I used to have the hardest time
understanding how someone
could affect another so
profoundly
Then I met him and now all is clear
This morning, before first period
began,
I was exremely hungry and had
planned to eat a snack
But as soon as he walked in looking
like he does
And showing off that smile,
My appetite completely vanished.
My belly made leaps and turns
in his presence
Whether this was from
joy or nervousness,
I haven't a clue.
And the hardest thing is, he sits
right next to me.
Right next to me.
But the problem is, it's not close enough.
I want to feel the warmth of his body
as he leans against me.
I want him to pull the stupid
yawn, arm stretch, move
just so he can put his arm around me.
What is it like, I wonder,
to be held in those arms?
How must it sound,
to hear his lips speak my name?
How do his lips taste,
And what does he smell like?
All these questions reside unsolved,
peices to a missing puzzle.
When he looks at me,
and speaks to me,
or so much as is in the same room,
I feel myself melt as if I will
become nothing more but
a puddle upon the ground.
This can't be healthy, I know,
But I want more often to
lose my appetite.

He is the sunlight I see in the morning
that sheds light and bright joy
throughout my world.
I see him and can't control the
smile that forms upon
my lips
It is because of him that my heart
races a million miles
and when he meets my gaze
it stops completely
How can one person affect me so much?
Why is it that without him,
I feel lost?
And how can I produce the courage
to do what seems impossible?
Should I let him know of these uncontrollable
feelings swirling within me?
Does he have those as well?
Yet, I feel if he doesn't feel the same,
I'll be broken, unable to be
repaired.
I wish he would notice
me.

One of the most heart-wrenching things to know
Is when your best friend finds a boy
And she begins to let you go
You wish to feel happy
That she's no longer single
But you just feel empty
And your eyes start to tingle

You remember back to the times
When it was just the two of you
Messing around and causing trouble
Like you always used to do
You and her
The unseperable pair
Then one day
She's no longer there
You watch them walk
Hand in hand
And there you are
Alone you stand

But there are those days she does notice you
You cherish and praise them
That's what you do
You pray that it will last forever
That one single moment
When you're together
You try to catch up on all your events
And then she starts talking
About her charming prince

You try to keep from rolling your eyes,
Or tap your foot,
Or scowl in despise
But it's not as if it would even matter
She doesn't notice
She just continues the chatter

Sometimes I just wish it could all turn around
But then I feel guilty
And stare at the ground
How could I hate that she might be in love?
Even if it means
Missing me all above?
She is a true friend,
I will tell you that
She doesn't play tricks
Or stabs in the back
She knows when you're sad
And she's there when you cry
And she can make you laugh
Out loud in delight

In a way I am happy that she does have this boy
It's just sometimes I dream
That I was more than a toy
She is my sister
So I do wish her the best
And even though she might not notice my pain
I'll behave for the rest

A smile's what I want
A smile's all I need
Just something to fulfill
All my happy dreams
Can you lift my spirits?
Turn this thing around?
Could you be the one
To make this frown
Turn upsidedown?
Why is it I tremble?
Why is it I cry?
Maybe it's because I feel
The joy in life run dry
I'm asking you one question
This one simple request
Just lift your head and smile
And make this day the best