Everyday more ashes,
As I am walking by,
A piece of me falling down,
Down, down hitting the ground.

Behind me, I leave a pile,
Your love following me around,
Why can't I get rid of what you've done,
Without losing every piece of myself?

I continue walking,
Leaving a trail,
The ashes of my memories,
Behind me, but always following.

Bare bones of my back,
Heartbeat scattered,
Loud, growling pain,
         Twelve pairs in my rib cage,
                   Poking from pale skin,
         Black and blue hipbones,
                   Dying to stick out,
                   Dying to be thin,
Brittle little body,
Last breath short.

You made me *****,
Feeling so abused,
Something stolen,
Something used,
Damaged youth,
Damaged pride.

Laying cold,
Something doesn't feel right,
Fading slow,
But mind taking flight,
Deep aching pain,
Taking me away,
My limbs like steel,
Losing all sight.

Eye lids flutter,
Mind spinning round,
Memories floating by,
Tears falling down,
Spinning spinning,
Falling,
On the floor,
Out

Smile little dear,
Though broken and scared,
Open your eyes,
Don't waste any tears,
Look at the sky,
The sun shining high,
You have no more to fear

Cold
So lonely
I'm lost
But never alone

Hands grip my body
Keeping me in
But I'm not safe
Afraid to blink

Suffocating,
Spineless,
Can't escape,
Memories flooding,
Powerless,
The emptiness taking over,
Bitter end.

He broke my wings,
I couldn't fly away,
Stuck to die,
All there is to do is cry,
Shaking,
Starving,
Dead.

Tormenting,
I begin to cry.
Touching,
I wish I didn't feel.
Screaming,
Why can't anyone hear?

Lost and broken,
Why did you choose me for your prey?
You stole me,
Controlled me,
Did everything to mold me,
And take myself away.
You've left me cold,
Is my heart even beating?

The lust will wait,
The time's not due,
I'm not there yet,
Not ready for you,
Your charm,
Your words,
Took me by surprise,
Please don't fret,
It's only wise.

You come and go,
Leave me, cry,
Scared or alone,
Which is worse?
When you hurt me,
When you destroy me,
Is that worse than the bitter cold,
When I'm here alone,
Suffering in my mind,
Without you.