that i no longer know how to
                                              -hold your hand

love is.
giving someone.
the knife.
to stab you.
with your own words.
whispered.
at 3:00 am.
and trusting them.
not to drive.
the knife.
through your back.
or to sharpen.
your words.
into new ones.
to use.
against you.

i think
i loved you
long ago
before i knew
what love was
and something
tells me you
love me now
only because
when i laugh
by his side
you always
turn away and
whenever I
try to approach you
you purposely
run out of things
to say and it
pains my heart
to think that
we were so bad
at getting our timing
right and now the
most we will ever
share is never
sharing our light
i think
i loved you
long ago
and maybe you
did too
but timing is one
hell of a thing
and you still never
said I love you

you tell me
No One loves you
but i bet that isn’t true
what you really mean to say
is that you don’t love any of the
people that do, which is quite alright
i mean i support all the crap about waiting for the one
but don’t you dare say no one loves you. because.   i.    am.     not.    No One.

You smile at me
through Your tears
and in Your pain
assure me i will
get better too
because You're
the type of person
to have so much light
even the plants want to grow
toward you.

i spent
so long
searching
for the universe
never realizing it was
hiding in disguise perhaps
that explains why i was always
so     very      lost      in       his     eyes.

Don't let Anyone
make You feel
like Holding
onto Forever
is a Must
after all
Everything you
love
is just Well
arranged Dust