just a part of your life
And that I’m only a friend to you

Wish that our love story is easy
Wish that we could have at least a try
But all there is got me feeling uneasy
And my heart without you is starting to die

Wish this could all be my call
Wish you could just be mine
But all I got is nothing at all
And still waiting for the right time

Hello mediocrity
Stop pulling me like gravity
Don't be too sensitive
When I try to chase the positive
You're on your own now
I'm not a victim you can grab down
It's done and all over
You can go now, I'm not your lover.