I've never felt so lost,
I've never felt so empty
Nothing can find me,
Nothing can fill me.

I stand here cold,
Frozen to my feelings
Numb to everything around me
Senseless to what is.

I hope to be found
So I can find me
I hope to heal
So I can be released.

Nothing is the same
Seeking the norm,
But finding what is lost
Is like trying to find the light

Never had I ever seen
Your eyes shine so bright
The way they did
As you stared into the night sky

It wasn't a reflection of the stars
But a reflection of your love
Your love for the stars
For the universe

Your eyes embody life
A life that is as endless as the sky
They embody peace
The peace you believe our world should be

Your eyes are majestic
Captivating nature as it crosses
They hold so much magic
That makes me feel alive

Your eyes are blue haven
Where I look to for safety
They see so much
More than I can ever see

Your eyes shine so bright, all the time
They are the stars; I made a wish
Your eyes are the universe
Endless magic

Words are tossed
Misinterpreted phrases
Hidden messages
Double standards

Meaningful, meaningless words
Tangled in your thoughts
A battle often lost
Of words unspoken

Words. Full of promises, goodbyes, lies
Hurting, healing, loving
Read between the lines
What does that mean

These letters, create words
Words create letters
Letters are exchanged,
Words are interpreted

How, why?
What does this mean
What is this defined
Hope, fear, hate, love

The day you entered Heaven
My heart cracked
Tears shed.
My world shattered.

Since then I've always asked
Why He wanted you
Home so soon
Questions unanswered.

Ever since,
You've never left my mind
My heart won't ever
Be whole again

No one can fix it
It's broken
Till I too, are called Home
He is holding it, us, together

I think about you
Who you'd be
What you'd be like
How gracious, beautiful

I'm left here
With my imagination
Of your being,
You and He are my guide

Angels in the sky
I cannot see, but feel
You are here with me
And there with Him

I should be
The one  you follow. Instead,
I want to follow you
He is our protector. For me and you.

Sweet girl,
You are ever lasting,
Just as He
Faithful, forgiving, strong.

Today, I saw you
You looked great
That smile never changed
I missed it

Today, every feeling for you
Came back to me
I tried to regress, but failed
For you were not alone

Today, I was graced
With your charm
And reminded of your intelligence
As if I had forgotten

Today, you shared so much
You don't love her, but
You love who I've become
Only time will tell

Today, we picked up where
We left off, nothing's changed
Dancing with my heart
That has never let go

Today, you told me
I looked beautiful,   and
My energy, tangible,
I won't forget that

Today, I realized
We want the same things in life,
I hope you did too
Now what

Today, you kissed me
We both wanted more
Knowing it wouldn't
We didn't

Today, I'm back where
I was when I said
Good-bye for the first time
Caught up in emotions & wishful thinking

Today, you are on my mind, again.

Find that sparkle in my eye
That's as shiny as the night sky
It's where you can find me
If you ever lose me

Look past that sparkle now
It's time to get deep down
Take a walk to the most sacred part
It's where you'll find me, in my heart

Seek wisdom's intellect
Listen to the words my lips project
They're as bright as my smile
With promises of worthwhile

Take a step back
Now, everything is in tact
Beauty stands before you
Nothing ever seemed more true

A glittered stare
And the world around is bare
Come find me
So we both can see

This is what is missing
That thing you keep hinting
This wondrous fairy tale,
You found Cinderella

The rain falls as
The flowers bloom
The sun shines as
The night falls

The earth moves as
The space is still
The heart beats as
The flow stops

The eyes close as
The mind opens
The mouth speaks as
The silence remains

flatter me with intellect
charm me with your smile
shower me with gifts
love me with your heart

Sweet words drown my ears
As the melody wraps around my heart

All these love findings
Make it feel a bit disheartening, but

This story of you and I
Whoever "you" are

This story is written in my mind
This romantic evening of

Everything I've ever wished for
It's all coming true tonight

You are mine
I am yours

This love song written in my mind
This song played in my heart

Please tell me it's true
That you are me and I are you

This love song to you
This love story I've fantasized

Tell me it's true, tonight
Tell me it's you, this love song to you

My mind is screaming inside my head
As my heart is shredding beneath my chest
My eyes are crying invisible tears
As my ears are hearing nothing to please

My hope is wandering, lost a midst
As my faith is slowly shattering
My weakness is growing stronger
As my strength is giving in

My peace is trying to find me
As chaos billows around
My pain is gaining pace
As the morphine sets in

My world keeps on falling
As waters keep on rising
My knees are slowly buckling
As I try to stand tall

My body is losing me
As I am losing it
My soul is finally gone
As I am letting go

Tonight as I fall asleep,

I feel you sink into bed
Right next to me.
I feel as you reach over to kiss me,
kiss me goodnight.

I feel as you slide under the covers
bringing your body close to mine.
I feel your warmth
colliding with mine.

I feel your eyes glance
up and down my body
As they settle in to close
I feel you.

I feel you here,
but only in my dreams.
I feel you darken the moonlight,
but it's only your shadow.

That's the only thing I feel tonight.

You've caught me in your web
I reach out with sticky fingers
Grasping strangers
Still holding onto you

No one is the same
So I retract
Back into your web

There's so many people around
So many faces to see
So many hands to hold
So many people that he could be

I miss the warmth of your soft skin
The taste of your lips
I miss the way you take me in
The way your hands feel on my hips

I remember the smell of your hair
An herbal sweetness
I remember your eyes held so much care
With patience and tenderness

With so many people around
You're still here
You won't leave my mind
And I'm just left there

I sit and wait
Unsure of where this time is going
Trusting it won't leave me here as bait
Praying it will find me knowing

I don't want anything but you
You're not coming back
I open my eyes to find you
And I'm trying everything to stay on track

I've stumbled over this
With my mind and my heart
It's a battle I won't miss
If I can only win without falling apart

Half notes become whole notes
Stamping themselves on the staff
Carefully creating a wave of melody
The melody goes on
And the notes get carried away
As lyrics are wisely chosen
Let the words twist through the notes
As they wisp off your tongue they kiss your lips
Making beautiful song

You're that song stuck in my head
You're the face that makes me grin
You have eyes that make me wonder
And a smile that makes me calm

You and me we're like a melody
Walking hand in hand
You and me are like sugar and spice,
Making people wonder what its like

This all seems too good to be true
That someone like me could have someone like you
You give me butterflies
Though I'm not quite sure why

At the day's end
Staring at the moon and peeking at the stars, we lay in bed
You wrap your arms around me
Now I see how you are

Our eyes close
As we dream with each other
Sweet kisses of sunlight
Awaken with you gone

I'll see you tonight
Again     maybe
While I look up at the moon
Maybe you'll be peeking at the stars

With you I’ve watched the sunrise
Together, we’ve seen the rain fall
Together, we’ve seen the sun and the moon
With you I wanna watch the sunset as my light fades away

On the rainest day
You’re the ray shining through
On the darkest night
You’re the sparkle in the sky

On the foggiest day
Your face clears my mind
On my weakest day
You’re strength takes my side

On my strongest days
You’re my biggest fan
On my days of doubt
You always remind me

On my saddest days
You hold my heart
On my happiest days
You are always with me